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i will never be happy......i am miserable and suffering......I HATE being single....i am very very lonely....i HATE my life.......i HATE the place where i live.......women will not date me because of my disabilities and where i live......i live in a group home....my disabilities are aspergers and depression and anxiety and learning disability...i have serious trust issues ...it has to do with where i live and also of what my x and her family did to me .......you have to understand where i am coming from ....i had a g/f for 10 months,...it was a relationship for 7 months then got engaged for 3 months...her sister ruined the relationship caused world war 3 ..my life has been beyond horrible the last 12 months april 2017 of the breakup .....i am beyond torn apart from it .....i use to enjoy life...not anymore since the breakup ;;;i do not enjoy anything anymore.....i do not go out anymore...all i do is sit in this group home and suffer.....i am gonna just die in this group home while suffering and be miserable and alone................i am single and looking.....i have a huge heart...i am friendly ...i am loyal and honest and faithful....i am very loving and very caring.....i have a weird and quirky sense of humor ....i am a pest and a pain in the ass......i want a woman that will stand up for me if any of your family members tries to break me and you up and cause world war 3 in the relationship....i will also stand up to them if they try anything.....i will stand up for you if any of my family members tries to break you and me up and cause world war 3...i just want the misery and suffering to go away........i just want to be happy ......... i am miserable and suffering all the time..everyday and all day....i just want it to go away....that is allllllll i want ....i am sick and tired of living like this everyday......this video will explain my disability .... YouTube .....this is the movie that i want to see it is about my disability YouTube

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iamaheartofgold: I would say this all the time in the chat room on aol and wireclub … I am prancing around in my tutu … my gf Samantha bought me a tutu
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iamaheartofgold to asensualheart4u: hey.....hey hey hey stranger .....i dont see you online anymore ....i hope you are doing alright ..........did you know i live down here now in florida ...i live in delray beach .......i would like to meet up with you one day..........i have been living down here for 9 years now .......i live near the delray medical hospital ..message me back when you get a chance ....
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iamaheartofgold: i would like to share things ....8-14-2021 ....5:36pm .....this video is about the virus that is out ...the real truth of what is really really going on ......its what the government and news is not tellin you .....the news and government is lying to you ......not telling you the truth at all ......what they are doing is silencing people on social media deleting them or blocking them or silencing them .....from telling the actual truth about the virus. ..............www.facebook.com/watch/?extid=CL-UNK-UNK-UNK-IOS_GK0T-GK1C&v=359026552465870
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iamaheartofgold: i would like to share things .....5-28-2021....8:38pm.....i feel that no one appreciates me including my own family .......no one has ever made me feel important ....no one has ever made me feel special ........i feel like i am just a burden on people especially to my family .......most people are not nice to me ....i dont know what i did wrong to them .....i really wish people would take the time to actually get to know me ....to know what kind of person i am ......no wonder i am soo angry and miserable with life and not happy .....no one appreciates me .............. this is why i just keep to myself ....and stay to myself.....dont talk to anyone .....dont go out .............because no one appreciates me.........all i want is to feel appreciated and loved and important ........
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Sammyhasheartsofgold: i know that isn't all true., You should know that i do appreciate you and love you,
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NawtySpankableWench: Jason, You and I have been friends a long time. We have had our ups and our downs. You know I have always been honest with you. What other people think of you, is not important. Know what is important? How you view and think of yourself! You are just as important as anyone else. No one is any better than you are! You deserve love, compassion, respect, and genuine friendship, just as much as I do.....or any of our friends do! Our past's, do not have to define us...our pasts are life lessons. What matters is did we learn from that mistake. I have watched you grow. I have seen you step outside your comfort zone .You have been a good friend to me, and many others. I cannot speak for others, just for myself. In my eyes, You are enough.....as you are.

If someone is not taking the time to get to know you, making rash judgements off their perceptions of you...they are cheating themselves of a good friend....and the loss is genuinely theirs!

Head up...you do have friends who accept you for you.
Who you do have value and worth with.
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iamaheartofgold: i would like to share things .......7-1-2021....6:07pm ......here is a thought .....if you live your life in a rush and a hurry .....that means you are in a rush to die ......if you take your time to do things and enjoy life ...that means your life will be longer to live because you are taking your time and enjoying things in life ......the way i live my life i take my time with just about everything i do .....because i want to try to enjoy life and things that life has to offer .....if you live your life in a rush or in a hurry then you cant enjoy things in life ......i dont live in the moment ...i dont live for today ...i dont live for that millosecond . ....i plan my days ...to live ...i take my time ....to do things ...i had relatives that lived in that millosecond and in that moment and live for today ....it didnt go well for them....they both died and left a huge huge beyond huge debt beyond ....they didnt enjoy life ....i dont want to end up like my relatives ..........please dont live your life in a hurry or a rush ......take your time live your life enjoy things.....when you go out take your time to get to where you need to go .....so that way you can enjoy it better ...
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ssnowbunnyone: Gold you are so right about this and I think it will help many people.
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ssnowbunnyone: Gold, you're doing a good job and I'm proud of you.
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IamAkali: I am sorry for fighting with you , it seems that the organization indeed turned out to be greedy , so i am quitting tomorrow , sorry if i hurt you
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iamaheartofgold: i would like to share things ......5-26-2021.....3:56pm ........you have no idea how angry and hurt i am because of how my mother treats me......she called me incompetent and talks to me like i am stupid ........this is not the 1st time she has talked to me like this ..........if she talks to me like that again ...i will tell her ...i will never speak to her again ....i do not deserve to be treated that way by my own mother or by anyone ......talk to me like a normal human being .......i have been abused and neglected for 8 years living in a group home .....i would get yelled at or lied to or abused or neglected and talked to like i am stupid .........talk to me like a normal human being .....treat me how you want to be treated ......if you treat me wrong ....i dont need you ....i have been mistreated my whole life ....i am 47 years old ........i am still getting mistreated .........this is 1 of the reasons why i never had kids .....if people treat me this bad then they will do it to my kids ........what is wrong with people .....grow up and be a normal human being .....if you can not act right stay away from me ......i really dont need that kind of crap in my life .....my life already sucks as it is ....for the way i am treated by people .....i dont need more crap from people.....stay the hell away from me if you can not treat me right ....i do not need you at all ......if you treat me right ...get to know me ...i am actually a very nice person ...i am loyal and honest and faithful and 100% true friend ....give me that chance i can show what kind of person i am ........if you dont give me that chance its your loss .....if you rather treat me like dirt first ......then go away ...i dont need you ...
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iamaheartofgold: i would like to share things ........5-27-2021 ....8:16pm .....my mother called me this afternoon on the phone ....she started on me ...i dont know what i did wrong ......she wants me to get the vaccine ...i keep telling them i do not want to get it .....her response is that i am incompetent ........she threatened to take me to court and so they can make all my decisions for me ....................how does this make me incompetent .....i live on my own ....i wake up every morning immediately get ready for the day shower and get dressed and brush my teeth ......there are days i do laundry ...wash my clothes and sheets ....i make my bed everyday ......if i am low on pills ...i go to the places that i need to get more ......i make food to eat when i am hungry .....i play on the computer or i watch tv ...when i am low on food i go shopping for more food .......i go to the group home on thursdays to take my friend out for her outing ........i occasionally go to my parents house for dinner when they call to ask me........i keep my condo clean ...there are no dishes in my sink ever ...when i use a plate or silverware ....i immediately wash them and put them in the dishwasher ....when it needs to run i turn it on .....after its done i clean it out immediately and put the stuff away .....i change the air filter for the ac when it needs to be replaced ......i create a spending sheet every month on the computer to know what i spend ...i have a credit card my parents gave me and i have been 100% responsible with it ...i do not go on spending sprees ....i only use the card to pay for what i need ..........i put gas in the car when it needs it ....according to my mother i am incompetent....explain to me how i am incompetent ......so i can understand ............there is more that i do .....my mother never ever ever sees the good that i do ....she always sees the bad that i do .....she is never ever proud of me for the things i do ....i will never ever be good enough for her .....i will never ever make her happy ....nothing is good enough for her .........i am not that perfect son that she always wanted ..........i was born with problems and disabilities .....she has never accepted me for me .....she has never ever treated me good...i always got treated totally different from my sister and brother ......i get special treatment its called treat me horrible ....my sister and brother were born normal ....both of them have good lives and normal lives ........i was born with problems and disabilities ...my life turned to be complete shit .....all i wanted in life is be treated like a human being and respected ........treated the same as my siblings .........................my mother can not understand why i am such an angry miserable person .....look how i have been treated my whole life .............all because i was born with problems and disabilities i get treated differently by people ...... it hurts me bad of how i am treated .....it makes me feel like i am a nothing .....people talk to me like i am stupid ......when i was born i did not ask for these problems and disabilities .......it happened in the womb .........i am just like a normal person but my brain is wired differently .....you have no idea how bad it hurts my feelings to be treated soo badly by people ....especially by my own mother ............you have no idea how hard my life has been because of the problems and disabilities i have .....i got made fun of all through school ....bullied and fights and made fun of .....i didnt have any friends .......i barely graduated high school .....all through school years i mostly got D's and E's and F's ....barely passed each grade ......when i graduated i never went back to school ....never ever went to the reunions ....i do not want to relive that ......if i went to the reunions i would probably get made fun of and bullied. .....i am tryin to forgot my school years .....those memories are horrible ...i want to erase them from my brain ...that is how bad it is .......why cant people treat me right ...what is wrong with people ........i am very friendly ...i am honest and loyal and faithful all 100% ....i am a 100% true friend ........i take friendship very serious ......if i am wrong i will do what i can to fix it and make it right ....i try really really hard to be the best friend that i can be to someone .....i try really hard to do good and do right...............i do what i can to be the best i can each day .....i try everyday ......i do have bad days and i have good days.....i struggle. ....i make the best of the day ..i try to not let it ruin my day......i am actually a very good person with a huge heart ......i am very loving and caring .......all you have to do is give me that chance ...i can prove it to you ......i just wish my mother would give me that chance to prove to her that i can be on my own and take care of myself.......she will never be happy ....she will always see the bad in me .....she always brings up my past in my face ......i know what i did in my past .....i am ashamed of it and i regret for what i did ..........i can not go back in time to change what i did ....it is what it is ....it took me years to forgive myself and to move on for what i did in my past....my mother still brings up the past in my face .....when i was in the group home i was on the computer looking for a place to live ....all i heard from my parents.......we can not afford it ...where are we gonna get the money ...who is gonna pay for it .....how are we gonna get the money ....we can not afford it.........that is all i heard for months. .....then one day i moved out of the group to a condo that they bought.....i was living in the condo for 2 months...i heard they had the money .....they actually had the money in the account to pay for it .........so they were playin games with me .....why couldnt they be totally honest with me ...why did they play games with me ...what is wrong with them .....do they really think i am stupid .................while living in the group home ....my parents gave me a credit card and a car .....all i heard for years of them bitching at me .....sayin i spending too much money ......the day they gave me that credit card i have been 100% honest with it ....i have never 1 time went on a spending spree ....i only bought what i needed it ........that is when i created a spending sheet on the computer ...put the info in the computer of what i spent that day. .....every time my mother bitched at me of how much i spent ...i go to the computer and open the spending sheet for that month and tell her what i bought and spent that month .....she shuts up ............they complained about the car ....its costing money for it to sit parked .....do they want me to drive it all day and night and get the moneys worth out of it ........the car is gonna cost money whether if it sits parked or driven .........they bitched at me when i didnt go out enough ...they bitched at me when i went out too much ......when they bitched at me that i need to go out and do things ....i went out and did things ..then i get bitched at for spending money .....so what i do is stay in ....then i get bitched at for stayin in to much ....ok so i go out .....they do the same thing over and over bitching at me ......i am never gonna win ...no matter what i do i get bitched at ...................................now that i have the condo ...one time she came over ......she had a hissy fit temper tantrum ....because i had a couple boxes sitting out ..and something on the kitchen table and my bed was not made .......she accused me of not taking my meds ....she yelled at me ....said i am not keeping this place clean .......mind you i was only living in the condo for a week ....i was still putting things away ..moving in ........i guess in her mind i am suppose to instantly move in and have the condo perfect 100% that instant of moving in .......everything put away ..nothing is out ......yelled at me and started a fight ....a few weeks ago my mother wanted to have a cleaning lady to come over to my condo and clean it ......in my mind that tells me that i am not cleaning it to my mother's specs .....its not perfect .......she met the cleaning lady here in the morning .....after she got done cleaning she paid for it ...it cost $80 ....my mother bitched that it cost money that much .......she was the one who wanted the cleaning lady ...i did not .........the other day she wants to have the cleaning lady to come again .....i told my mother that is what is telling me that my place is not clean enough for you .....she didnt like that .....they complain that i dont call them or go over there house .......gee i wonder why ......look how they treat me .....when she does call me all i get is yelled at ......when they want me to come over for dinner ...all they do is ignore me ....my father sleeps on the couch and my mother is in her room reading a book or sleeping ..............they cant understand why i dont call them or go over there house .......when i dont call them i get a call from her ..she yells at me for something ......when i dont go over there ...i get told i never go over there ......see i cant win .......they never come here to visit me ....i have been here in the condo since jan 31 2021 ....i can count on 1 hand of how many times they came to visit me ........i have gone to there house all the time .....when i lived in the group home they never visited me ....i can count 1 hand of how many times they came to the group home. ....when i lived in the group home i would go to there house several times a week ...........i lived in the group home for 8 years ....my parents have been embarrassed of me living in a group home .....they also didnt want there friends to know either .....they told there friends that i lived with them .....i guess they were ashamed of me living in the group home .....they are the ones who put me there ......what really really angers me is that i was moved to that group home on october 1, 2012 ......my birthday is october 2 ....the day before my birthday ....i guess that was my gift from them ......that is why i do not like celebrating my birthday because of that..........october 2, 2020 ....i sat in my bedroom and was upset and all alone on my birthday ...i could not celebrate it because the group home was on lock down for the last 10 months because of the virus .....they would not let me go out ....i was soo hurt and upset. .....i also sat in my room and sulked on october 1 because that was the day i moved in the group home .....that was the worst day of my life .....i had 2 bad days....i was soooo upset those 2 days ......now that i am no longer living in that group home anymore ...october is still a memory that i have...it will always be a bad memory ......i really hope when that day comes in 2021 i hope i can move on from that day .....i have a new day to remember jan 31, 2021 ...the day i moved in to the condo.......i hope i can have happy days in the condo .....but i dont know ...it depends on my parents....of how they treat me ...so far they have not treated me right ....all i do is get yelled for just about anything ...i am not good enough for what i do .....i can go on and on for days about things ...i think this is enough ......it took me a few hours to type all this ......
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iamaheartofgold to Mdnght Vixen: vixen ....happy birthday
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ssnowbunnyone: Gold, There is one thing that I dont understand. Why is it people on here can unfriend you and then expect you to greet them. It makes me wonder if they have any real friends in real life.
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Benarcher1313: nice picture
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iamaheartofgold to sarafirefly43: why did you send me a friend request ...what do you want from me .....i really dont have anything that you want .....
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sarafirefly43: just to be you freind
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iamaheartofgold in reply to sarafirefly43: to be a friend is to be earned ........people just dont become friends out of the blue ......it has to be earned and created .....
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iamaheartofgold to imaary123: why are you sending me friend requests. ....i have absolutely nothing that you want .....go away
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imaary123: If you don’t wanna be a friend just ignore me
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Pdy2: Well said
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iamaheartofgold: I would like to share things ....3-17-2021....8:10pm.... my friend’s birthday was March 16 ... she passed away 8 years ago.... I have a letter that I typed up of the memories of her and me we had together.....from time to time I type in that letter.... I really miss her .......
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YummyCaliGrl: ~ Keep those Memories close to your Heart, she's still with you..til you meet again.. ~
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