some more pomes about abuse Lil_Sis84: Lonely in Her Heart There lies a girl, I once knew, Never smiled once, She was always blue. We played some games, She laughed until she cried, But the sadness never left her eyes Until the day she died. She would lie in her bed With tears in her eyes, Never thinking we all loved her, He filled her head with lies. She ran to the bathroom, Took every pill in there. She took a blade to her wrists, Never knowing we would care. She looked peaceful For the first time in her life. We loved her so, but she Was an abusive man's girl. Now she's gone, in heaven, But we still cry. Because of that a&^~@^@, An angel had to die.  Lil_Sis84: Bloody sheet and Red Tears i lay here in thes bloody sheets, its my blood and my tears of red, you did this cant you see? Do you see me laying in our, bed in bloody sheets and red tears? Is this what i have to live for, bloody sheets and red tears, a broken heart and a broken, bones? i cant live in my own blood, you are killing me, killing me slowly and with out a care. How could you f*y$~& do this? bloody sheets and red tears, a broken heart and broken bones, this is all i have of me and you. bloody sheets and red tears, a life of liveing and burning in your hell, bruning in your hell, layin in my own blood, bloody sheets and red tears is all that is left.  Liz: sis both of thes are so sad but yet so true. some day soon u will be free off all your pain and surffering. thats all wemen like us can hope dream wish and pray for. so you stay strong sis we all know u are strong as hell. we all know if any one can make it threw this that is you. if you dont do it for your self do it for them baby girls of yours. even tho your heart is brakeing and at times you feel like there is nothing else to live for rember you do have your kids and alot of people that love and care for you very much. even if they dont say hey i love ya sis that dont mean they dont love you it just so hard for them to say i love you. well sis u know you are loved you have to know that. i love you sis stay starong.  s Lil_Sis84: iam hangin in there like you siad iam strong. i all ways come out standing in the end. i just hope that i can stay strong longer because at times i want to give up. i want to stay in bed all day. hafe the time its because iam to sore to move. girl i know people love aand care for me. frist and fro most i know my kids are some of them people. every one that loves and cares for me i love and care for them too and i hope that they know that. even tho things are not rite in my life and iam being abused i still have love in my heart.  athenamaria: LIL SIS, I WOULD LIKE TO BE YOUR FRIEND I BELONG TO THE SAME CLUB 'STOP ABUSE TORDS WOMEN'; HAVE BEEN THERE.--ATHENAMARIA maggie60: Your poems are beautiful,I know how you feel.I've finally got out and divorced my abuser of 34 years.He not only left me with scares on my heart and mind,but he also taught 2 of my 3 sons to become abusers.I struggle everyday to tamp out the pain in my heart and mind,but I can't comtrol the nightmares.Daisy Lil_Sis84: i cant wait for the day i get out. i just hope its not in a body bag. i have ran and he has found me i dont know how many times i have lost count. iam ready to give up and say the hell with it and give in and let him kill me Lil_Sis84: thnak you both for suporting this. and if u both want to add me u can. it sucks 34 years is such a long time. i dont think iam going to make it at all some days. then there are days i dont want to make it but keep fighting for the kids. that is the only reason i have made it as far as i have. my kids keep me going. if it wasnt for them i dont think i would be alive or even want to be at this point. Desert Angel: I am only 21 years old but lucky I got away from the man that was abusing me. He thought that he owned the world and when I left him he told me he was going to kill me. But thanks to some family I got out safe and sound. Lil_Sis84: iam gald you got family to go to. some people dont have family to run to so you are very lucky. i couldnt run to my family even if i wanted to because they would call no sooner then i walked threw there door. thats how my famly works i guess. iam just gald that you got out befor it was to late because some dont ever get out because they are scared and dont know what to do or what way to trun. then they start thinking about the kids and just let it keep happing so that the kids got a roof over their heads and food in their tummys. so we stay and we take it until they kill up. or we just give in and do what ever it is they want to stop it. then one day we wake up and relize nno matter what we do its not going to stop. then the only thing left is the hope that you live one more day to see your kids smile one more day befor he kills you. or you get to hear you kids say i love you mommy the next day. what to do with all them things runing threw your head? 2crazee4u: i woke up in ur arms 2day but instead of warm and safe i was scared and alone. i walked the halls of my happy past and smashed all the pictures on the wall. the lies you made me believe are too sad to recall. the girl i was is dead and gone u took her from me.now im caged and sad wanting to be free. i tried to walk away 2day but my legs wouldnt move,you stood there at the door arms open wide.i thought u were going to hold me tight,but it was only another fight. i woke up in ur arms 2day cold and alone the paramedics came but i was already gone!!! Desert Angel: Lil_Juggalette84, I didnt have kids when I was with the idiot. But I have one now. It takes some strength to get away. And I would imagine that the kids would give you that strength. But then again I have been wrong before. Some people are just too scared to move on. Some people are scared that if they leave their abuser is going to come after them and their children so they think that its safer to stay. Again I didnt have kids at the time when this happened. But my father was an abuser. If it werent for my brother and me my mother would have stayed with him. She was with him for 15 yrs. 15 yrs of pure hell. But she FINALLY managed to get away from him. I now have a 3 yr old and he gives me strength for ANYTHING and EVERYTHING. I just think of him and I fight. But that's what alot a women forget to do because they are that scared. 2crazee4u: a lot of people know from experience a restraining order is a piece of paper poorly enforced by a weak legal system so i guess fear is a normak reaction but i do hope that this site gives people the strength to stand up and fight or walk away.for me it was like flipping a switch i couldnt let my unborn child be hurt so i stood up and faught.what this site does is help others to find a voice in a very dark hour!! Desert Angel: 2crazee4u, I totally agree! Maybe if some people see our stories it will help them with their own. And it will help them get out of the situation. Or maybe even give them the courage to stand up and get the help they need. Weather it be online... like a group of friends..... or a support system in their home town. Or both even. 2crazee4u: yep people dont always realize it may be that 1 word or that lil bit of advise that makes all the difference to a scared woman.its more than worth the time to write and we all need to stand up for one another!! |