MEDICATED DRAMA QUEEN ~*~ 100% PAIN IN THE ASS
~Currently undertaking the biggest battle of my life. Having cancer (Yes, cancer) SUCKS!
I LOVE: Reading. Painting. Writing. Books. Art. Pot. Blood Guts & Gore. Heavy Bass lines. Screaming guitars & Vocals.
I AM: Pretty Cynical and I can be pretty rude. I generally speak my mind and argue my point if agrivated. Pretty insecure in many aspects. At times difficult to handle. Kind of insane. Weird and Wired most of the time. Trying to be a little different. Not sure of "who I am" or if I even want or need to know.
People who know me, know I am fun to be around, though I may not be considered reliable or mature. I'm wild at parties, and crash hard the next day.
I've also been known to be funny.. at times.
Enola in Chains: Am on a new chemo drug. Had another birthday. My hair has grown back some. I am far too skinny. Still spend a lot of time being sad and lonely. Had a serious operation not long ago to literally save my life. 4th bout of this new chemo in the morning. Hating life and what I have become. Would give anything to go back to how it used to be.
Don't ever take your health for granted.
Enola in Chains: Soo, it's been a long fuckin time since I spent much time on here...
Update, I am now a weirdo bald headed freak lookin person.
I've just had my fourth chemo last week before Christmas.
I have another scan tomorrow.
Mentally I'm still doin "okay"...
I've lost close to 20 kilos so I am VERY skinny.
I spend a lot of time being sad and questioning my future.
I'll be back with more information soon.
Daft Punk: I feel really sad, you so didn't deserve this. Thank God though medical science is where it is, best of luck Darling.
Enola in Chains: After 6 days, I am finally out of hospital. Still waiting for some test results so I don't have any answers yet, but I'm on the mend =)
Enola in Chains: Spending another night in the hospital. This is hell. Wish I had someone to hold my hand. Wouldn't be as scary if I wasn't on my own.
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Enola in Chains:
I stare up at the moon. It mocks me with its beauty.
I think of you, where you are. Who we used to be.
How can our time be so short but long?
How do I fix this shattered mess inside?
There is nothing beside me when I sleep.
No-one holding me while I cry.
I spend sick days alone and scared.
Listen, as I play this tiny violin.
Without hopes for the future.
I hide myself away from the world.
The stunning world angers me.
With its lasting, continuous light.
The memory of your face haunts me.
I close my eyes, you're all I see.
I lay awake at night, in the dark.
Hearing our old conversations.
Something that once made me so happy.
Even if it was hidden underneath.
Because of my persistent persona.
Once again I am wrapped in sadness.
A gloom so deep and dark.
I get lost in my despair.
The light at the end of the tunnel, gone out.
Where is the one charged with its care?
Enola in Chains: How do you live without the person you love? How do you keep smiling and looking forward to the future?
Why am I no closer to finding a way...?
SynSkellington: Lmao..I saw this and instantly thought of you, Chick Dude
p.s. ... It doesn't have an army helmet
Enola in Chains: Toatz just went out and bought a new Internet connection. FINALLY. But holy shit, what a pain in the ass the fucking things are!! Wont even work on MY laptop, have to use dads
*~Sweetz~*: ~*~*BEAUTIFUL HEART AWARD*~*~*~*~*
Once you have been given this award, you are supposed to paste it on the wall of 8 people who deserve it,. If you receive more than 3, you know you are really beautiful! If you break the chain nothing will happen, but it's always sweet to know that someone thinks you're...beautiful inside and out, and every single one of you ARE completely !
Enola in Chains: So, my internet connection is fucked. Optus says I use Facebook for free, even if the bill isn't paid for months. But, when it comes to actually using my internet, I can open, use, read any website EXCEPT Facebook
What a piece of shit!
What's the fucking point?!!
deus: <<< ONCE AND FOR F***ING ALL... THIS IS A ZEBRA, NOT A HORSE!!!!!!!!!
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