say whats real--(just the ending.)

atleast iknow i really love someone
at least i know i really care
cux it hurts when you use to be there && not your not here
bt i hate being emotional so my thoughts are hard to share
its months later & we think were ok
but were fighting every day
our love is turning into hate
but we always say we just wana get right back to tht place
but we cant have a clean slate cuz all these damm stoopid mistakes
were getting worse && worse & as the the night unfolds & time pasts
it comes to a conclusion that our love wont last cuz
you tried of trying, & you tired of crying
this shit is killing you & your tired of dying
so i guess you kinda hate me now sarrri for wasting your time
sorri for the letters i wrote you, sorry for really trying
sorry for telling i love you & looking in your eyes
sorry for being there all the times you were deprived besides
the times we wernt fighting
ithink i was good to you
ididnt knw you were unhappy with me but i guess its tru
all these issues that never got sloved
just got bigger as time evolved
bet you wish you never met me
you just wana forget me
& il always love you
even though you cant believe....

heres the thing,

ireally do love you, i cry over you every time i think about you because it reminds me of how fuckd up our relationship got. iwish i could be with you, but irather be alone then be with you && be hurt, trust me itried. why the fuck am ieven here. ishouldnt be. its fuckd up how all the important ppl in your life control your emotions. fml.