 Blog PostsFriends         | Tell you thisI told my mom and my oldest sister if something happens to my vertebrae and the fracture completely breaks to where i'm paralyzed from the neck down to please take me off the respiratory machine and let me pass away,if if this does go into play i won't be online anymore and i'll miss most of you but i don't want to live in a body i can't use or have to have a breather to keep me alive. the 16th i see the neurosurgeon and first will be a brace on my torso and my back to keep the vertebrae in place and heal I really don't have anything to live for so if the spine goes wrong then i won't be alive anymore...My life was never a brady bunch family, didn't finish high school never seen college, only place i ever go to go was Arizona to see my closes friend. i never met the right woman for me she just is'nt out there and with my problems i'm sure she wouldn't want to help take care of me some people aren't ment to a partner and i'm one of those, i don't see anyone giving me time to know me or even care to look out for me buts ok i been single since 2001 i'm not strong anymore my body is weakening....nobody would look past my flaws and be with me. just been alone for soooo long and i don't have that better half that would make me feel worth something. Angel131313: Looks like u have come along way I'll tell u that im a Cancer survivor as of next month it will be 24 years on very first one then it will be almost 18 years on 2nd one then it will be 15 years I lost right kidney then its been 2 years I broke left arm now have metal plate & 9 screws just say I now have more brains LOL see my journey isn't over yet I keep putting one foot in front of the other no matter how much bad lately I keep getting a lot of it is out of my control so all I can do is pray it turns out the right way every one has a choice we either can tell our self im not going to sit here & do nothing im going to keep putting one foot in front of the other & keep fighting. 4 years ago • Report  1 |
