Blog PostsFriends | Blog☆Thank God I Found You☆For the man I love with all my heart. I would have never been able to do all the things I'm doing now without him, and I do not know where I would be without him. I would give up everything Before I'd separate myself from you After so much suffering I finally found unvarnished truth I was all by myself for the longest time So cold inside And the hurt from the heartache would not subside I felt like dying Until you saved my life Thank God I found you (Yeah yeah) I was lost without you (I was lost) My every wish and every dream Somehow became reality When you brought the sunlight Completed my whole life I'm overwhelmed with gratitude 'Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you I will give you everything (Everything) There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do (Oh no) To ensure your happiness I'll cherish every part of you 'Cause without you beside me I can't survive Don't wanna try (I don't wanna try) If you keeping me warm each and every night I'll be alright 'Cause I need you in my life Thank God I found you (I'm thanking you) I was lost without you (So lost without you) My every wish and every dream (Every wish, every dream) Somehow became reality When you brought the sunlight (Brought the sunlight) Completed my whole life (Completed) I'm overwhelmed with gratitude (Overwhelmed with gratitude) 'Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you See I was so desolate before you came to me Looking back (Looking back) I guess it shows that we were destined To shine over the rain to appreciate The gift of what we have And I'd go through it all over again To be able to feel This way (This way) Oh, thank God I found you (Yeah yeah) I was lost without you (Lost without you baby) My every wish and every dream (And every dream) Somehow became reality When you brought the sunlight (Brought the light) Completed my whole life (My whole life) I'm overwhelmed with gratitude See baby I'm so thankful I found you Oh, thank God I found you I was lost without you I'm overwhelmed with gratitude (So overwhelmed) My baby I'm so thankful I found You, you I'm overwhelmed with gratitude My baby I'm so thankful I found (I found you) You ☆Longing☆The words, we used to hurt each other The tears we cried together, all of this will become a memory one day. Therefore... I hold the interrupted melody in my heart. I will be alive tomorrow, even if I cannot see you. Sing without you I'll sing without you Can't you feel my heart Falling through the rain I sing without you I'll sing without you Can't you hold my tears Cause, still I love you I can't face the thought of being alone I sing for the song still carries on let me sing of the thoughts, i hold in my heart even if there's no voice left. Sing without you I'll sing without you Can't you feel my pain There's nothing I can do I still have a longing for your memory Even if it's just pain, I want to tell you what's in my heart. Don't leave me alone now The dream, that seems to break in the rain, it will sing on tomorrow.... Sing without you I'll sing without you Can't you feel my heart Falling through the rain I sing without you I'll sing without you Can't you hold my tears Cause, still I love you I sing without you I'll sing without you Can't you feel my heart Falling through the rain ☆To Mother☆Well, you said it yourself Tearfully, hanging your head That if we couldn’t lie anymore We wouldn’t be able to survive It’s because I want to be loved That I kept smiling No matter how much it hurt, ah ah I could take The sadness If it was just me, but... Kindness Is cruel, isn’t it? It even throws Your heart into confusion I always want to be with you But these days I’m finding more and more things I hate about you We’re similar, aren’t we? I think I kind of understand Maybe I’ll be able to change The day I find Someone I can love, ah ah Happiness Won’t shine Like magic But hate Is just a trivial misunderstanding, right? Don’t cry It’s just fate, I can change it I said as I ran out of the house And cried in the night On a bench in the deserted park I waited for you to come for me Sadness Becomes warm somehow When we cuddle up together Kindness Is something we find ourselves taking advantage of When we’re together Hey Happiness It’s Probably Because I Had you Romaji: Datte anata itta ja nai Namida goe utsumuita mama Uso mo tsuke naku nattara Ikite yuke naku naru yoto Aisarete itai to omou kara Donna itami datte Waratte miseta ah ah Kanashimi tte Atashi hitori dake nara Taerareru noni Yasashisa tte Zankoku yo ne? Kokoro made Midareru mono Zutto issho ni itai kedo Kirai na toko ga fueru hibi Nita mono doushi nanda yo ne? Wakaru youna ki mo shiteru Aishi aeru hito ga dekita no Sonna hi ga kureba Kawareru kana ah ah Shiawase tte Mahou mitai ni Kagayaite kurenai kedo Nikushimi tte Sasai na surechigai desho? Nakanaide Takaga unmei nante Kaete yukerun datte Ichi wo tobidashite yoru ni naita Daremo inai kouen no benchi de Mukae ni kite kureru no wo matte ita Kanashimi tte Yorisoeba doko to naku Atatakakute Yasashisa tte Soba ni areba futo Amaete shimau mono Nee Shiawase yo Tabun Atashi Anata ga ☆Only Human By K ☆I am performing in a Japanese festival at my college. I wanted to sing this song for my mom. My mom had a hard life but she would always smile for me so I wouldn't ever worried. Not a lot of people back then understood what it was like to be a child with a parent who had a mental illness that could change their entire being. My father's family talked bad about her but they refused to see that she was just human just like everyone else. My mom would do her best to make sure that my brother and I had the best toys, even lost her car because of it. I love her, and I miss every day so I wanted to perform a song in her honor. I posted the English translation on the bottom of the video. BTW this video is one of my most favorite Japanese dramas called 1 liter of tears. A young girl gets an incurable disease and struggles day to day as it begins to develop and shrink her cerebellum, and eventually she loses the capability to write, eat, and talk.On the opposite coast of sadness Is something called a smile On the opposite coast of sadness is something called a smile But before we can go there, is there something we’re waiting for? In order to chase our dreams, we can’t have a reason to run away We’ve got to go, to that far away summer’s day If we find it tomorrow, we can’t sigh Because like a boat that opposes the stream we have to walk straight on In a place worn down by sadness something called a miracle, is waiting Yet we are still searching for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring The warrior who awaits the morning light before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter and fall Even if we’ve grown used to loneliness only relying on the light of the moon We have to fly away with featherless wing just go foward, just a little further As the rainclouds break the wet streets sparkling Although it brings only darkness A powerful, powerful light helps push us to walk on ★This Is Gospel★This is gospel for the fallen ones Locked away in permanent slumber Assembling their philosophies From pieces of broken memories Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart The gnashing teeth and criminal tongues conspire against the odds But they haven't seen the best of us yet If you love me let me go If you love me let me go 'Cause these words are knives that often leave scars The fear of falling apart And truth be told, I never was yours The fear, the fear of falling apart Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart This is gospel for the vagabonds, Never-do-wells and insufferable bastards Confessing their apostasies Led away by imperfect impostors Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart Don't try to sleep through the end of the world Bury me alive 'Cause I won't give up without a fight If you love me let me go If you love me let me go 'Cause these words are knives that often leave scars The fear of falling apart And truth be told, I never was yours The fear, the fear of falling apart Oh, the fear of falling apart Oh, the fear, the fear of falling apart Oh (This is the beat of my heart) The fear of falling apart Oh (This is the beat of my heart) The fear of falling apart Oh (This is the beat of my heart) The fear of falling apart Oh (This is the beat of my heart) The fear of falling apart ★Burn It Down★I could tell you the most horrible story to ever exist, but that is just my opinion. I am here standing mentally in front of my own worse enemy. It's not the cliche thing that my enemy is me, but it is the person that created this hatred that brews within my heart. You are the cause of this internal war I am now brought back into.Here I am standing on one side of the battle field, ready to face my fate. I seek to avenge my loved one that I have lost to this monster who thinks himself human. In my heart, the hatred is unsettling until he knows the pain that he has caused to myself, and to others. I will no longer allow this man to hide behind his mask and to allow him to lie to society about who he is. It's time to bring out his true self. Just because you are labeled as a father doesn't mean you are one. Father is just a name we throw around like the word "love". My hatred for you has grown more ever since the day I found out she'd taken her last breath. You show no remorse, no sadness, no emotion what so ever that she is gone. The woman that bare us, your own flesh and blood but blood means nothing to you. Greed is what is most important in your book, is that why you taken time to beat her every chance you could. The childhood eyes do not betray me from what I saw hiding behind that broken piece of scrap metal. My ears betray me not the filthy words you shouted to her to raise your ego, and then you turned your anger onto me. An innocent child who has no control over her world. You blamed me for everything in which I inflicted blame onto myself but as I grew older and wiser I realized that you were wrong. I am not to blame. I am not at fault and I will not allow you to get away thinking that. Father dearest, you did not raise me to the person I am today. You did not help me at all get to where I am today and the successes I have accomplished. You are merely a vessel with a demon inside using us to soak up government money to pay for your mistakes. No, now that I am able to speak for myself, I will. You are no longer welcomed back into my life. My mother suffered so much because of you and your hatred. Don't make any more excuses because they are not going to save you now that I know that I am not the only one who knows the truth. Now that I have people who believe me and is not persuaded by your words, I am not accepting of my scars and will continue on life without you. Tell your friends, tell all of them how you mistreated me, broke me down to nothing and try to take away my last ounce of dignity because you felt in control. I am not your punching bag, and I am not going to allow myself be one either. This is where I light the match and burn down the bridge that connects us. The only time I intend on seeing you is when it is your time. I was taught not to hate, but I will not give you the satisfactory into thinking that I will roll over for you. I care about you but I sure as hell don't like you, not after all the pain and strife you put me through. Until the day you realize what you've done then maybe then you'll realize your mistakes and take responsibility. Until then, you are nothing to me but a phantom of my memories. The cycle repeated As explosions broke in the sky All that I needed Was the one thing I couldn't find And you were there at the turn Waiting to let me know [Chorus:] We're building it up To break it back down We're building it up To burn it down We can't wait To burn it to the ground The colors conflicted As the flames climbed into the clouds. I wanted to fix this But couldn't stop from tearing it down. And you were there at the turn Caught in the burning glow And I was there at the turn Waiting to let you know [Chorus:] We're building it up To break it back down We're building it up To burn it down We can't wait To burn it to the ground You told me, "Yes" You held me high And I believed when you told that lie I played soldier, you played king And struck me down, when I kissed that ring You lost that right, to hold that crown I built you up, but you let me down So when you fall, I'll take my turn And fan the flames As your blazes burn And you were there at the turn Waiting to let me know [Chorus:] We're building it up To break it back down We're building it up To burn it down We can't wait To burn it to the ground When you fall, I'll take my turn And fan the flames As your blazes burn We can't wait To burn it to the ground When you fall, I'll take my turn And fan the flames As your blazes burn We can't wait To burn it to the ground ★Scars★Did I say something stupid? There goes one more mistake Do I bore you with my problems? Is that why you turn away? Do you know how hard I've tried To become what you want me to be Take me, this is all that I've got This is all that I'm not, all that I'll ever be I've got flaws, I've got faults Keep searching for your perfect heart It doesn't matter who you are We all have our scars, we all have our scars You say don't act like a child But what if it's a father I need? It's not like you don't know What you got yourself into Don't tell me I'm the one who's naïve Do you know how hard I've tried To become what you want me to be Take me, this is all that I've got This is all that I'm not, all that I'll ever be I've got flaws, I've got faults Keep searching for your perfect heart It doesn't matter who you are We all have our scars, we all have our scars Come on, just let it go These are things you can't control Your expectations, your explanations Don't make sense to me You and your alternatives Don't send me to your therapist Deep down I know what you mean And I'm not sure that's what I wanna be Oh oh, oh oh oh, no oh Take me, this is all that I've got This is all that I'm not, all that I'll ever be I've got flaws, I've got faults Keep searching for your perfect heart It doesn't matter who you are We all have our scars, we all have our scars Oh oh, oh oh, no no no, oh oh, ooh oh oh Did I say something stupid? There goes one more mistake So, I have come to the decision to completely disconnect myself from my biological father. He doesn't know that I'm planning to do this, and basically if he cares to know how I am then he can call me, otherwise he won't know what's going on in my life, nor will I lean on him to help me for anything unless if he offers first. I told him that I had gotten into a better and higher ranking college. Rank #8 for study abroad, but he just doesn't seem to care. I began to question if I was really in college for myself, and finally came to the answer that yes, I am in college for myself, but at the same time I was that little girl trying to do everything to impress daddy, which is not healthy for me to do, so this disconnection is happening, and I am going to push forward with my life. ★He Is A Monkey By Angelo★CHRIST IS A MONKEY Pretending not to see how things really are Offering prayers to your idol I’m coming to steal you away from this mess you’re stuck in. when it comes down to it, it was created by animals, an illusion they put in place so let’s do away with this farce that doesn’t seem to want to end anytime soon. Don’t be fooled by such “justice,” spit on that crucified fraud. held in these arms of mine, within the towering inferno the world we hated will bow down to us see it for yourself, when you awaken from this deep sleep in the morning this will all be yours for the taking. when all is said and done, it was created by animals, a future evnsioned by the spirits of the dead. let’s do away with this pathetic farce. don’t be fooled by such “doctrine”, spit on that crucified fraud held in these arms of mine, within the towering inferno the world we hated will bow down to us see it for yourself, when you awaken from this deep sleep in the morning this will all be yours for the taking. trample upon such “aesthetics”, spit on that crucified fraud. held in these arms of mine, within the towering inferno there’s no value in looking back at the world we hated see it for yourself, when you awaken from this deep sleep in the morning this will all be yours for the taking. ☆Sing Me To Sleep☆Sing me to sleep Sing me to sleep I'm tired and I I want to go to bed Sing me to sleep Sing me to sleep And then leave me alone Don't try to wake me in the morning 'Cause I will be gone Don't feel bad for me I want you to know Deep in the cell of my heart I will feel so glad to go Sing me to sleep Sing me to sleep I don't want to wake up On my own anymore Sing to me Sing to me I don't want to wake up On my own anymore Don't feel bad for me I want you to know Deep in the cell of my heart I really want to go There is another world There is a better world Well, there must be Well, there must be Well, there must be Well, there must be Well Bye bye Bye bye Bye --- |