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Hiryo: For a long time, I thought I could hold the burden of loss on my shoulders and stand for those who mattered to me when they could not stand for their-self... But now, my soul buckles down and bellows at the weight... The rain around me formed from my own tears.... I just don't know what to do anymore... T_T

Hiryo: Words to share, meanings of care. You may not see your true beauty, or may not know why someone could say you are.... But, that truth in you is there.. For those who hope to be seen.. To those who hope to be cared for... Or one who wants to care for another. It is in you... No need to show pity to others or yourself. That truth of your being is there. Remember the moments... Remember the times both good and bad. Embrace who you are... For you can choose to be more or less. You may feel always alone.. to never have that hand to take... those few moments where there is just.. nothing. No emotions. Just the emptiness. Think such over... There is always a chance someone will take your hand. You can find that one kiss.. That one tear to which, holds your being forever. Not of sadness, but of happiness. Don't forget the little things, the little moments... Some events maybe over... some hands you may have let go.. and smiles faded into shadows... Time moving on as always will be.. Looking in eyes not there. =( Feeling the song within, the horizon burning.. You are still alive. Many lose their patience... and just want to give up. With much in life, the easiest to do is usually the worst you can choose. It is easier to hurt, then to heal. It is easier to take then to give.. It is easier to steal then to work..... For any who reads this, find your own words.. Find your own sake.. Don't just keep looking for the most selfish.. only to allow yourself to feel good. What point will it be when you are 70 or older? Not many really want to be alone... =\ The words I am writing are not to a single person, but to all who read this. To you... Take your feelings.. Show them to others.. Show them to me. Show them to yourself... Everything seems to fade away after so many years... The words lose meaning, and turn into nothing more but sounds or letters on a screen. Our dreams may always fail to see the light of day.... Our aspirations being taken for granted... But the very moment you give up, is the moment that it will NEVER come to fruition... Soon, all of us.. who are taking today for granted, will lose a tomorrow... The yesterdays will become nothing more then faded memories... Please, give love more time.. more chances... It is not a impossibility till you forget or stop caring.....
Here is a song, for this.....

"Avantasia - The Story Ain't Over"

Hiryo: Living each day, trying to be more.. go higher... needing that new reason to stay, but at times it is easier to just walk away... May never find truth or happiness here, but why do people continue to try from all corners of this Earth? Leaving little choice, and always having time to run away. What is the reason to remain? Each morning coming faster, and each night feeling like a disaster.... I know it is easier to walk away from all this pain rather then look at it in the eye.... Many times, I have given it all, to only end up broken... With the lost question in the silence. That voice beyond the glass wall, those words wrote to each one of us... Showing only that mask.. A victim only to suffocate that worse of faiths... When there is no answer, only lonely drifting away.. Breaking delicate waves and lifting shadows of all those dreams once broken. So easy for that one tear to turn into a ocean... T_T Searching all through the ethereal webs, for that fate to be.. which never will be seen. Moved by all the desire, the hope, the dreams.. Fearing the self gratification seeking illusions amidst the enigmatic rooms of voices that listen openly. I could be someone you hear about, or have known.. But am one, you never have seen or heard a word from. If given the chance to have your time, perhaps you may understand.. Once those stones you crawl under is lifted up, and that cloud that is always raining over your shoulders is gone.... Perhaps, with all the time you have lost from those past years... a new day, a new hour, can give you all that was once wanted but only dreamed... Many just want to hold on to you, to never be alone.. wanting to know where they belong.. Behind those eyes, a fear that holds the secrets from all the wounds that never heal... Trying to believe in all unseen... Never being able to foresee the time we have left to try and find another or live alone.. Constantly holding on to me, holding on to you..... Holding on to all.... Many never really have a chance... the lost days into the past moonlit nights... Sadness growing inside.... to us will seem unfair... But till you can get that moment, to see in the eyes of another.. not a reflection.. but the one vision that brings to them a smile.. the one sight that makes them feel safe, held in and warm.. never feeling empty.. the one moment, where the part in you that died can be felt moving..... still alive, while laying awake in bed.. the aspirations from another.. to not need living the anguish of your past... Those door that open when you look in her/his eyes..... Your fingers filling in the gaps of his/her hand... The many questions.. What is our purpose, where do we come from... why are we here, alive... What will be beyond our own fragile frame? Well.. Life is very short and we only have one try.. There could be more, there could be less, but for what we know, this is all we got. You could die today, tomorrow, who knows... but there is no need to be scared of such anymore... You may never find the answers for those questions or understand why, but we know it is true that you can still try.... Smile for now.. live for a while... carry yourself on.... I am saying hello to all of you. To every single person who reads this. All who glance here... All who are confused. Please.. look around. =( Ask, where do you belong... Ask, what should I do.. There is no need to be afraid of not knowing or having a answer.. Just try to not let a day go to waste.. A single moment be in vain.. The answer to so many questions, is within you. We all know life is short.... I could write here for people to try and learn from their mistakes and stand for the moralities and choices they make... But it is better to try and give a more grand message here to ask you.. Yes. you. To not keep it all inside... Let others in. Show it all to everyone you care for.. those you love.. and if no one is there, look for them.. The answers are there. You have the future with you.. No matter how bleak it maybe.. minutes, hours.. you have a conscience.. use it. Let others see you shine. Many of us, said this was not for me.. and wanted so much more.. far beyond that what we could dream.. more then we could see.. And saying we would never be like them, falling down, making those mistakes.. so many years passing... Some choice to live like fools, others with morals and grace, others choose to loose.... It is our life we belong to.. May not have chosen to be born, yet here we are... Making the best or worst to which we were given... Consuming to live. Have you wished to be someone else? To have what others have?..... That is a waste. What good would that do for the one you took over for? What real good is that other then self gratification?.. This is our life we belong to and our gift.. It may be horrible for some.. great for others.. but it is what we have.... At the least, try.... Cast out your horrors, those past scars.. the monsters inside.. Life starts blank, and as we live.. we write our own stories.... For a long time.. I wanted to speak my mind, but in a way to which would not be obvious.. I would say, no one has the answers.. and with my own life, struggle with my own issues. having the self pity and remorse for what my life already is.... I did what I could.. and so can you. Every day I still struggle through it.. With my mother's pain.. My own pain.. never being able to speak my own mind, for my thoughts were not to be there.. Every day... I try to put a smile on, not for me.. but for those around me.. Feeling helpless, but.. still trying all I could for all who depended on me.. I could not change how I feel... And would think each day, there was no end to the pain.. Doing what others bestowed on me.. Leaving nothing else for me to live for, and just being undone.. Fulfilling a price to high, while dieing slowly inside.... I just could not take it.. And will not pretend to be something that which I can't be... Very few people know the hell of what it is like to see those you love the most suffer the worst of fate and can't do anything but watch idle and do the best you can to comfort them.... And to those who do, they have the empathy that surpasses any other... You can't truly change a person fully, till they feel the pain of loss... .. I am unsure if there is ever a true right time for me to say something like this... A day where the stars above align... or if my words are meaningless in a field of shadows.. I think today is the time... In my heart, I have stopped caring for so much, and that..... made me disappear in the darkness... and left nothing but a shell to be seen... The pain cracked my soul... and here I am spouting out thoughts mundane, depressive, and possibly inspiring... Here is the moment I am trying to search for the words, yet so many are not emerging.. The day I stopped caring... was the day I forgot what it meant to live.. I remembered how to live, and I hope all of you who forgot what it meant to live.. will remember as well. I wish, I could help many understand.. to not use a single word to which crushes the many.. This is your show.. This is your time. Realize your dreams. There is still more time for many of you to do more, continue more. Even if you fall down, it is your time to arise... In your eyes, lays a tireless hunger.. it is there. We do NOT need to keep up the charade.. =( It maybe hard to tell it all apart.. and we will not know always what tomorrow may need, or when we will need to draw the time.... Looking to the streets, the many who walk, yet don't listen.. the words of poetry we can all hear if only we choose to... T_T There is no need to join the rest in the masquerade... I do not know how many will understand what I am saying.... But to those who do.. Thank you.

Hiryo:

I guess, if people are interested in anything I post... I will be adding a song, once a day to a post. Such as this, "Enbound - The Broken Heart".