 Friends         | Just hit me up and ask me anything!  ghostm0de: The strongest structures ever built Are the ones that don’t get built at all And the kind of bricks that don’t get laid Are the only kind that never fall He taught himself how not to lose By never really trying to win That’s how the man in front of you became The boy who never I’m afraid of what might happen if Together we build a wall Cause the only kind of love that never gets built Is the only kind of love that never falls So I’ll forfeit future tears of joy to save us both from pain I could kiss you now but I’d only miss you more When I walk away I never let my heart speak through my lips I never let my hands rest on your hips I never said ‘I love you’ But a heart never lies I know you heard me say it when I said it with my eyes So I’ll forfeit future tears of joy to save us both from pain I could kiss you now but I’d only miss you more He taught himself how not to lose By never really trying to win That’s how the man in front of you became The boy who never ghostm0de: just something i was working on a few years back that i am gonna get back into - positive feedback only please lol an excerpt: She watches him, for a few of what felt to her to have been the longest moments possible. Sat at the bar; he is, from what she can tell, studying a crumpled up page of what was clearly ripped out if a notebook. A letter? A page of a story he felt compelled to remove and destroy? After a while she decided to inch closer to him, "... Whatcha drinking about?" She asks, in an attempt to be clever. He glances at her, quickly studies her face. The look of eager yet innocent bewilderment. A look he is all too familiar with. "The future." He replied, quiet enough for her not to have caught it. "I'm sorry?" She asked, hoping he'd repeat. "I said, can I buy you a drink?" ghostm0de: "Do you ever get a little bit tired of life Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive 'Cause you gotta survive Like your body's in the room but you're not really there Like you have empathy inside but you don't really care Like you're fresh outta love but it's been in the air Am I past repair A little bit tired of tryin' to care when I don't A little bit tired of quick repairs to cope A little bit tired of sinking There's water in my boat I'm barely breathin' Tryna stay afloat So I got these quick repairs to cope" View all 4 posts  Talk Derby to Me: Thank you for your kind words, I remembered playing it around about when I got to the second word of your post. it is a great track that speaks to me both musically and lyrical ghostm0de: "Well, I looked my demons in the eyes laid bare my chest, said 'Do your best, destroy me... You see, I've been to hell and back so many times, I must admit you kind of bore me.' " ghostm0de: "I'd like to tell you all my bad ideas I hang them with the good to dilute the awful truth I've been asleep for nearly fifteen years All dreams I've never had outweigh the life I'm not yet living I've felt along the walls of here and there But nothing ever seemed quite right So I kissed off into the night There was a thought, there was a bleeding thread But nothing ever lasts that long within the confines of my head I'm here to tell I'm not okay And all those things you can never say out loud I want to tell you there was no one that I ever believed in more than you I want to know if there was anyone you ever believed in more than me I've terrorized the seas of way back when This little heart of mine has drunk its weight in blood red wine A little lost, a little out of time But as the years begin to creep, I have to hope that I'll be fine I'm here to tell I'm not okay And all those things I could never say out loud" Estherminology: I didn't see you at all over the weekend but I wasn't here much myself. Take care of yourself!!  ghostm0de: no i wasn't on over the weekend, i had some real world stuff to take care of. and prep for this week at work, its gonna be insane, and half of my very small team "forgot" about this morning.. a thing we have been planning for over a month. smh. hope you're good! ghostm0de: "....too much to bear.. you were my life but life is far away from fair.. was i stupid to love you was i reckless to help.. was it obvious to everybody else? that i've fallen for a lie. you were never on my side.. fool me once, fool me twice. are you death or paradise? now you'll never see me cry.. there's just no time to die." |
but so true 
I hope things settle down soon for you 
