 Blog PostsFriends        | ::#pictures: # memories::# heartI take a lot of pictures. It annoys my children immensely It's not just pictures of them though, although they are my heart. I also treasure other pictures, that I did not take, but ones that captured fun times, sad times, , loved ones who now are gone.. Gosh, how I wish I had more pictures of my sister.... We used to hang out at Kelley Point Park on the Columbia & Willamette Rivers all summer long drinking her homemade coolers..haha..Well she drank them. I tried. I really did.. Wine and Kool Aid is an acquired taste that only the "cool" people could handle... She was so "cool".. I have never been "cool".. She so tried to help me in that department, even throwing a surprise 16th birthday party for me and supplying the alcohol..but alas, I am awkward and alcohol just intensifies my oddness.... I'm thankful for the friends who love me despite my quirkiness and sometimes shyness with an inability to stop talking. (I get nervous and I start babbling ..It's not a pretty sight haha.. Yanno, I have the ability to talk continually about NOTHING ? It's like I have fluff in my head...and it spills out of my mouth.. lol.)Anyway back to my big sis... She was so outgoing, so amazing, so fun....I miss how she used to be.. I'm not sure had she lived if she would have gotten back who she used to be.. It's sad how life can cloud a person, change their ambitions, and lower their standards... My heart hurts... I miss my dad. Sometimes I wish I could just call him..yanno... The memories pull at my heartstrings...Sometimes my past feels so surreal...but pictures prove the realness.. They are moments held close...and as long as I don't dissect (some of) them, they are forever precious. Good ol' Google and Facebook showed my pics of my time at the Oregon Country Fair. What a wonderous time...and not just the fair. I miss Leo being a part of this world. It's so unreal that he is also deceased. We used to laugh at everything. I miss that. We would watch the stupidest possible movies together ON PURPOSE haha.. I have so many pictures of him and the kids being silly. We would play Words With Friends together over the telephone haha.. It's funny how little things mean the world after that person is gone.... I take more and more pictures...and my heart rejoices when I see how much my kids have grown up.. Yeah, maybe I'm obsessed.. They say I am ..haha... I'm grateful though.. I love that I have experienced such a precious life. I feel so fortunate that I know so many wonderful people, who teach me daily that this world is a beautiful and amazing place. |
