Gift To Child

tularcitas: A few days ago I read a post directed towards me and I selfishly, indulgently allowed it to make me literally sick...requiring a trip to emergency. The upshot is that it is a result of my not forgiving myself. When my ex left me, I blamed myself for the whole mess, that it was because I was lacking, not good enough. I was in a very vulnerable state, needing "outside" sources telling me I was still desirable, wanted. My interactions with people was based on this...some people took advantage of my vulnerability and I used others. I remarried, became pregnant but still often operated from a point of not forgiving myself...which sadly ended up hurting others.
I was so selfish I was not even considering what I was doing to my baby. My stress and angst certainly being felt by him. I have finally realized my greatest gift to my child is in having a healthy Mom. I have now forgiven myself..... for all the hurt I have caused others...and for the hurt I have created in me.
Moms to be, and Moms, I feel that we must learn to forgive ourselves as a gift to our children.

tularcitas: Have any of you ever experienced Braxton Hicks making you ill from an emotional trigger?