A fault in word

“PERCEPTION” A word so easily accepted. The definition is; the act of perceiving; cognizance by the senses or intellect, or by the mind, of what is presented to them; discernment; apperhension; cognition. The synopsis of this is that through what we already “know” or what we think we “know” we establish a standard for what we accept in our daily lives. Living in a media-controlled, economically frustrated world it is easy to accept a common perception. If you were walking down a street and a man asked you for some change, “you” would assume so, without the even a spittle of thought, that he needed it more than you, so you would just give him some change maybe even a bill or two and you would feel you had done the right thing. Unbeknownst to you, the man actually makes a better income than you. The point of this is that there is a standard that “man” as a whole has established towards a common perception.
People are being green lighted to think the same things. There is no true exterior thought put into believing what you’re told. It doesn’t stop at a simple bum you experience in the streets; no it can easily go further into an openly expanding environment. Things you would never question, because it would be considered, wrong to doubt or question. A very good example would be religions, some religions were actually established to peruse only their personal goals and nothing else, Scientology is one in particular. Individuals in this supposed religion where able to fraud gently gain monetary funds from their supposed followers, by establishing in there religion that it was a requirement that a certain percentage of their funds were to allocated to the religions “giving plate”. Again “blindly” man follows an established standard.
Still the subjects are still just the outer layers of the skin. Things still go a lot deeper. Things that are known are hidden from the masses in order to maintain an equal value of control. The most uncontrollable force is that of mass hysteria. Most human minds can’t comprehend that of truth. Take in for example the nomad tribes that survive the tropics of Africa. They exist with no knowledge of the outside world and it’s wonders. They are totally oblivious to the progression of man outside there hunters. This type of “blindness” is also achieved to the masses of our society. Present a tribal witch doctor with a syringe of penicillin and tell him it will cure his people of many bacterial dieses, being that it’s only a clear liquid that resembles H20 the miracle healer will ask you how it was blessed, not what the composition of its fungi to insulin ratio. The fact of the matter is the good doctor has a standard of perception among his people that does not incorporate the ideas of science or medicine.
Now imagine the mass of society as a much larger nomad tribe, and instead of penicillin it was a cure for cancer that some doctor has miraculously created in his research. Being that cancer has so many clients and future clients. This would seem like a miracle. Note that there have been many false accusations that there could not be a miracle cure for cancer only long term treatment would help in the reduction of cancerous cells. Being the believer of the media’s so called scientist you readily accept that their right and the doctor is a raving lunatic who is out for some publicity. In all actuality the media was informed that the cure was a fake, but is wasn’t. The government that was informed of such a cure was immediately handling the situation. Being that Cancer is such a vindictive disease, it needs constant treatment that costs a lot of money, money that the government gets in the long run. Being that the government would lose that money by allowing this cure to be spread, the situation would have to be deflated.
Still this topic only scratches the bare surface of the topic. To go further I ask you have an open mind towards all aspects of life that you know.

If you find anything offensive said about religion, politics, or certain standards of lifestyles to bother you I suggest you stop reading now.

In the early years of man, men were not as intelligent and free willed as they are today. These men were easily manipulated and confused. Stories told well enough were accepted as fact and became history. One man with the right ambition and the intellect to use this to his advantage would be able to control the masses at a whim.
Religion as we know it was based during these early years and has evolved to what we know now. “Be good, and receive good; Be evil, and be cast down to suffer.” But before religion was established the morals where not really followed. The world was covered in faithless wonderers. People who knew punishment to be given only by a man or group of men that were stronger. If you were stronger, then you got what you wanted without reprise. Intelligent men saw this and realized that this would only ensue an omnipotent chaos. Something had to be done, something powerful and stern. Then the idea of Great happiness for good-doers and an eternal pain for the antagonists. Morales became a golden rule. By saying “If in life you follow a good morale value you shall be happy in death. And to oppose that would only mean you were doomed to pain and suffering.” But that had to be somehow enforced by some unexplainable force; a being that surpassed all understanding, in other words a “GOD”. This idea was backed with many stories that influenced the people to believe. A powerful book was written to hold these powerful and influencing stories. It was regarded higher than gold and diamonds. Sacred symbols were established like family crests to establish a known reputation of power. The more power the religion gained the more followers came willingly. There were even times that questioning of a powerful religion meant immediate death.
Now being that religion was a set standard and was put into place at an early age in mans evolution it has maintained an equal importance to mans lifestyle, almost as important as speech. Being that the world is vast and broad, variations to this basic idea were established. Some countries even denied the idea of religion and fell because of the uncommon hate and rebellion. The standard was set, if you weren’t a Shepard you were a sheep.
-Aeon

To those words

To who saw life steadily, and saw it whole I ask “what? What did you see?”
Don’t you see that there is no possible source of evil, except that of good?
And can’t you fell the stares of all those who are blind, reaching for an answer?
I guess your words just ring….

Hollow….
Emptiness glows your eternal breath again.
Hollow…
Grit your teeth and bind your fists, ask for redemption and receive only this.
Hollow…
Empty…
And lost amoung the sheep, I feel.
Hollow…
Empty…
This hollowness runs deep.
It’s hollow and it’s empty.

Who are you to judge my hands?
Why are those who turn their head’s the only ones with sympathy?
Open your hands and hold you head, these are the words that will wake the dead.
And don’t let your closet spill out, I this I think we could do without.
And again I’m felling empty…

Hollow and empty…
Hollow…
Empty…
Who did you cast your first stone at? And who felt the weight of all that?
Hollow...
Who was this who knew their own fate? And begged for an end to it.
Empty…

It’s hollow and it’s empty…
Your soul is , hollow and empty...
Hollow
Hollow
Hollow
Empty…

Marionette (song)

Marionette

Follow in daddies footsteps, little princess.
Don’t come crying when he pushes you into your endless depths, dead mistress.
And don’t mistake your eyes for the sin you cry, I’m telling you this is….

Marionette let your strings come down.

Marionette be what I never found.

Marionette this is why you left it all for me… trying to be what I’ll never see.

Carrying the weight of the scissors you bear, cut the strings and bury it all away.
Cause you…never…felt me. Why do….. the strings… you have…hurt me?
Why are you…staring at….my careless eyes?

Marionette let your strings come down.

Marionette be what I never found.

Marionette, don’t let the puppeteer carry you…

Marionette, this is how I found you.

Strings of fear, just shed your tear.
Bear these lies and find your god.
The final product is what you see.
Lose your soul and follow me.

Marionette let your strings come down.

Marionette be what I never found.

Marionette, don’t let the puppeteer bury you…

Marionette, this will be the end for you.

My Human condition

This Blog is something to inspire people to think about themselves for once, not in a greedy way but an understanding way of inner psychoanalysis for anyone. I will first describe what this vault is, so you can understand your own consciousness as well. This applies to all humans, we all have the same functions, just different ways of using them or not. Compare the mind to a home, this is your home, your consciousness housing. Like all homes there are areas.
1. The Front door - This is our Pre-judgemental gate, this is where we choose to let people into our lives/home or not.
2. Hallways - These are the paths to our rooms/paradigms, each hallway is a different trigger for our emotions, where people wonder in our lives is determined by which hallway they take.
3. The Living room - This is the part of the mind that we let everyone that is part of lives see, this is where our social interactions, fun, and other social functions exist.
4. The Kitchen - This is where we cook up our ideas, thoughts and play with them.
5. The Stairs leading upwards - The part of the brain where we let the ones closest to us come up to our personal spaces.
6. The Bedroom - This is where the ones closest to us get to come to see the good side to our personality towards them positively.
7. The Bathroom - This is where our dirty work is done, the hard decisions, the cleansing and the personal reflection of ourselves exist.
8. The Attic - The place where we store our forgotten memories that we some times visit to remember our pasts.
9. The Downward stairs - The place where we let anger, sadness and depression towards ourselves and others manifest.
10. The Basement - The area were we keep others out of, our personal area where only we go, this area is where we keep our secrets, and hidden ideas. This is the most important part, because it holds part 11 of the brain.
11. The Vault - This is where we keep things that will never ever been shared with others, because of fear of judgement, punishment, or the immense pain that those ideas might bring us (aka the skeletons in the closet). This is the part that we keep chained and locked away from ourselves and others. This analysis is my personal opinion of our minds, this is what I have actively observed in my mind as well as others. You don't have to be a psychologist, or read about psychology to know these things, they are right in front of your face everyday, but because of external distractions you either ignore these things or you are just to busy to see them.

I have decided for my own personal reasons to open my vault, and instead of filling it with all the bad things about myself, I have decided to put everything personal into it, in order to keep myself from opening my vault one day and letting it destroy me. And one of the things that is part of this is decision is sharing my vault items, good and bad. If you want to be in more control of yourself you should write down the good and bad things about yourself, it will be hard at first, but once you start things will start flowing, and remember me posting my vault is not something I suggest for you, it is something I have just decided to do, you should make the list for at least just one person, yourself, so you can move on with your life and not let those things hold you back.
My Vault Good things:
Freedom from judgement of others
Thinking outside the box
Trustworthiness
Artistic Creativeness
Intelligent
Funny
Ambitious
Motivated
Skilled in may fields Helpful to those in need
Calm and peaceful
Forgiving
Understanding
Energetic
Profound thinker

Bad Things:
Easily Distracted
Easily Addicted to habits
Bad Memory
Confusing to others
Fear of Direct Conflicts
Lack of doing things for myself, to improve myself
Hermit
Not sticking to the task at hand
Bad hand writing
Not reading enough
Compulsive spender
Not paying enough attention to my friends and family
Not moving forward with my life
Poor diet
Over-talkative
Egotistical, something that applies to most.
Over confident in my actions and decisions
Hypocritical I have decided to write these truthful facts about myself to give you an idea to what you can do, and should do, for yourself, get rid of your skeletons, grow, and move on with your life, sometimes truth hurts, but it will also set you free because you will have nothing to hold you back. I hope this will inspire you to do the same for yourself.

My favorite song lyrics - Pink Floyd - "Time"

Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
You fritter and waste the hours in an off hand way
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way

Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain
You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun

And you run and you run to catch up with the sun, but its sinking
And racing around to come up behind you again
The sun is the same in the relative way, but youre older
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death

Every year is getting shorter, never seem to find the time
Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desperation is the english way
The time is gone, the song is over, thought Id something more to say

Home, home again
I like to be here when I can
And when I come home cold and tired
Its good to warm my bones beside the fire
Far away across the field
The tolling of the iron bell
Calls the faithful to their knees
To hear the softly spoken magic spells.

somthing amiss

Gleemful with a minor integrity, I have worked the world around me as a marionette with unseen strings of Blood and Fear. I've been the epicenter of self-destruction and self loathing, but I still exist in my same cycle of self-delusion. Plentiful with words of ignorance, I fill a void called "Life" within myself and look for nothing to guide me. No torch which to see my path through this dark tunnel that is this "Life". If you can find the level of reasoning that I exist under, you will find the truth of my sincerity. To obtain this level however, will take the loss of what you know, all your beliefs, all of your comprehensions, and finaly the loss of hope inside your heart. I'm unsure how or why I'm at this level, but I'm sure I'm stuck here on this side of the looking glass. Day by day I look into a mirror with no reflection, just a bitter fallen one. Vanity is man's biggest sin, but without this sin man would still be living in huts and killing with bows and arrows. So do not neglect some sins, for without them our retrabutions would be nothing.


SIN

Dreamwords

"If we are trying to wake up why are we still asleep?"

Where does consciouness resonate? What are its boundries? Is it bound by physical restraints? Is the husk we call a body its only form of expression? These questions and many more have plagued the human mind ever since it realized "self". Why are we so limited to what we are allowed to see and know in this physical form? Does it evolve from here, or end? Timeless quandaries repeating over and over with the same results of unknowning, questioning, conditional ends. If we wake from this dream do we resume life somewhere else and pack this life away as another curious idea in our minds? Keeping our head barely above water with the ideas of an immortal soul, a consciousness that only evolves and never dies... such ideas give us hope, but with hope also comes disappointment. We all share this world, yet we gain for self alone, caring not what is next to us, but next for us. Egotistical beings with the self ordained idea of importance. What if we are all one, just in different places? Who laughs last then? Where will you take your consciouness? Will you grow to a new state of being? Or return to the lesser? Greater? A chaotic dream with no reason, no greater purpose, just existing in a spiral of ideas streamed from an unknowable force. Chaos with rules, who would have thought? Meeting its natrual begining with its impossible end. We all share this in common, we exist in each others eyes but not in our own, so what is real? Time misplaced for good reason, because it is only an idea, time is the illusion, because we make it that way.

how we generate our own egos

How the brain generates private thoughts:

Neuropsychology is especially good at looking at how differences in brain function relate to objectively observable behaviour. Private thoughts are quite hard to study in this way, because they are essentially subjective.

Sometimes, of course, we make our private thoughts 'public' by talking to ourselves, and, it seems, this is something we learn to do during childhood.

Infants seem unable to 'think to themselves' and instead 'talk to themselves' when solving problems, usually vocalising the most tricky or novel aspects of the situation. As we grow, we develop the ability to internalise this speech, and can eventually have a purely internal monologue.

Understanding inner speech is also important because it becomes distorted in psychotic disorders such as schizophrenia.

People with psychosis can experience effects like 'thought insertion', where they experience external thoughts being inserted into their stream of consciousness, or 'thought withdrawal', where thoughts seem to be removed from the mind.

This suggests that there must be something that the brain uses to identify thoughts as self-generated, and that this perhaps breaks down in psychosis, so we can have the uncanny experience of having thoughts that don't seem to be our own.

Why we would need this is an interesting question, as surely all thoughts would be our own.

However, the Spanish Journal of Psychology article notes that inner speech often activates areas of the brain also used for 'outloud speech', suggesting that it may be a sort of internal action.

Being able to distinguish bodily movements caused by something external (someone moving your arm) and movements caused by our own will is very important, and, perhaps, this is the sort of mechanism that becomes disturbed for what were originally movements, but have become internalised as we 'think to ourselves'.

The mindless consciouness

were do we begin?.....where do we end? for that matter what do we want? Something
willfully shiny to catch the attention. The unimaginable untangeble subatomic realm
that is our conscious. Theta waves and lingering memories that flow endlessly
between our active minds and sub-conscious. We all know we have our thoughts and
realisms. We all draw our own outline to the box that is our paradigm, and because we
do this we live as separate inenties. With our singled out personalities we make our
own worlds, inside and out. We shape what we are and what we choose to live through.
We will drift endlessly in this existance, but to what avail? Is there a point? Or
are we just entertainment for the ultimate being? The mind, the consciousness, the things that we are, are possibly the most complicated things on the planet. That might be labled as an arrogant statement but the acheivements of the mind are something that is tune to the purpose of exsistance. Like the edges of a painting that has yet to be finished, singularic existance is something that merges with the next existance to form a solid image, a conflict of wavelengths and sub atomic particles. Or, is it something completly different? Are
we really made up of particles, or is that just something we can force to percieve
we exist from? What if partilces are just the paint of reality. The individual
pixels of existance's holograpic shape. The shape of god. The mind of purpose, the
purpose of the mind. Idea's we shape have limitless points of refference for the
archetecture of our creations. Point to point existance, an existance of "what
happens next?", our underlyning method to life. Sub-conscious construction and
recording is always underway, never ending replica frames of existance. Memories,
or what we think to be memories. There is never any current points of existance,
becuase by the time you actually think about the current time it has already become
just a memory. The scale of time is so small, yes it's infinite, but infinitly
complex and barely observable. (more to come....)

summed up universe

Quantum fluctuation. Inflation. Expansion. Strong nuclear interaction. Particle-antiparticle annihilation. Deuterium and helium production. Density perturbations. Recombination. Blackbody radiation. Local contraction. Cluster formation. Reionization? Violent relaxation. Virialization. Biased galaxy formation? Turbulent fragmentation. Contraction. Ionization. Compression. Opaque hydrogen. Massive star formation. Deuterium ignition. Hydrogen fusion. Hydrogen depletion. Core contraction. Envelope expansion. Helium fusion. Carbon, oxygen, and silicon fusion. Iron production. Implosion. Supernova explosion. Metals injection. Star formation. Supernova explosions. Star formation. Condensation. Planetesimal accretion. Planetary differentiation. Crust solidification. Volatile gas expulsion. Water condensation. Water dissociation. Ozone production. Ultraviolet absorption. Photosynthetic unicellular organisms. Oxidation. Mutation. Natural selection and evolution. Respiration. Cell differentiation. Sexual reproduction. Fossilization. Land exploration. Dinosaur extinction. Mammal expansion. Glaciation. H@$z sapiens manifestation. Animal domestication. Food surplus production. Civilization! Innovation. Exploration. Religion. Warring nations. Empire creation and destruction. Exploration. Colonization. Taxation without representation. Revolution. Constitution. Election. Expansion. Industrialization. Rebellion. Emancipation Proclamation. Invention. Mass production. Urbanization. Immigration. World conflagration. League of Nations. Suffrage extension. Depression. World conflagration. Fission explosions. United Nations. Space exploration. Assassinations. Lunar excursions. Resignation. Computerization. World Trade Organization. Terrorism. Internet expansion. Reunification. Dissolution. World-Wide Web creation. Composition. Extrapolation?