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A few of my poems..

Withering thoughts.
Thoughts are flowing through my mind Confusion and repeated days are spent thinking of what has been left behind. I'm sure I tended and planted these flowers yesterday. Confusion overwhelming me with dismay. Watering and tending again to give a new lease of life. I request the loving help of my wife. She doesn't seem to be around and I wonder why. Then I smell the familiar baking of a homely apple pie. My loved one keeping me warm inside. Something I have never been able to hide. What was I doing before I thought about my wife!! I can't remember the details of my life. I enter a lonely and unfamiliar quiet house. This isn't where we were before. Why isn't my wife by the door. I see an old lady I barely recognise on a dusty mantelpiece. She looks familiar but I cannot recall her name. I try to think, but my attempts are in vane. Reflections come flooding back into my life. This lady is obviously to old to be my wife. As I gather my lasting thoughts and stroll off to my bed. Limited memories flowing hazily through my head. My wife will soon be here to keep me warm and content. As I dream about the wonderful past times we lovingly spent.

My new home
I am so confused wondering what I have done. I am whisked away from my home for what seems like a thousand miles. They are so nice to me and I wonder why. Emotions are running high and I see a sense of guilty sorrow in their eyes. As we reach our destination in beautiful gardens filled with people having cups of tea. Staff in funny clothes ask me how I am and call me by name. Asking me if I would like to have some fun. How is this possible How do my family know them and I don't. They look at me with false smiles and patronising reassurance. My family observing the scene of discovery. Trying to show an interest for my benefit. An unfamiliar room we enter is deliberately filled with familiar objects. Smells of home entering my memory. I know deep inside that this is my new home and my family will soon be gone.

Final reflection
As my family gather around me I feel their whispers of insecurity Thoughts of past events racing through my head. As I lay here dying on my bed Drifting in and out of disturbed sleep I hear the sounds of my wife weep Telling stories of my life events and past My childhood memories drifting so fast. Of happy long summers and never ending winters. My life breaking up into tiny little splinters Talks of greed and if I made a will. The only thoughts are the pockets they can fill Heated conversation and unsettled voices I am forgotten about while they make their own choices Someone shouts out where are his deeds My thoughts and sounds now coming in short feeds. My breathing now slow as I drift into eternal sleep Family still talking of what they will reap As I awake into a glorified light Away and at peace from all of the fight To an eternal life away from corruption and greed My pain and suffering now finally freed

Confused love
My heart is bleeding My soul is pleading For the love that I once knew. My mind is wondering My thoughts are crumbling Remembering how we grew and grew My love for you will not go My spirit feels so low I try to remember the good But I will never have understood How this ended so quickly I was out of your life so briskly I just thought we would never part and now I have a broken heart Please remember me Never stop believing in me You may never see How much you mean to me. I want to call your name My life will never be the same Without you by my side.