kberry: I was thinking recently that being diagnosed with PTSD and getting help for the proper diagnosis has made more of a difference than I ever realized. The more I think back on it, the more I realized it's a big majority of what destroyed my marriage. I mean hell, if I married someone that would freak out and hide in the closet claiming I reminded him of his mother beating the shit outta him, I'd think I'd made a seriously bad decision. And that isn't even half of the crazy I went through. I'd panic and burst into tears at the drop of a hat. I was constantly misdiagnosed and medicated to the point where my poor bastard of an ex husband wasn't allowed to touch me for damn near a year. Even after my divorce, I had a hard time. I was always running from something. And when I wasn't running, I was hiding. There was a point where I wouldn't leave my house. Not to work, not to buy food, not for anything. I was going to die in that house. My sister figured it out and got me the help I needed... and thus started me on the path to healthiness. And today, almost two years later, I'm well on my way to living a normal, healthy, productive life.
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Magnum Innominandum: I can identify with your trust problem. It's the same for me. Having schizophrenia and getting betrayed by a spouse and family, it took its toll on me. I admire you and others that can travel that road alone and get results. Support groups at clinics are ok, but it's really too structured and not free-flowing enough, imo.
Continued success and blessings to you, K.
kberry: Lots of new news for those that care
I now have an adorable rescued kitty; his name is Barnaby. He and Diesel are best friends lol... they play, wrestle, and wreak havoc across my apartment.
I also have a new job... I work at a car repair center doing oil changes, tire installations, and minor maintenance.
AND I lost 20lbs WOOHOO!
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kberry: Ah gotcha. Life has been really good for me lately. Finances under control, some travel in there, new car, focusing on just being happy and living the dream. The day I can just decide to leave for the weekend to Italy will be the day I've made it.
kberry: Well, I seem to be doing ok. Keep getting sick, but I push through. I have my car back... For now... After three months lol. I'm headed to Vegas on Sunday for a national maintainers competition. I'm ranked number one in my school, which is pretty cool... I pretty much get treated like a rockstar. All in all, I'm fairly happy. I miss a lot of you a great deal. Message me anytime, I check them a few times a week.
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kberry in reply to finger5: That's precisely it. This is the second time I've had to go through composites for that very reason. The harsh chemicals are just not something my body can handle. I only have a few more days left and then it's on to powerplant.
finger5: you can manage a few more days, i know you can, when you qualify you can do other things that dont involve chemicals then your set.
from what iv seen you could be a pioneer in some form, the einstein of the aviation industry.
kberry: Asshats in poker. I hope they all lose. I don't know how to play, but would very much like to learn. No one is very kind these days.
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finger5: shame these people are only interested in money, we used to be able to get gold membership for credits, now we have to pay twice as much with real money to get half the membership, cretins that worship money and dont respect the people who make it a site, it wouldnt be a site without us.