I am 48 years old. I am married - 14 years and we gave an 11 year old son who is autistic. I am diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and PTSD. I have been clean for 18+ years through Narcotics Anonymous. If you have questions about either my recovery from addiction or my mental illnesses, message me. I will be happy to share. I practice Native American medicine. I am very open minded in that area and will not trample on you beliefs or lack of beliefs. I am NOT interested in any thing vulgar and I am NOT looking for anything sexual or romantic. I love to go camping and commune with Mother Earth. My two favorite places to be are the Little Red River and Petit Jean State Parks in Arkansas. I love to fish but can't set a hook to save my butt. LOL I've visited or lived in at least 7 states outside of Arkansas. I am a people person, very honest, compassionate and empathetic. Again, I'm not looking for romantic companionship. Have a very blessed day.
"Speak the truth, even if your voice shakes!"
PaintedTurtleSpirit: I wrote this in early November 2018 while I was inpatient pych.
inside my head,
talking to myself.
It's so crowded in here.
Who are we?
I don't know my name.
Do I exist?
I'm crying out.
Can you hear me?
I cover my ears,
rock where I sit.
Please stop the voices
PLEASE STOP THE PAIN!
Shadows surround me,
under my bed,
crawling off the walls.
DON'T LET THEM TOUCH ME!
I close my eyes.
I let the anxiety take control.
My mind is lost.
Insanity is real,
PaintedTurtleSpirit: This was wrtten in the spring of 2002 after a schizophrenic friend killed his 5 year old son and then shot himself.
dense and heavy.
the murky water of my mind.
Laughter and tears,
a thousand conversations.
I hear them now.
and nothing more.
through the darkness.
Grasping for words unheard,
that one exchange
to give me peace,
PaintedTurtleSpirit: Hi everyone! I wanted to let ya'll know that I am home from the hospital, settled in and doing well. Thanks to all of you for the kindness, caring and support. I hope to return the gesture someday. God bless you all !!!
PaintedTurtleSpirit: Thanks to a ya'll who have wished me well. It really means a lot to me. Even with people in my life, I have felt so lonely. Your kindness and support has been so comforting. I hope to return the gesture some day.
Judd_: "See the TURTLE of Enormous Girth"
"On his shell he holds the Earth."
"His thought is slow, but always kind."
"He holds us all within his mind."
"On his back all vows are made;"
"He sees the truth but mayn't aid."
"He loves the land and loves the sea,"
"And even loves a childe like me."