awilderness.., sensus fail: music, movies, utube video's anything really, and a place to chat or the like's of which  Painted_Turtle_1970: Don't Follow Alice In Chains Hey, I ain't never coming home Hey, I'll just wander my own road Hey, I can't meet you here tomorrow No, say goodbye don't follow Misery so hollow Hey you, you're livin' life full throttle Hey you, pass me down that bottle, yeah Hey you, you can't shake me round now I get so lost and don't know how And it hurts to care, so I won't now Forgot my woman, lost my friends Things I'd done and where I've been Sleep in sweat the mirrors cold See my face it's growin' old Scared to death no reason why Do whatever to get me by Think about the things I've said Read the page it's cold and dead Take me home Yeah, take me home Take me home Take me home, yeah Take me home Say goodbye, don't follow Painted_Turtle_1970: This post is dedicated to a very special friend of mine. Thank you for your service. I love you Bear!!!!! A Soldier's Memoir Mitch Rossell Been home about six months now But I still have my doubts Well I'm not sure how I got here Or how I'm gonna get out My mama says I look the same As I did before I left But if she could see inside of me It would scare her to death I can still taste the powder From the barrel of my gun I can hear my sergeant screaming "Run, soldier, run" I can feel the backpack on my shoulders God it weighed a ton And I see death in every single thought They taught me how to put that uniform on I just can't get it off Last Saturday they honored us In a small parade downtown And when they shot off those fireworks I nearly hit the ground And while they smiled and cheered for us All I could do was stare Cause part of me is here at home And part of me is back there I can still taste the powder From the barrel of my gun I can hear my sergeant screaming "Run, soldier, run" I can feel the backpack on my shoulders God it weighed a ton And I see death in every single thought They taught me how to put that uniform on I just can't get it off Yeah there's no end in sight ‘Cause even though I'm home now I'm still fighting for my life I can still taste the powder From the barrel of my gun I can hear my sergeant screaming "Run, soldier, run" I can feel the backpack on my shoulders God it weighed a ton And I see death in every single thought They taught me how to put that uniform on I just can't get it off Painted_Turtle_1970: The Wrong Direction Passenger When I was a kid the things I did were hidden under the grid Young and naive I never believed that love could be so well hid dWith regret I'm willing to bet and say the older you get It gets harder to forgive and harder to forget It gets under your shirt like a dagger at work The first cut is the deepest but the rest still flipping hurt You build your heart of plastic Get cynical and sarcastic And end up in the corner on your own 'Cause I'd love to feel love but I can't stand the rejection I hide behind my jokes as a form of protection I thought I was close but under further inspection It seems I've been running in the wrong direction oh no So what's the point in getting your hopes up When all you're ever getting is choked up When you're coked up And can't remember the reason why you broke up You call her in the morning When you're coming down and falling like an old man on the side of the road 'Cause when you're apart you don't want to mingle When you're together you want to be single Ever the chase to taste the kiss of bliss That made your heart tingle How much greener the grass is With those rose tinted glasses But the butterflies they flutter by and leave us on our arses 'Cause I'd love to feel love but I can't stand the rejection I hide behind my jokes as a form of protection I thought I was close but under further inspection It seems I've been running in the wrong direction There's fish in the sea for me to make a selection I'd jump in if it wasn't for my ear infection Cause all I want to do is try to make a connection It seems I've been running in the wrong direction oh oh Oh I'd love to feel love but I can't stand the rejection I hide behind my jokes as a form of protection I thought I was close but under further inspection It seems I've been running in the wrong direction I'd love to feel love but I can't stand the rejection I hide behind my jokes as a form of protection I thought I was close but under further inspection It seems I've been running in the wrong direction oh It seems like I'm running in the wrong direction oh Seems like I'm running in the wrong direction oh Well it seems I've been running in the wrong direction oh no Seems I've been running in the wrong direction Painted_Turtle_1970: SILENCE by LittleBearCub Silence, dense and heavy. A stone slipping through the murky water of my mind. Laughter and tears, a thousand conversations. I hear them now. Your voice, a whisper. Your silence, concern. Thoughtful reflection. Memories and nothing more. Reaching now through the darkness. Searching. Grasping for words unheard, thoughts unsaid, that one exchange to give me peace, but..... SILENCE. Painted_Turtle_1970: The above poem was written about this. Lou told me 2 days earlier that he wanted to commit suicide. I never thought he would take Luke with him. I should have done something. Louis, 5, went by the nickname Luke. He was last seen alive when his father, Louis Dee Peyton., picked him up from school in North Little Rock, Arkansas on January 16, 2002. The two of them vanished afterwards. Louis was divorced from Luke's mother, and Luke normally lived with his father and grandfather in Maumelle, Arkansas. His and Louis's disppearances seemed at first like a custodial dispute, but investigators were concerned for the child's safety because Louis was a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic who had been convicted of killing a friend in 1989; he served ten years for the crime. A gun was also missing from the Peyton home. Police were right to worry. Over a week after Luke and Louis disappeared, their bodies were found inside Louis's truck which was parked near Lake Sylvia in eastern Perry County, Arkansas. Luke had been shot multiple times and Louis had been shot once in the head. Empty liquor bottles were scattered on the floor of the truck. Investigators determined that Louis had murdered his son before turning the gun on himself. Luke was a student at Crystal Hill Elementary School at the time of his murder. All bio information and photo's are from the website Children Who Never Made It Home LITTLE ROCK, Ark. (AP) _ Police and relatives searched Monday for a convicted killer diagnosed with schizophrenia and his 5-year-old son. Police said Monday they have few leads on the whereabouts of Louis Peyton Sr., 35, of Maumelle and his son, Louis Peyton Jr., who goes by Luke. Maumelle Police Chief Sam Williams said the father apparently picked up the boy from school Wednesday afternoon and neither has been seen since. The boy’s mother, Amber Roach of Ozark, has not lived with him and his father for the last few years. The boy and his father live with Fred Peyton, the boy’s grandfather and Louis Peyton Sr.’s father. Fred Peyton said Monday he was afraid his son’s medication was no longer working because a doctor told him it wears off after two days. He said his son has never before left without an explanation. In 1989, Louis Peyton was convicted of first-degree murder in the death of a friend. He served two years of a 10-year sentence before he was paroled to a mental health facility. Psychiatric evaluations after the killing led to his diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia. ``Lou has paid the price for his problems in the past,″ Fred Peyton told the Arkansas Democrat-Gazette. ``He has to live with it. He still can’t talk about it.″ Painted_Turtle_1970: Seasons in the Sun Terry Jacks Goodbye to you my trusted friend We've known each other since we were nine or ten Together we've climbed hills and trees Learned of love and ABC's Skinned our hearts and skinned our knees Goodbye my friend it's hard to die When all the birds are singing in the sky Now that spring is in the air Pretty girls are everywhere Think of me and I'll be there We had joy, we had fun We had seasons in the sun But the hills that we climbed Were just seasons out of time Goodbye Papa please pray for me I was the black sheep of the family You tried to teach me right from wrong Too much wine and too much song Wonder how I got along Goodbye Papa it's hard to die When all the birds are singing in the sky Now that the spring is in the air Little children everywhere When you see them, I'll be there We had joy, we had fun We had seasons in the sun But the wine and the song Like the seasons have all gone We had joy, we had fun We had seasons in the sun But the wine and the song Like the seasons have all gone Goodbye Michelle my little one You gave me love and helped me find the sun And every time that I was down You would always come around And get my feet back on the ground Goodbye Michelle it's hard to die When all the birds are singing in the sky Now that the spring is in the air With the flowers everywhere I wish that we could both be there Painted_Turtle_1970: Can't Smile Without You Barry Manilow You know I can't smile without you I can't smile without you I can't laugh and I can't sing I'm finding it hard to do anything You see I feel sad when you're sad I feel glad when you're glad If you only knew what I'm going through I just can't smile without you You came along just like a song And brighten my day Who would have believed that you where part of a dream Now it all seems light years away And now you know I can't smile without you I can't smile without you I can't laugh and I can't sing I'm finding it hard to do anything You see I feel sad when your sad I feel glad when you're glad If you only knew what I'm going through I just can't smile Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me And you see I can't smile without you I can't smile without you I can't laugh and I can't sing I'm finding it hard to do anything You see I feel glad when you're glad I feel sad when you're sad If you only knew what I'm going through I just can't smile without you | Off Topic Chat Room Similar Conversations |