When you hit rock bottom, what do you do? (Page 3) ouweknar75: Whenever people think I have hit rockbottom I surprise them, mainly by my ability to tunnel in.  brokedown00: I'm getting close to hitting rock bottom for the hundredth time in my life. I can see my life spiralling out of control but it's like I'm powerless to stop the damage or there's a piece of me that wants me to fail so I don't know how bad it's gonna be yet but I imagine it's not gonna be pretty. I'm used to it now. I'm used to giving up hope which happened long ago. I can't stop myself from self sabotaging and I'm on my way to probably becoming suicidal because there really is no other way or so it feels like. Where I am in life and where I want to be in life is just so far away. I don't know how to treat myself with kindness and compassion and I just always revert back to self hatred. I feel so far away from what society deems acceptable. I was born in the wrong century. I wish I didn't live in this time in history. That's gonna be the worst we've ever experienced. Turned into slaves by our own leaders. Everything that the nasty conspiracy theorists said would happen, is happening and we are on our way to becoming a Communist world. A one world government will make our laws. We'll all be living in poverty and that's a fact. It's all happening because the human race is so fucken dumb that they believe everything that they here in the mainstream media like it's the gospel. People live their lives just to have lots of money, a big house, 2 cars and all the best furniture and electronics. That to them is winning in life. They don't realise that it can all be taken away in a heartbeat. Then they've got nothing and people who are materialistic can't live with that because they're so far seperated from the universe and how we're supposed to live out lives. I have absolutely nothing. I'm addicted to drugs, I have no money. I'm living in crisis accommodation and I have a very complex mental illness. Like I'm not kicking any goals in life but neither is anyone else. Covid opened up my eyes to the true human condition. Human beings are by far the worst most disgusting creatures that have ever walked in the universe. People are so dumb and blind and in total denial and they've made the choice to follow the media and the government which is a death sentence for many of us. I blame you all for what you've allowed to happen. Whilst the chaos of COVID was playing out, your government in every western country was setting up the collapse of our healthcare system and our economy to crash. So many new life altering laws were pushed through the senate that takes away any rights you once had. No more freedom of speech and no more constitutional rights | Self-Improvement Chat Room Similar Conversations |
