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36 Widow/Widower Female from Wellington       670
         
Kirill Michaelovich Podzorov

26/02/1990 - 29/03/2020

I'll miss you forever my darling. My heart breaks for you

Songbird_nz
Songbird_nz: Just letting everyone know that I’ll be leaving rehab tomorrow evening at some point. After that on Friday I’ll be going to my Mothers house in Auckland. I have no idea how long I shall be there for.
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Songbird_nz
Songbird_nz: Hey.

Just thought I’d let the important people know that I’m in rehab. I made some attempts to unalive myself. Got escorted to the emergency department by the police and got seen by the crisis team who thought that the best place for me was rehab. So. Here I am. I’m sorry, I’m still here.
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anonguy1
anonguy1: Hi - I'm going to send you a private message
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seanisactiverightnow
seanisactiverightnow: i hope you'll be okay, please take care of yourself!
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Songbird_nz: Hi all...

Just wanted to let everyone know that I'm ok... but I have taken quite a negative turn for the worst in terms of my health.

After months and months of doctors visits and hospitalisations I have been diagnosed with a chronic illness called FND.

It has greatly affected my day to day living and for this reason I have resigned from my job to focus full time on my health and recovery.

I won't be online very much as looking at screens really aggravates a lot of the symptoms I have which mirror those of epilepsy, parkinsons, tourettes and MS.

Let me know if you want my email address or my FB or my tiktok.
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Hanging_Around
Hanging_Around: Omg I'm glad you're ok! Thanks for checking in and letting us know, I'm sorry about your health problems , I'm glad that you are taking the time for yourself to get better.
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brown6276
brown6276: Hi
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itsmehere1001
itsmehere1001: Hey Songbird! Welcome back! I was worried you had gone!
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Songbird_nz
Songbird_nz: Going to Auckland tomorrow to visit my family for a wee while and convalesce. I've sorted almost everything out, I'm now on 2 waiting lists at the hospital so that's all that needs to happen now. So I can just enjoy some time up in Auckland with my family.
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itsmehere1001
itsmehere1001: You ok?
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Songbird_nz
Songbird_nz: Hey I'm okayish... been on a rollercoaster ride of illness. I'm not really coming on very often as sometimes looking at computer screens can sometimes cause seizures.
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YoungSteve
YoungSteve: Wow you really are stunning sweetheart <3
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Songbird_nz: Oh my... thank you!
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callmefriend
callmefriend: wwwwwwwwwow
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Songbird_nz: Yes! That was the inspiration for the dress, Richie!
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sardashtym: you look awesome
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sardashtym
sardashtym: so beautiful
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dingodogr
dingodogr: Hello songbird. I'm in Auckland on lockdown if yo need to chat
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Hanging_Around
Hanging_Around: I hope she is OK
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Songbird_nz
Songbird_nz: So...
As an anxiety response my stutter gets tremendously bad. Today was exceptionally bad for that. I've never really had a problem with customers and my stutter but today was the very first time I had to hang up on someone due to my stutter.

I answered the phone and tried to ascertain the reason for his call, his immediate response was "Oh fantastic! Who let you work here? You shouldn't be allowed a job like this!" and for the very first time I had to say this "We are an equal opportunity employer and we do not discriminate against those with disabilities which does include speech impediments. Now, I'm more than happy and capable to help you try and resolve this issue, or I can end this call." Needless to say this angered him greatly and his response to my disclaimer was thus: "Or you could resign. People like you shouldn't be working in customer service!" To which my response was "I'm disappointed to hear that you feel that way, due to your response I will be ending the call here" and hung up.

So...
I feel like I'm a complete failure as a human being.
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itsmehere1001
itsmehere1001: Good on you for hanging up! What an asshole!
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AtheistGirl1
AtheistGirl1 in reply to itsmehere1001: no, you were talking to a complete failure of a human being.
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anonguy1
anonguy1: No - he's the failed human being.
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itsmehere1001
itsmehere1001: Hey you!
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Songbird_nz
Songbird_nz: high as fuuuuuuuuuuck
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Songbird_nz: I cant...
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Songbird_nz
Songbird_nz: Today was wild...

I feel like shit
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Songbird_nz
Songbird_nz: So much anxiety right now...

Grandad is back in hospital, not responding to treatment as expected...

Think we're dealing with the inevitable here....
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LouGrounded
LouGrounded: Sorry, I'll hope for a miracle and just try to keep your chin up.
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Songbird_nz
Songbird_nz: Thanks friends
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brown6276
brown6276 in reply to smother_it: I agree
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Songbird_nz
Songbird_nz: Had a super rough day at work (also sorry peeps if I'm not responsive to DM's it's coz I'm trying to get my soul back) I had some very VERY dark thoughts today.

So far the only thing at the moment that is keeping me together is some nasty nasty death metal. Like this one... it sounds evil, but it's actually making me feel like I could accomplish something good...

Still trying to get my spirit back so I can talk to someone though, but for now this will do!

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Songbird_nz
Songbird_nz: Why am I getting excerpts from novels written in the omegaverse all over social media?

Guys... I'm very much NOT into wolf porn...

Thanks
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Songbird_nz
Songbird_nz: God... so over it!!!!
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seanisactiverightnow
seanisactiverightnow: same,

wait, what's it
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Songbird_nz
Songbird_nz: I dont know... all i know is that i'm over it...
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Songbird_nz: Listening to this in the meantime...

YouTube
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Songbird_nz: Loaner phone has been secured... just setting it up now.
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Songbird_nz
Songbird_nz: I'm obsessed with Winnie the Pooh... again
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Songbird_nz: What does crustomary proseedcake mean?

You see I'm a bear of very little brain and long words bother me.
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sardashtym: Beautiful eyes
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