VENUS S2 Offline39 • Female •
A naughty girl,hehe
VENUS S2: I can't talk in Facebook or here at the moment as I'm extremely angry. if I open my mouth. I wud really explored again/ I just did. so don't wanna talk anymore. i need to calm down, go away and take my attention out of the nowadays corona disease situation in UK. everyone’s behavior angries me. o WTF . I don't wanna have a stroke. my blood pressure is high and it's dangerous when I'm angry or sad. so calm down girl. get ready for the round 2 argument competition. hahahaha and good luck to myself. haha
VENUS S2: just feel very much pissed off By lots of recent bad news in the world . phisically uncomfortable, brain is fucked, cannot work well. wanna go bed early AND try not to know more.bad.news)
VENUS S2: the beginning if this year. bad beginning! I have a bad wish. wish my parents wud go soon. then I wud follow. just feel fed up of this evil and dangerous world!
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VENUS S2: having a thousand thinkings in my mind, just temporary lost words. need thinking a bit more. need quiet time. sorry not saying a lot at the moment.
VENUS S2: I do not know y women have to go to the church while men don't. and y j. Maya excused her criminal dad and let him escape from the punishment by the law?! bolacks that. I still don't wanna go to the church. just when I thought I might go while my hubby said something really angried me again and I began to question all these questions. I think god is very much on men's side at the moment.thats y women's position in the whole world is going down now according to the research. so y I have to trust God?!
VENUS S2: feeling very much lost and depressed, and fxck the writing, my brain is absolutely fxcked because of this. trying to get happy again, every time when I feel a bit happy but the reality just beat me to the bottom of the sea again. wish come out a happier fish. just wonder y I have such a miserable life, having bad parents and a bad half. damn, haha. hopefully tomorrow I cud feel a lot better. I need to do my own things and ttly ignor this bad half, he is not worth of my attention any more. loving human is a very tiring thing, because I come out a lot worse, makes me wonder y ppl have to b nice. and also makes me wonder y god doesn't help me anymore.
Blackshoes: God is never further than a prayer away. Know that he hears all prayer that is in faith and the belief that God is a rewarder of all those that believe in his name. Jesus promised that he will never leave US and never forsake Us
Deuteronomy 31:8 - And the LORD, he [it is] that doth go before thee; he will be with thee, he will not fail thee, neither forsake thee: fear not, neither be dismayed.
Deuteronomy 31:6 - Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the LORD thy God, he [it is] that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.
Hebrews 13:5 - [Let your] conversation [be] without covetousness; [and be] content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.
Isaiah 41:10-13 - Fear thou not; for I [am] with thee: be not dismayed; for I [am] thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. (Read More...)
1 Peter 5:7 - Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.
Hebrews 13:5-6 - [Let your] conversation [be] without covetousness; [and be] content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. (Read More...)
Matthew 28:20 - Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you alway, [even] unto the end of the world. Amen.
Philippians 4:6-7 - Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. (Read More...)
Hebrews 13:6 - So that we may boldly say, The Lord [is] my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.
Psalms 55:22 - Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.
Romans 8:28 - And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to [his] purpose.
2 Timothy 1:7 - For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
Hebrews 4:16 - Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.
1 Chronicles 28:20 - And David said to Solomon his son, Be strong and of good courage, and do [it]: fear not, nor be dismayed: for the LORD God, [even] my God, [will be] with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee, until thou hast finished all the work for the service of the house of the LORD.
VENUS S2: I haven't gone to the church for a long time, y shud I go? being a nice person and suffer fm it, so whats the point to go to the church?! fxck it .haha
VENUS S2: j dont go to the church that often now,.i dont c.the point to go, god isn't helping me. i fee that im very much defeated, feeling very low, trying to get over it, i was just got happy a bit, now im back to the big unknown, i dont c the point of staying here, i never felt this is my home, i wanna go back to my parents, BUT they dont treat me well either, i feel very much just trapped. i know it's silly not to b happy, as tomorrow i might die, BUT perhaps it's not that bad to b dead, i dont know where is the future!
VENUS S2: i learned more than once that sth.big wud happen around the year 2039. one said the whole economy in the world wud collapse at the same time,the other said wud have huge natural catastrophic desarster happens that most human wud die/abt 90%. i am a bit lost, dont know what to DO or not to DO. maybe the only thing we cud DO is becomning very religious AND BE kind AND obey rules what religions aquires us, thus our souls cud go heaven, the body wud die sooner or later anyway, BUT soul cud survive AND reborn if it's the good soul,.bad souls r.not allowed to.reborn. AS I KNOW IF STRANGE MSG APPEARS MANY TIMES, THAT IS GOD MSG GOING THROUGH TO HUMANS.Still, i. wish God cud bless us ALL. Amen!
VENUS S2: im a bit annoyed, haha. a usa friend has a house but she pretend to be poor and asked her Chinese students to give her some money, because she was refused now she said that those ppl r not generous! I guess I shud just ignore her, there r all sorts of fishes in the river and all sorts of birds in the forests! just because she was a teacher doesn't mean she shud pounce abt other ppl's money! what happens to her house when she die, burn it down so that she cud bring it to her fxcking coffin?! hahahaha, some ppl, o I haven't mention where she original comes fm, but actually u cud guess what kind of ppl is that! anyway, may god help her, although she doesn't believe god, I still say so.
VENUS S2: just came back from China. big delay. been trapped there over two months.
now jet-legged and confused.
talk to u all another time.
wish u all well.
VENUS S2: BLACK FRIDAY INDEED! STOP KILLING EACH OTHER! STOP KILL INNOCENT PPL ! pray for peace ! R I P ! PEACE !
VENUS S2: I decided not to buy any new cloth for a year or maybe more years if I feel comfortable abt the process and result of it, just fed up with materiallism completely! O, still buy beauty products though, but to the minimum !
VENUS S2: I really donno y my parents treat me like shit, yet , my sister the con-woman, gets the best treatment all the time by my parents.id rather leave my money to charities rather to my sister the cow. haha
VENUS S2: I just lost the feeling of wanna talk to anyone actually, possibly due to upset abt my parents, they treat my sister like royal princess, treat me like a shit. sometime I wander y I treat them so good, maybe because im an angle, so I shud pardon human's shortcomings and shitty behaviour, damn, haha.)
VENUS S2: I donno y my parents hate me so much, just don't wanna me live with them anymore, although I obey to them all the time, but got the worst result. some parents r just shxt, haha
VENUS S2: still feeling lost, feeling lost something I donno and difficult to find. aging is a painful thing, on the way u lose more and more stuffs, maybe what I missing is a big aim, but its so difficult to stick with one, more and more difficult, as the brain power is getting weaker and weaker. sad, trying to pull back to b happy all the time, but the reality always hit me hard.
VENUS S2: sometimes i think life is not for suffer BUT for happiness, BUT so much happened to me, i have to accept AND addmit that life is for tolerate AND suffering. maybe i still shud try to enjoy as much as we can, despite the difficulties!
VENUS S2: I DONNO y im not happy, maybe I was born with the unhappy gene, or is actually the memory fm the last life, im just battling with it all the time, but I know it is definitely not worth of having an unhappy life. I spent a year to adjust it but only find out that im still in it rather than out. its not easy, but im still trying to get out, im not a loser, I don't accept losing the battle, that's the good side of me, im a fighter, not a quitter !