People who write all kinds of poems come on in
daisiesnfld: Oh phooey louie! I missed being in the room with actual poets! Can't someone please let me know when you're there? Please? Thanks a heap!
daisiesnfld: Actually xsnow, your poem was quiet good....you should keep writing..and writing...and read my poetry on the Forum under poems. Hope to catch you in poetry chat soon!
xsnow_flakesx: Aww thank you so much that means a lot to me and yes of course Ill check it out and their is a poems room? I had no idea Ill look for it c:
How can I explain to you these feelings that I feel, show you the misery the heartache and the pain that will never heal, I live my life broken filled with hatred and regret, for as long as I'm survived I' could never repay this debt, but when you look at me you would never be able to tell, Inside I'm shattered and mentally Not well, but I laugh I smile I put on a show, the emptiness and anger Inside ha you would never know, i have trust issues I have problems that will never go away, to pretend to be happy fuck yo I got this cause that shits everyday, I’m a loner but that's how I preferred it to be, rather be alone by myself then getting doublecrossed by everybody that i see, I try to do all good but it always seems to end so badly, to want something so bad but never able to do it right, sometimes I wonder give up the struggle or continue the fight,, a mistake a failure and even a let down, picture myself a bigger joke then bozo the clown, ooops I meant Pennywise so go ahead and laugh at me now, hanging out in the street drain I'll for sure drag you down ha I’m just fuckin with you tho, so don't get it mixed, I'm more relaxed then ad
Pit who just got fixed, but seriously tho inside I’m already dead, got all these wild and twisted thoughts running through my head, the voices I hear the faces I see, is this a nightmare or just my own reality, each day passes by all of the same, as I sit in this corner just trying to maintain, where is everybody where did they all go, in the times I needed you the most you never did show, it’s cool tho yeca I got used to it, my drama my problems and all my bullshit, no worries you won’t see me throw a fit, sit back and watch me handle my own shit, cause I’m tired of the fake ass people telling me fake ass lies, wanting to be with you, yet hanging out and talking to all these other guys, so tell me what’s the truth girl do I look like a fool, if you wanna play that game then hey that’s cool, just be ready and prepared cause I’m about to take you to school, cause I’m not the little monopoly guy with the black top hat, play me like a game acting like you got that, HA now you got me laughing thanks I’m feeling much better now, yet for some reason my mind is filled with the darkest pleasures of hell, nobody could envision the stories that I could tell, if I had to I don’t even know where I would start, probably at the beginning, when I gave this girl my heart, or was it before that when I feel in love with a lie? Showered with the attention of mental and physical abuse, I tried my hardest just to make a truce, maybe that’s the time when I decided to keep the visions of life hidden deep inside my head, maybe that was the time my reality of life was surely dead, but I kept it to myself for surely it was for the best, that's when I realized nightmares would go away when I laid down to rest, lay there alone in my bed, yet the punishment still pounding my head, I can’t open my mind for somebody to truly see, every day is a struggle but yet I make it look so damn easy, I’m a tad bit crazy but a little more insane, got the shit so thick as it runs through my vein, no words in the dictionary can even begin to explain, hitting like a pro there's never no pain,and then there's you who I can't seem to forget, always on my mind it seems to legit, trying to read your mind figure out your thoughts, doing by best to keep up with all these shots, trying to hard to keep your smile from showing, it's not only that but your personality and your laugh that really gets me going, who needs drugs when I can catch a high from just being with you, the thoughts of a future could this be true, its been a long time since I've felt happiness throughout my day, waking up next to you is there any other way, the way your eyes light up when I see you staring at me, is what I see nothing but a fiction or is it really?!.....TBC
daisiesnfld: Very good write Smash, I'll be following you now. You can read my poetry in the Forum too (novice that I am), have a great poetic week!
thesmash13: It's another sleepless night as I lay here awake, tossing and turning giving myself a headache. my lungs feel weak as i gasp for air, my reality has became a living nightmare, the reality of your never going to be there. My heart burning with so much rage and desire, yet the tears rolling down my face is calling me a liar, My strengths my hope and the feelings of magic I felt from deep within, vanished, gone, dismantled, quicker then it took to begin. I prepare myself each day with a mask of happiness forced on by a smile, but seriously who am I fooling, that don't even last awhile. Don't tell me your sorry or that it's going to be okay, my insecurities are my problems and that's what gets me thrown away. I'm tired of hurting and I'm sick of all the pain, how much more must I have to lose before its my time to gain. I'm scared of my own happiness it's the greatest fear of mine, I went so long without it I got used to saying I'm fine. I used to think I was happy and my level joy and content was true, I paid no attention to my ways until the day I found you. You changed my outlook and mindset, you introduce me to myself as a person I've never met. the desire to change and be better overall, but im never on top I anyways seem to fall. As each day goes by my love and desire for you will only grow stronger, I need you in my life I can't take it much longer, I definitely don't deserve it but I'm praying hard every night, for one last chance to kiss you on the lips and tell you good night. But no matter how much I do how hard I try, It's become more true to me that I'm not that guy, why God why! You did nothing but show me your love and support, and to show you just how much that really meant to me I truly fell short! Your gods personal angel sent down from above, when I needed a little push in the right direction you were there with a shove! I don't know why but I have a problem that is clear, but when God gave me you he showed me there was a cure, I've always been alone and so I always seek attention, it's my biggest flaw that I hate to mention, I can only dream about how to direct that only in your direction, I've always lived in 2 world's the reality of things and the stories created by me, I always lose what means the most by living in a world of fantasy... It's not you it is me for I could never be so worthy. Maybe one day when the pigs fly high, I'll hold you close and I'll show see my love for you will never die! Pinky to pinky flesh to flesh as long as I'm breathing my love for you will stay fresh!