Catchy Is Catchy (NoCatchyName) Offline

Attention whore?

Yea, that's me. I think I've mentioned it before hahaha. When it's as obvious as I make it, it doesn't really need to be mentioned though. So, why am I mentioning it again tonight? Well, I don't know, probably just for attention.

Everyone has a little attention whore hiding inside of themselves. Everyone wants to feel important. Everyone likes receiving positive attention. Some of us just grow into bigger whores for attention than others. Why? Who knows, physcobabble could say a lot of things. Maybe I wasn't hugged enough as a kid. Maybe it's because I had to fight with two older sisters for attention. Maybe it's because I had such a low self esteem for so long, I'm just over compensating for all the attention I missed out on because of it.*shrugs* The things we experience in life mould us into the people we are today.

At the same time, while I may be a big attention whore compared to some, I'm not as big as others. I mean, I only really love positive attention. I try to stray from putting myself in a situation where I would receive negative attention. So while, I may whore for attention by trying to be witty and funny, and hopefully succeeding more often than failing, who is the bigger whore, me or the troll?

If I really don't have anything to say, I don't say anything, where as the troll will bash anyone and everyone for any type of attention they can get. I may troll on some of my friends, but it's all in jest, and, usually consist of a running joke, or the beginning of one. Even at that, I usually know when to quit without going over the line, but we all get carried away sometimes.

I had a point when I began writing this, but seem to have lost it along the way. Well I haven't totally lost it, just diverted from where I thought I was trying to go. Usually when that happens, the reason I had started writing in the first place pretty much becomes null and void for the time being.

Basically, the long and the short of it is, I need to wrap my head around not being the center of attention all the time. Yea, I have a tendency to have mood swings depending on the attention I receive, but sometimes the attention I receive is derived from my mood. When feeling down it's hard to feel or even be entertaining, but not receiving attention when I'm feeling up and entertaining can sometimes bring me down.

Maybe all I really need is to sleep...or to start a fight club...*shrugs* hahaha

Stay Cheery my friends