Depression pritc058: So, I know I am depressed and I'm embarrassed to see a therapist or talk about it even to my family or friends. The embarrassment is part of my depression, which is why I'm posting anonymously about it. I am slacking at school and work, my social life is draining, I've driven my love out of my life and my negativity is taking a toll on my family. I'm not scared to die and I'd prefer it if I didn't care about the well-being of my family. These thoughts scare me and I need some serious advice from someone who's been where I am. I used to be the one who didn't believe in depression because my dad always said no matter how bad you got it, someone's got it worse. But I've reached near-bottom and I'm scared of myself sometimes. Please help.  harlett: Depression is a serious disease .... of body chemisrty deficiencies .... not just of emotions delusions . get yourself a bottle of vitamins and a extra bottle of vitamin c preferably 500mg of c ... and take them every day ... force yourself too sit in natural sun shine for at least fifteen minutes a day and seriously question yourself about your emotional doom and gloom .... your asumption that you'd not mind being dead makes no sense .. do the dead know nothing , you owe it too your own breath too live and over come what ever it is that ailing you ..... harlett: why would cheat the man you yet too become and expereince very intimately from his expereinces ....  AussieNerd: I agree you really need to talk to someone. It does not need to be family or professional help. It can be a friend [and preferably someone you are confident in talking to and you are honest with them]. You should also respect their opinion. But definitely talk over your problems. You really need to work out what is causing the depression. Job? Life? Love? etc. Then you change what is causing it. It also helps by having a good balanced diet high in fruit and vegetables, getting plenty of exercise (4-5 sessions per week including 2-3 sessions that are outside during daylight hours; a 30-60min walk counts as 1 session), getting a decent amount of sleep [6-8 hours per night] and limiting the intake of cigarettes and alcohol [and other drugs].  Laurraa: it is our body (mind, heart, stomach) telling us something is wrong and needs to be addressed and corrected. WilliamGolding: I went to a therapist once, but I didn't find him very helpfull at all.. when I was trying to tell him about my problem he would always try and go off about the little details that I was using to lead up to the main point, by the time my hour was up and we hadn't gotten anywhere, and I mean literally nowhere(!!!) I had already decided that going back would be a total waste of my time.(also if he does actually cure you he'll be out of a client) Two things you can do to improve your reality are listening to your inner voice and stopping when you find yourself thinking negative(or thank it for the input but firmly state that it's not what you need right now) and focus on your breathing, that will tell you lots about your current state.  shadowkittym3: I guess you've heard it all then..."things will get better", "other people have it worse", "get over it". Yeah I've heard those too. Trust me, its hard. My depression gets so bad, that sometimes I can't find a way out of my own head. Meds help, therapy does too, but only if you are really comfortable with your therapist. Still haven't found the right one for me. You just gotta hold on sometimes and places like this help.  eternal_peace: It always helps to speak to someone and usually a counsellor /therapist is the best. Also excerise helps...it helps the increase serotonin levels. As someone who has been there many times over the years, persevere. It does get easier to deal with. You learn the signs of an onset and you can prevent it. Good luck. thenuguy: Going through same thing. That line about others being worse off only makes me more ashamed of my depression. Often thought about ending it also but I am sure that if I learn to open up to people my life will be much happier. I am sure that people will be a lot kinder to you than you have been to yourself. I know that telling people will be really difficult but your family would much rather you told them you are depressed rather than finding out after your death. I am still trying to get strength to tell people about my depression but am quite sure suicide is not an option. The sooner you get help the better I am nearly 30 now and have become so isolated I have no friends no job and barely speak to my family. Depression makes life very lonely but it is treatable. Chrissy1970: I know the feeling. I have felt almost everything you said...Its worse when you have nobody to talk to and when you do finally open up to people, they think your a freak or something. I have thought about ending my life more than anyone knows or really even cares...its such a desperate feeling..that unless you have experienced it, you would not understand it. seasonswet: Exercise does help and diet but for severe depression meds combined with exercise and diet. To think of eating and exercising you need to be well first people with severe depression find personal hygiene a big deal leave alone caring about anything else and it's not easy because you cannot think rationally and it's the illness. As for serontonin some people have lost the vital piece (pituary gland) in their brain for this to happen so meds are urgently needed. (Post deleted by staff )  danieledanny: i feel it sometime i'm very blue,i can't stay with anyone i'm bored all my job my girl friend and i want just go away alone,sometime i know that my best days are gone and now life is a shit this is the true kama311: been living each breath as it could and more likely should be my last for a little over two weeks, i do see a therapist. the only advice i get is to think positive and talk to people. i'm on a computer typeing because i dont have people to call up or go see. i am distant and alone. feel as if i have already been put under the ground. what i do know is that this whole almost dead thing for me is nothing new and know the ins and outs. one bit of advice is once u feel any bit of sunlight run for it, if you see a hand grab it! once youve become irrelevant and distant their is no turning back. this i know.  Crystal_Benoit: I have Clinical Depression and mild anxiaty. I am disabled do to this and yes talking does help. I've seen 3 shrinks, been on 5 diffrent meds but my Dr. Is using me for a lab rat I think, cause all the meds dont do s**t. But I under stand you when you mention shutting everyone out including family. I've been there. I've had my mom and dad try and brake my door down and im talking big log, run and brake in. I went on a very depressed whole week of sitting in bed, not answering phone/door and i lost my job do to days like that. (job of 10yrs CS Tech in O.R.)I didnt eat, nothing but my own self and my own illness. I was a suicide person way way back in the day and I actually 9yrs ago, tryed to comit to the suicide useng different pills but with me and my mom. Things ended bad and my mom got stumick pumped and ate charcol. I wanted help and got it. We all need it! I still suffer and if you need to talk more plz add me and I can try and help but deffinatly will listen.  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