This is my every day what do i do? SOS

lilAdorabubble
lilAdorabubble: I am not begging but for the sake of my existence if you know how to help please ive no more options. Everything im about to lay down is ny truth the last four years since my episode and institutionalisation one symptom was i can not lie. Ok so troubled upbringing would have been welcomed but to my life i was thrown in at 3 years old and swim i had to.Ive since had some severe mental health disabilities and hardly left this very corner of my bed im now reaching out from. My mother and i have not been able see eye to eye ever. Im MtF transgender women pre op. I have a 3 digit IQ and idelic memory from 8 months until 23 may 2018, the admission after 14 months awake from the trauma that got me well broken. Isolated for a year and a half my mother drove me to my fourth attempt at rest institutionalised again almost but a pastor and wife rescued me from here and took me too a shelter for homeless where my inly friend lived, we met on suicide watch may 18. I felt hope until the abuse started and they in short attempted to declare ne an invilant to take control of my grant money. And then threatened all people there that talking to me would mean removed from shelter.


Eventually get removed because of my psychosis but only two people who stood up for the way they treated me were sent to street
Again shortened shelter lied to mom she then tried to get rid of me also so i kicked back took in two friends and now live without power or water and sold everything i ever owned to survive last 8 months. I cant anymore i need help and no government or community service has helped only acknowledges my struggle. My grant is 115 dollars a month and its almost pointless. Where do i turn i cant keep up anymore and .... Help im done ask me anything ill explain more i just feel so dead what do i do?
11 months ago Report
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dlsmith19666
dlsmith19666: Get a 🐕
10 months ago Report
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lilAdorabubble
lilAdorabubble: Lol wish I could afford a pet but yeah xxx
10 months ago Report
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craig_rodgers_09
craig_rodgers_09: Life is shit I feel it everyday I Crack on as hard as it is nothing much will change just have a few trustworthy people around you as rare as they are
27 days ago Report
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lilAdorabubble
lilAdorabubble: im a shit judge chharactar they all lol robbed me its fine my every day is my next meal and ill fight for it but i do it for me only no one needs my shit so alone less hassle i wont fuc me over lol or wait
22 days ago Report
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craig_rodgers_09
craig_rodgers_09: Well said gotta have one eye in the back of your head. Everyone will always look out for themselves
20 days ago Report
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lilAdorabubble
lilAdorabubble: i find our lack of compassion un nerving
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20 days ago Report
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craig_rodgers_09
craig_rodgers_09: As shite as it is nature
18 days ago Report
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