Kirill Michaelovich Podzorov
26/02/1990 - 29/03/2020
I'll miss you forever my darling. My heart breaks for you
Songbird_nz: Today marks the day that it would have been Kirill's birthday. If he were still alive today he would have been 31. I'm utterly devastated that he never got to really experience his 30s, or that I would be able to celebrate today for him like I did last year. I'm just incredibly sad and I miss him and I wish he was still here.
Songbird_nz: Ok so...
I've watched Tiger King, Both series of Making A Murderer, The Ted Bundy Tapes, Wild Wild Country and The Keepers. Are there any other amazing documentary series on Netflix that I should be watching?
Songbird_nz: Taking a mental health day from work today. If I don't respond to any DM's it's probably coz I'm just trying to balance myself out. Sorry about that my dudes.
Songbird_nz: Finally getting round to watching Making A Murderer... it sure is fascinating and there is certainly a lot to unpack there.
Songbird_nz: Success... I did not wake up this morning with a headache so that's excellent news. Then I scrubbed my kitchen and bathroom and I have a load of towels in the washing machine. I feel so accomplished, and also smelling of a cocktail of detergents lol!
Songbird_nz: Today was therapy day. Was a really great day, got to meet an amazing psychotherapist called Linda who I'm definitely keen to see again. My friend James came along with me for extra support which was super nice of him. It was really good starting to get the ball rolling and put a plan into action. We're gonna keep things light at first and then take a deep dive into the real nitty gritty coz there's many an issue that needs to be worked on. I also have been assigned some "homework" she's told me to buy a book called "Note To Self" so I need to find that in a bookshop somewhere in the self help section maybe? She's also decided that I need a day of "self love" so I have to do something nice for myself, her suggestions were "Get a massage or a pedicure or buy yourself something nice like an Alice Band or something like that" so errr... guess I have to say to me "treat yo'self!" Lol! Today was a good day!
d_stoebe in reply to Songbird_nz: I'm also doing well, my psychologist is really nice, recommended that I do breathing exercises a few minutes every day, suggested an app called Smiling Mind that I'm trying out, I'm already feeling less stressed which is awesome. Getting a massage once a week is also helping, also cutting down chocolate and see if that makes a difference. Feeling positive 😊
Songbird_nz: Back to the doctor again today. She's impressed at the progress and the plan that I've put into action. Super impressed with the therapy idea. Did another couple of tests and there is a definite decrease in depression and anxiety. Still enough to warrant a severe rating but the fact that it has been decreased is fantastic news, so the meds are working! Which is phenomenal. Also took some of my blood just to have a lookout for things like a hyper or hypoactive thyroid, some lipids coz these meds may change my cholesterol profile so we can keep an eye on that. Over all, another good day
Songbird_nz: Went home sick from work today. Got a sudden massive intense headache, a headache so bad I had to throw up. I think it might be a side effect to my meds. Went home and had a sleep. Feeling a little better now. Fingers crossed.
Songbird_nz: Attempting to do a hair curling technique called plopping. You wrap your hair up in an old t shirt, you do need a ton of product for which I have none... but I'm gonna give it a go with just a t shirt!
I'll post a pic of results if they are kinda crazy lol.
Songbird_nz: I had not one but two massive panic attacks at work today... so I've called it a day early. Send hugs... and Dachshunds
Songbird_nz: Hey guys... just a bit of an update on me and my mental health. I went and saw my doctor today and she is concerned about me and thinks my mental health deteriorated significantly. So, just to let you know that I'm going back on antidepressants and antipsychotics for the time being to see if I improve. Also, she has written me a letter to my employer recommending that I do my day shifts as opposed to evening shifts to help me improve my sleep patterns. I just wanted to let you know in case things get super weird and I just want to apologise for being such a burden. I love you all and think you're all great and I don't want anyone to feel like I can be such a burden. I'm so sorry!
Songbird_nz: I've started watching The Umbrella Academy. All I can say is that Hazel and Agnes are couples goals
Songbird_nz: In other news where Kat falls madly in love with weird old dudes... I present to you my latest obsession...
Dr John Cooper-Clark
I think it's the poetry
Songbird_nz: Despite the fact that I've consumed an energy drink, I've had a 2 hour nap!
Also, just made some enquiries about getting myself some counselling.
Onwards and upwards.
Songbird_nz: I'm not in a good place right now, I need some emotional support. However, my anxious brain is doesn't want to burden anyone with my issues, please let me know if I can reach out to you. I'm sorry! I'm just so vulnerable right now.