No more sob stories, no more bull shit luxuries. I'm alive and here, dead inside but I'm here.
This is a open and public blog acc, you will see my deepest thoughts, as well as many of my random thoughts. You will see all the information i release on my character and myself irl. My poems and emotions will be detailed in my blog, so pls enjoy it honestly.
Arius Zachary: Lezz try this one last time...
Shadowlight is open for the morning if my Wi-Fi keeps connected.
Arius Zachary: Ok I'm sorry for earlier delays. My internet has been kinda messing up. But I'm working on the lounge room and the rp room again now.
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Arius Zachary in reply to https_simpbxby: And this could be called attention seeking but fact is I GIVE NO FUCKS about pitty. But there was that one special person who I did care about them. There was that one job opportunity. There was there was there was. There hasnt been shit for me- no jobs no money no love even.
My daughter passed away 7 almost 8 months ago and I'm dumbfounded about life so ive fallen back to this website.
Ive literally had enough of this world-- should let the cancer take my ass at this point cause what else will? Really I'm fucking tired...
AntiCupid_: I don't know you too well man, but don't give up, you got people that care for you, your life is worth so much to so many people, you might just not see that yet. You have so much to live for, if not for yourself, live for your daughter, live because she wasn't given the chance to do so fully, life is a gift, so don't waste it my friend. Much love and respect, keep holding on tight and don't let go.
https_simpbxby: what goon said, arius, even though this is a stupid site and no one actually knows each other here, just know people care. I care (': and you know that. Now my words, advice, whatever you would call it doesn't really help but I'm always here to at least listen to you and you've always knew that. I don't like you talking about letting your cancer take over... stay strong please ;-; trust me, rn it may not seem like life is worth living for but there are so many things, so much for you yet to experience and enjoy.
Arius Zachary: I'm going to bed. Ive been up, trying to calm down. Thsnks to those who checked in. I'm sorry if ive not responded to comments and messages. I'm just.... Not able tonight.
Rephrase it- reclaim this shit.
Nah best bet I'm talking bout more theb drugs and double cup-
Another drug daze and another day in walking wide awake-
Hit em with the rick flair on the duplex-
Feeling Hugh heff cause you know I just can't-
Cant quit this shit brodies comon homie.
Ready to die for this shit dont even question it-
Blicky with a buzz cut from the militant patron-
Talking bout 4 hater 5 invaders 6 layers 7 prayers-
Now you count it down 3 ways 2 days 1 death-
You know murder my hobby like my brains the lobby-
Like Jay electronica whered he even go?
Never finna know never finna grow.
Talking tall telling about 7 digits-
7 bodies dropping jever seeing Heaven-
Never been down on my luck?
Man you know ive fucked lady luck!
Talking bout good luck?
Nah this was good skill with no good skill-
Call it triple kill.