 Blog PostsFriends         | Raevyn - 08/18/2016Thirteen years seems like an incredibly long amount of time. So many things in a life changes, grows, and settles into place. However, losing a member of your family after only thirteen years puts into perspective just how quickly that time flies. How quickly things can disappear entirely.My baby Raevyn had to be put down today. I spent a good portion of my night on my living room floor, petting her while she lied there with her head propped up on my leg, telling me with her eyes something I hadn't wanted to accept. She was ready to leave, and she needed me to be ready to let her go. About a year ago, Raevyn was diagnosed with Cushings disease. And she's gradually been getting worse despite the number of medications the vet and I tried using on her to ease the suffering it caused. It wasn't bad at first but it's been a long downhill battle with an inevitable ending. Just so happens that today was that day. We went to the vet, and after the examination, she told me she would give her until the end of the weekend, and that was if I was lucky. That the pain was getting worse, she could barely walk, and getting up and down hurt too much without assistance. She told me I could take her home, make her comfortable, and let her pass, and I was tempted to take the chance to spend a bit more time with her. But looking at her face, I knew I couldn't do that to her. She knew and accepted what was going on; had made her peace with it. Rather than keeping her drugged and lying in pain unable to walk properly, I made my decision. The same vet she'd gone to for her thirteen years of life cried as I did when she administered the sedative that would make her sleepy and calm, then the IV that finally let her rest. When I first took her, her eyes held pain but there was no fear, only acceptance. And when she passed, there was only peace. I couldn't have hoped for a more peaceful way of her passing. She was calm, and with people who loved her. And she'll definitely live on through those people. In the end, I think that's all anyone can hope for.      Cold Iron: Made me fucking cry 7 years ago • Report  Well written Ash Well written indeed  0  Kolibrimutterbar: Dear Ash... I am really sorry that your baby has passed away. You wrote a beautiful eulogy for her. I do believe animals do come to terms with such things. I had no idea that animals could get Cushing's disease. It is amazing how many "human" diseases that dogs get. Take care :hugs:  riot__: Animals have a way of reminding us what is precious. My 17 year old cat had that same look in her eyes, was purring for me while I cried and prepared myself for the final kindness I had to do for her. That was 11 days ago and out of the blue I find myself in spasms of grief. Please know you're not alone.  aphrodites_saphy: i have no words. Truly saddening. Sorry you both had to come to this point but dont allow it to detract from the moments you hold deep in your heart. i'd say i hope you feel better soon...but you'll process this in your own sweet time and rightly so! |
