wow.

there has been so much going on that I dont even know where to begin. I guess I will start with my oldest. Her name is Danielle and she is absolutely a wonderful young woman. However......she has the will of a j******. She has never liked school. I remember puttting her on the bus the very first day of kindergarten and she said that she hated school. I asked her how she could hate school when she hasn't even gone yet. That was thirteen years ago and to this day....she hates school. She is really smart but doesn't like to apply herself. She is pursuing a music career. She has an incredible voice and currently Jive records is looking at signing her when she graduates in June. I am not sure how I feel about that. I don't want her to be like a Brittney Spears. She is having some difficulties with graduation and that is adding to the mix of anxiety that is building inside of me. She has a wonderful heart, is absolutely gorgeous, but she has much to learn. We'll see what happens.

I have begun working out more to relieve the stress and went to the Dr. to get on a low dose of xanax. It seems to be helping between the two. I'll write more later.