Loser Mint Chip: If you can, please don't read this. Being a loser: It's not the fact that I'm here. It's not the fact that I wait for people who I know aren't going to talk to me. It's not even my appearance or low self esteem. I'm a loser because I'm aware of it; I know i'm a loser, and i know the dumb things i do, but i don't do anything about it. I guess maybe in a weird way i like being a loser. I like being in the shadows. it's quiet and secluded. I'm alone, and when I'm alone I can be myself. I even wrote this here because I figured no one will see it, and I didnt want my contacts here to read it on their feed. Why do I let myself believe the same dumb lies everytime? I mean that whole "fool me once" notion doesn't work with me, im just plain foolish. maybe i'm such an attention whore i don't sever ties with people because i want to have someone to talk to, even if they dont wanna be around me. why am i so awkward? probably because i assume people don't want me around so i try to find something else to focus on so i'm not crushed by inevitable rejection (if it's inevitable then i shouldn't be crushed, but i am because i'm a loser). when will i grow up and stop being so afraid? Probably never. that's who i am. afraid. anyway i wrote this because it was on my mind and i needed to get it off my chest. Please know that i dont mean to attract pity or sympathy, i specifically wrote this because i didnt want to dump my feelings on others and i placed it in the most obscure hidden part of wire. (Last post here was 2 months ago, i figured no one cares about politics so this would be perfect). I'm sorry i wrote this, but i feel a little bit better now than a few minutes ago. so...thanks.  Aura:  Having gone through it myself and now as a mother of a 16 year old daughter, it sounds very familiar. Hang in there girl, it does get better. Do not listen to the people who will try to tell you these should be the best years of your life, they have mostly forgotten how hard it is. One thing though, It will show you started a forum conversation in the feed of your wire friends, so if you really want to hide this, you might want to delete that notification (you will have to go to your profile page to see it: click on your name at the top of this window, then click profile) Good luck.  demented diode: hey hey thats cool get it off ur chest its good for you, I often think of myself as a loser, not finishing school no trade dead end jobs cant spell , not the sharpest tool in the shed, So do other ppl I know, but there just naturally smarter than me, I don't care any more I know who I am so like it or leave it I say. Hey and don't think ppl don't want u around, Its prob not true ppl can be cruel that's all, It will get better trust ne | Politics Chat Room 29 People Chatting Similar Conversations |