Catarina_mayumi: Underneath the cold dark sky
You see with open, clearer eyes
Just what it is you need to be
For you, or her, or him, or me.
Ripples in the crystal lake
Echoes of our past mistakes.
Never falter, never stop
Until you've made it to the top.
Lasting damage, deeper scars
Less to cover, just cut my heart.
Always strong, never weak
The things inside I'll never speak.
So take me as what you need
Fast or slow, don't mind the speed.
I am the perfect disguise
Forever hiding behind closed eyes.
Catarina_mayumi: Singing at full volume at 5am cause you can't sleep. It's been waaaayy too long a day. But sleep does not care!
Catarina_mayumi: I keep seeing people in my friends list (and people on theirs commenting) that they hate Valentine's day. I can understand the temptation to hate it. But honestly it's nothing but a corporate holiday designed to make you feel bad for being alone. And that's wrong. Because you should always learn to be strong on your own before you involve love in your life. And you should be finding someone to be happy with because you're happy with them. Not because a day is coming that you don't want to be alone for. It really is just another day. Not a reason to be depressed. But that's the way our society works.
Catarina_mayumi: Since you've given me no other way to contact you to ask, @ Kimber not Kim, I do so wonder why you just up and blocked me. After all I stood by you through and for. I have to say that was a pretty shitty thing to do. But hey your perogative. I do hope you find even one person who is as true a friend to you as I was. But seeing as how you went and stabbed me in the back when I did absolutely nothing to you, nor have you any cause, I doubt it.
Catarina_mayumi: Found out the hard way that I can't just bounce back from surgery and blood clots and the resulting infarction to my right lung. I have to go slow and easy if I don't want to end up back in the hospital. Lesson learned!
Catarina_mayumi: Finally freaking home! God today has been a day. I'm so glad to be home and away from the mass public.
Catarina_mayumi: Going home today! Finally. Almost a week in the hospital. I'm so ready to get out of here. I'm still healing and in quite a bit of pain but I'd much rather heal at home!
Catarina_mayumi: For those of you who actually care about me and what's going on in my life, I'm back in the hospital again. With multiple blood clots in both of my lungs. The doctors are working hard to get me feeling better. So hopefully in a few days I'll be home again.
Catarina_mayumi: Back from the hospital! But I have four appointments tomorrow! So I only get a little bit of rest at home for now.
Catarina_mayumi: I'm still here! I'm just not getting on much right now. Because I'm actually resting like I'm supposed to. I'm healing slowly but surely. I'll be around.
Catarina_mayumi: You never know just how hard it is to move carefully until it causes you agony to move at all! And I'm supposedly going to be like this for several weeks. Yay.
Catarina_mayumi: Surgery is done!! Still in the hospital so far. And in a massive amount of pain from the recovery. But I'm doing well overall.
Catarina_mayumi: Surgery tomorrow. Getting a hysterectomy. I'll take all the luck I can get from everyone! So please wish me luck. I don't get to celebrate Thanksgiving this year because of it. And I want it to go well so I can actually celebrate Christmas with my kids. Thank you for any well wishes!