nicoleleewd: ok just wanted to say hi ... i can't sleep .... soon i'll be making my own room and then you can find me there .... maybe it'll be called "ALice in WOnderland" nicoleleewd: hey im back sorry for sad posting but would love some friends still not in best of situations would love to chat about it nicoleleewd: I guess I was a fool trying to be all smart and clever last time I was on here so I apologize. I don't have any friends I'm sick and I'm 41 years old...ive been through a lot not many supports and family issues right now. would love to publish my writing but need some help its hard doing it all on my own and I forget what fun is...I forget what happiness is nicoleleewd: there once was a story about me...living fast and free like a lightning rod and riding on the hot breezes up and down maroon carousel life was like strawberry cherry juice I grabbed myself looked into the looking glass and saw fire saw a moth then I took my power and became the spider now I may be white and invisible but what do portraits matter??? everything is expendable and transferrable and translucent and cruel in this world ...ive lived for centuries an old soul but what I know cannot and never can save me from my desperation lying on the wet grass cutting like a blade scars on my wrists still when I scream I'm nobody but I know who I am I'm created by water tears marked by pain marked by a brand of darkness throat slit but it heals heart cut in half with stitches ...when will love not hurt??? when will I be more than an illusion????????? |