Friends | Ask and perhaps I will answer a bit about me. The profile picture is of my missing son. Not heard from or seen since June 25, 2021. An insulin dependent diabetic who left home after a low blood sugar incident. keep_fighting: As we age our view of the world around us changes. We see others differently, we realize that the way we view things isn't the same as how others view them. We see that communication isn't always as it seems that words can often have more than one meaning. Geography plays a part, what is meant by a word in one area isn't the same all over. I mash potatoes and you mash the gas pedal. A far piece is a long way and to me, I have no clue what you mean. People will listen to reply when the speaker may only be talking to convey a message, not wanting a solution. Perhaps the speaker knows the solution and wants to hear it out loud and only needs a sounding board not a problem solver. Give me someone who will hear my words. Someone who doesn't solve my problems. Give me the person who will not only hear but will understand my words and when I know the answer to the problem will be a shoulder for me to cry on for that may be all I need. keep_fighting: Catherine Shea, Author · I just pulled over in my church parking lot to write this because it’s burning in my soul. Christmas was never meant to be a burden. Paying expedited shipping to make it magical and stressing about going into *more* debt and keeping up with all the pics we see on social media is an absolute scam. A scam of evil proportions. Don’t get me wrong. I’ve done it. That’s how I know … it’s a scam. We’ve got to let it go. I’m not going to pretend to know what that means for everyone, but I hope it gives you permission to release yourself from the charades and parades and all the demands that are never ending. He came to free us. Not burden us. Bitter Sweetz: Researchers in Australia have uncovered the first chemical biomarker tied to sudden infant death syndrome, Bitter Sweetz: https://www.fiercebiotech.com/medtech/researchers-uncover-brains-link-sids-setting-potential-infant-screening-test#:~:text=Researchers%20uncover%20the%20brain's%20link,up%20potential%20infant%20screening%20test&text=Researchers%20in%20Australia%20have%20uncovered,risk%20for%20the%20tragic%20condition. keep_fighting: We're all just another piece of shit floatiing around in this toilet bowl called life. View all 4 posts (Post deleted by hawkman342 ) keep_fighting in reply to hawkman342: For some reason the thought came to mind on the way to work this morning. Such are thoughts of depression. keep_fighting: 821 days and no credible sightings, no leads, and not a word from the missing son. 27 months and nothing. The worst knowing is not knowing. keep_fighting: Could one friend or family member copy and repost? I am trying to demonstrate that someone is always listening. SuicideAwareness Call 1-800-273-8255 Available 24 hours everyday Just one. Anyone. keep_fighting in reply to Bilusional: Very true. Sadly first responders see this day after day and sometimes many times a day if at a busy station. keep_fighting: Every time a fighter steps into a ring, there are rounds. At the end of each round there is a bell. At the sound of the bell the fighters go to their respective corners for a bit of a rest and to get instruction from coaches. Take breaks when needed and look for those instructions that will help you to keep on fighting. In life there are many fights, some will leave us broken and bruised. Others will leave us in tears. Some may cause us to turn to a higher power and ask for assistance to battle whatever it is that we are fighting. No fight is over until that last bell has rung. We each must fight until every round is over and we can finally han up the gloves and go home. keep_fighting to TroubleMakerHailey: Few words grab the attention like the word "SUICIDE!" As a first responder I was called to many suicides and many attempted suicides. Afterwards it was common for my partners and I to discuss what would cause a person to take their own life? What could be so bad that tomorrow was no longer looked forward to; but by a persons own choosing their tomorrow would never come? These discussions would usually involve other questions as well. Was this act an act of cowardice, an act of selfishness, a plea for help, or was this the final act of someone who believed the only answer was to take their own life? For a few moments I want you to put aside your own thinking about suicide. Put aside any thoughts you may have about suicide being a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Put aside any thoughts you have about people who kill themselves as cowardly. Forget for a few moments any belief you have that suicide is a selfish act. What I want from you is for a few moments to imagine the worst feelings you have ever had, the most depressed thoughts, the darkest place you have ever been in. Now imagine that the thought comes back over and over without your being able to be rid of it. You are powerless to control or stop that horrible thought. That my friends is how many suicidal people feel every single day. For many it becomes every breath of every day. Hopeless, friendless, loveless, miserable, and it goes on and on. Can you perhaps now, see why a person may believe suicide is the solution? Now pull yourself out that dark place! Don't stay there it is not healthy! I have often heard and even used this phrase “Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.” For a person contemplating suicide it is no longer a “temporary problem” but one they see no way to escape from. Suicide to the suicidal person becomes a way to end the problem permanently. So the question now is "Vern- what is your point?" The point is this, please listen; listen to the person who may tell you "I'm okay" but your gut tells you they are not. Be willing to take the extra time to be a friend to someone who needs a friend. Be there when you are there and not looking at your phone! Listen with the intent to truly understand rather than to reply. We have two ears and one mouth because listening is twice as important as speaking! Educate yourself about suicide and ways you can help. I post this because I know too well what depression can do. It sucks the life out of a person and many times that person no longer sees anything to fight for. Its not easy living with thoughts that recur over and over, flashbacks, nightmares, reliving in the mind things that you wish you had not seen. For those who need it there is help, seek it out. For others be that help and know if you need to refer your loved ones to more extensive help. We are all in this together and none is as strong as all of us. The national suicide hot-line # is 988 The Witcher: There is so much truth to what you posted. If people really knew how powerful the feeling of depression truly is. This is something that I have battled with for most of my life. This is one of the hardest battles anyone will fight. Trail_7: people say - "you have your whole life ahead of you" and this is more or less just a faint message in my hear. I am 34 so not so young anymore yet young enough for it to still be true - some people have children at 34, others at 39 for example. View all 5 posts keep_fighting: mctree, let me think about it. Right now, God and I we ain't getting a long too well. Mentally I get that things happen, emotionall hard not point fingers at God, as wrong as that may be that is my reality right not. (Post deleted by crumax ) |
I was asked "how do you keep going?"
Rick is gone, I know that. My mind tells me that with the diabetes he is dead. My heart (looking toward light and knowing darkness is followed by light) ask me "where is the body?" That question, that not knowing is what keeps me going.
Sometimes there is no choice but to keep looking for light in the dark.