who gives a damn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

who gives a damn for the fakes and the losers out there?
i'm done playing thier head games and done with getting my emotions plaied with.
i came on here to make friends meet new people and mabe meet someone to spend the rest of my life with.
i'm tired of spending weeks on end talking to ladies on the phone off here and then being asked if i want to meet them and makeing plains to meet up and they never show up.
why is it always that i end up with the cheats,fakes,wannab's and emotion players.
just because i talk to someone and make plains to meet don't meen people should say theey wanna meet and never show up.
i may not be the best looking guy out thier but i can tell you i'm thru with all the damn fakes.
if their is one honest lady out there that thinking of trying to find that specail someone and will be true to thier word and possibly meet when we agree to meet then please do leave me a message.
i'm a kind careing honest person whom has nothing to hide and i am most importantly myself. I am not some two timed backwashing tobit person that don't care about someone eles feeling. i am someone to get to know and have good times with..................

to my friends.

hey to each and everyone on my friends list that do talk to me and wish to remain friends mymsn is ekitso@live.come feel free to add me if you wanna remain in touch . i'm so done with wire and some of the poeple on here. includeing one in piticular. not mentioning any names no need to they know whom they are! i will allow this bloge to stay posted for one week from the time of this post and ddeleting my account. wire just isn't what i was hopeing it would be for a free chat.to thos that wish to remain on wire well you see somthing i don't.going in serch of other chats weather they are free or not don't matter. suck ya can't even peacfully chat in a room get to know someone without someone eles bringing in an agument that should be kept in private chats. hey guess you'll have that everywhere!!!!!!!!!ugggggg. anyways peace out and to thos that like wire i'm happy for ya....

why is it??????some more about me and my lame life.,...........

why id it no mater what i do ,say,or how i feel my relationships always go out to the dogs with me being the one that gets screwed?. just once i would like a girl(women).ladie even to be with and be proud to be with me. i maty not beable to have kids. ever!!!! because of something happeing to me when i was 8 yrs old. why do wemen use tthat as an excuse to cheat on me? i give them what they want allow them to have thier space and time to them selfs. i get the gifts out of the bvlue just to show them how i feel about them. and if i fall in love with them i make sure they know it. hell i have even helped take care of thier chidren they may have had before we got togeather. i work and help them with bills i even move in with trhem and stry to be a famile or a couple with a normal life. but it never fails no matter how long we are togeather...how much time we spend to geather nor how much we say we love each other i always get cheated on lied too and kick out lose everything and need to start my life from scratch with basicly the cloths on my back and thats if i'm lucky. i am 30 years old and in the last 15 yeas i have had 7 relationships. too some that alot to other thats not much how ever it may seem thats not the piont. why is it every one feels they can screw me over play with my emotions and my heart and then pretend it all ok or nothing happened at all or they didn't mess anything up i'm the one taht did. thats my fav. when they say they ddn't miss thing uyp i did. when they are the ones that cheat. now because of it i'm serverly depress and need to go talk thing out with a shrink and taks meds for my depresion. no i'm not afriad to let someone know i'm depress but i'm only depress becase i have been delt with a shity life. a heart so big that everyone loves to just take advantage of. i'm sick of being ther for someone and then getting shit on in returned. if there is ladies out there that would like to be trreated as they expect to be treated. one that is true to whom they are and true to them self and don't play games. mabe one that gives up on ever trying to find thier romeo. a lady thats looking foir a true gentalmen. and not some poser drop me a line. i flat out put my self out there for you to speak with. all i ask is don't be a player and don't be out to hurt someone. i'm looking and will probly always be looking for a lady thats whants someone in thier life to settle down with and be happy.wire my not be the place for me to find that person but i will never find her if i don't try. i'm told from a few people she exist well i'm opeing my heart up one last time to see if she exist.....what more can i say????????

i'm i the only one???

am i the onlyone that feels thing are not what the see? i meen when you walk down the street it normal you get the ocasinal steer from paser by cause they are curius of whome you are and if they know you right? well what about walking down tyhe street and haveing everyone stop what they are doing and watch you walk by!! like they expect you to do something. make me feel like they are about to run at me or something. this has been going on now for the last 2 weeks. let me explain to you now that i'm always out and about doing something excepty for the last few days i've been sick. i am what you would call a people watcher. and i live in a small town so i know most of what everyone does all the time. and i have never seen these people act like this. it's as if i did somethiong the whole town knows about but yet no one will come up and tell me!!!! every one and i meen everyone just stops in thier tracts and watches me as i walk by. i feel like i am pleged or someting. even cars as they go by me slow down and i get this long slow steer from the people in side. no granted i have always thought my self to be diffrent on more then one way from every one eles. i whish i knew what they was all looking at and why????

Key to my heart.......

it started out easy, a simple desire,
next i knew, i got burned by the fire.
on a brite sunny day, next think i knew there was rain and thunder storming.
i should have left sooner, that would have been smart.
now it's too late cause you know the key to my heart.

i have talked to the doctors, even my own mom.
neither one can explian whats going on!
i've got all the money,fortune,and fame!
Without you babe, i'm going insane.
i should have left sooner that would have been smart!
now it's too late cause you hold the key to my heart!

I can run if i want to. i can try and hide!
the's no excaping whats locked up inside!
you can take me to haven, or you can tale me to hell!
there is no escapeing thus magicial spell.
i should have left sooner that would have been smart!
now it's too late you've got the key to may heart.

now i sit here thinking, you started out just a friend.
now i wounder how far it is till this ends.will it be so true?
as to last an eternity me and you?
i can't explain how wounderful it is,to have you in my life!!
now that you've used that key and became my wife!!!!!!
i should have left sooner that would have been smart
now it's too late we can not be pulled apart.



this was going to be and who knows may still be the song i wrote to sing to my wife if ever the time is right and i meet the truest one to be.now sinces it's been made pulic however and yes this is copy writed. so please do not cope and past,