No Idea,No Clue.i have no idea,no clue on what to say about the news of a Family member i heard about the other day.i know for a fact that i do feel numb and to top that off i feel sick to my tummmm .
i have so many emotions going on right now too many to say,that maybe perhaps i will say another day but i doubt it. i am TRYING to type this in between tears for i can not see what i am saying and that's not good. But am going to MAKE myself STOP wailing like a banshee for i don't have time to right now and i have to be STRONG for other family members. i DON'T give a RATS ARSE bout me i could care less especially during this time of high need.
Trasor: Awwwww,Ladies and Gents i do declare......what the F am SHOCKED with tears. Came back on 2 erase what i said and did. Am a WEAKLING and EMBARESSED to say that i could not HANDLE it AGAIN. A couple of days ago i found out that my Aunt(Moms ONLY living sis alive)her Lukemia is getting WORSE and she is going DOWN HILL FAST. Shes @ the DR every day and on meds 6 to 8 times a day. Parents were here for din 2night and it was not a PLEASANT topic for late at night. Mom started crying and drinking too which got me to do the same as well cause i HATE seeing her that way. She is the baby sis of the 3 of them. My Parents were asking on what to do cause i could see in their eyes that both are lost and stuck in BLUE. My Mom and my Aunt that has cancer are STILL not over my Aunt that died of liver cancer. It started as breast cancer and skipped ALL MAJOR organs and went straight to her liver and Mom and i and my cousin ONLY son to deceased Aunt tried to make her comfortable up till the time where i went with her in ambulance to a hospice for the next couple of days after that she died with eyes open looking at family members that could handle being there,that happened a year and half ago.
My Aunt with lukeima is BARELY EATING ANYTHING as well as drinking. She has lost 7 pounds in the last month in half......My Mother and i agree that its deja vu all over again. Like i said earlier i don't give a DONKIES ARSE bout me but am WORRIED SICK bout my MOM. i HAVE NO IDEA,NO CLUE on what 2 say 2 MOM??
Anyhoo, am BLAH,BLAH,BLAH BABBLING away here.
All of YOU shocked the SHAEIT out of me but in a good way by leaving all of your messages in every little way. i know i have never met any of you and wanted to let you all know that all of you are MORE than just friends. YOU ALWAYS have been and ALWAYS will be FAMILY to me.
i LOVE EACH and EVERY ONE of YOU.
5 LOVES for my 5 BUDS.
Trasor: Awwwwww Awesomechick QuietMind LOADS and HEAPS of THANKS to BOTH of YOU. As far as i am concerned even though i never met both of you,i HOPE its ok if i consider YOU BOTH FAMILY MEMBERS.
Awesomechick i am VERY SORRY from the bottom of HEART about your DAD. 4 FECK SAKES am getting TEAR EYED AGAIN typing this....pffffffta for FACK SAKES am such a WHIMP and i CANT be. i have to be STRONG for MOM and DAD and rest of Fam.My MoMs ONLY living inner family is my Aunt.
Awesomechick i know theres nothing i can do or say for you and the passing of your DAD but PLEASE KNOW this if you ever need or what to talk etc am here for you.
QuietMind i THANK YOU from the bottom of my HEART and SOUL for your thoughts,words and messages. It MEANS A LOT 2 me.
2 Luvs for 2 buds
Trasor: Loads and HEAPS of THANKS to ALL of YOU my Wireclub Family FRIENDS Saeeeestahs and Brossss for all each and everyone of your messages. ALL of YOU MEAN SO MUCH the WORLD to me.