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Posted October 2 2008 11:10 AM        

For now you do see before you
thoughts for those from my past
this year alone i have written
my feelings for those that
once were cared for

for in the following
past thoughts
you will read
my inner most feelings

take them how you want
read them when you want
for they were from me to one

there have been others
i have written
some lost and some will be found
for my thoughts are mine

to give to who i want
so to those that
have read n will read
my past n present n future
thougths

take a minute to understand
that these were words
meant for one
but now are meant for all to see

so why hide a word
a thought
a meaning
a feeling

a simple written thought
is now open for all to see
so take it as you want
see what you want
feel from my thoughts
how you want to feel

this is just part of me
for those that have read me
think again
for how little do you really know me
for these thoughts were once private

now let all see and think
there is more to a person than looks
get to know and understand who you talk to you
for who knows there may be more to that one
so read on i do say

take how you want
look into it
read it
understand it
for each have their own opinion
so i say unto you
just read what i have put
understand if you can

take care


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Past thoughts 21/03/08

Posted October 2 2008 11:03 AM        

My love you mean so much to me
Each day comes and goes
I awake yearning to hear you voice
I call you, it rings
Do you answer it?

I wait and see
Let it ring till you pick it up
You answer it
My heart beats fast
Waiting to hear what you say

Your voice makes me smile
Listening to you makes me feel
Like I am waking up to you
Your there next to me,

Feeling you in my arms
As you awake
Seeing you beautiful smile
As you look up to see me
Staring back at you

Our eyes meet and the love
I see in them melts my heart
Your beauty radiates forth
The love I feel from you makes me
Feel so alive

Hearing your soft voice saying
How much you love me
Makes my day so good
Feeling your love in your voice

Hearing your words makes me smile
From my heart it ripples through me
Across my body I do feel
So intense a feeling never before felt



I melt on your every word
No matter what you say
Whether it be nice or bad
Moody or tired
Sad or happy

You mean so much to me
From afar I do adore you
Hoping that one day may be near

That I will be next to you
With you
Holding you
Feeling you
Smelling you

But most of all Loving you
For I am scared of that day
My nerves will make me shy
So when we meet there will be looks
As we are both nervous

But I do know
That when we touch
Our nerves will go
And the joy and happiness
We both make each other feel
Will flood through us

Our love will take over
Our hearts will beat for each other
Our eyes will meet
Our hands will clasp
Our lips will meet

The love we have for so long
Told each other we have
Will be felt through our bodies
Every part of us will tingle and explode
Within us such emotion will show



That we are both true to our words
Our hearts so beat as one
Our souls will unite

For I do feel
In every sense of the word
That we were brought together
When the time and place
Both in space and time
Was meant to be

That we are there for each other
When we both really needed the love
Of someone pure of heart
To touch us when we
Are both earthly searching
But unaware of it
That the true love we did seek
Was found

From within me I have felt such things
Never before did I think I could feel so
For as I have got to know you more
You’ve opened up my heart
Have made me feel pure and true love
In its purest of forms

The love of a woman
The creator of life
The giver of passion
Only a woman’s love has made me feel
So alive inside

For there has never before been someone
That has touched me so
In every sense of the word
For every part of my body
Heats up for you

As I am doing this now
I am shaking
My hands tremble
My heart beating faster
The love I feel for you
Makes me amazed at myself
That I had such an emotion within me
Deep that I have never seen before

That feeling your love for me
Has made me so humbled in life
For the love of my true love
Has made me complete

To me you are my life
The heavens and the earth are nothing
Compared to your beauty that you do shine
Over me the hold you have

In your hands you do hold,
my heart
In your words you do,
touch my very being
Your hands will touch my body
Your eyes will touch my soul
Your love
Well what can I say

Your love for me
Has shaken the very essence of who I am
For you do make me feel
So loved

For that love I can just
Say that I will forever be yours
My heart is yours
My blood is yours
My soul is yours

The day we meet I will be in heaven with my angel
For you are an angel sent for me
You have made me so humbled
Before the love you have
Everything about me
Just yearns to be with you

For I know not what you have done
But to me you are everything
My soul has become complete
I have found my soulmate

True Love
True soulmate

I can do nowt more than pray
That one day
You do me the honour
Before god
Of saying yes

But for now
You make me content in life
For I know my true love is found
Her words of love
Her laughter
Her soul

All these I have felt
For I do feel at times
Sense you
When I do I feel so amazed
That you are so wonderful
That you are mine

I feel like I can go on and on
For my heart has been talking
I want to cry for you
My heart yearns for you
My love for you just ready to explode
I so want to see you
Hold you
Kiss you
Feel you
Sleep with you in my arms

For I am in love with you
I Love you my Angel
xxxxxxx


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Past Thoughts 13/02/08

Posted October 2 2008 11:00 AM      Currently: Thoughts from my Heart  

Thoughts from my Heart

For as I do read your words
I am so shocked
For little did I realize how you feel
For in your words I do see
How you feel so much for me

As I read on I do feel so
For I learn more about you
As I learn more I do know
That I like you and look forward
To when you reply to my words

As I have read all your thoughts
I have not known what to reply
For in my life I have suffered
I have trusted my heart and it has been ripped from me
By women in the past

So I say sorry if I am careful
As I have feelings for you
I would like to take it slow
For even though you have stated your love

I look at your pictures and see
How beautiful and gorgeous you are
That your heart shines forth
Your beauty so deep
That you hold within

For within you I see my heart as you hold it so close
As I would love to hold you in my arms
For I will take you out and treat you as the lady that you are
So one day soon we will meet

Then let the stars open up and see the heavens
Then at that time let us share our love
For then we will both know
The way we feel for each other
Is so true that even time will not take it away from us

So for now my sweet Natasha
I will leave you with these thoughts of mine
So let me say that I want you
Let time make our love stronger


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Past Thoughts 11/02/08

Posted October 2 2008 10:58 AM      Currently: Sweet Dreams  

Sweet Dreams

I dream of you
Asleep with me
In my arms you are
Held close to me

By your side I do lie
Looking at your beauty
Feeling your soft skin
Hearing your gentle breathing

Knowing that you are mine
This and every night
We will be one
In bed together

In my dreams
You are for now
But soon enough
You will be for real

You in my life
In my arms
In my bed
All for real

No longer a dream
But still I will
Have sweet dreams of you
For you are
The only woman I love

So my love I do dream for now
But will soon sleep next to you


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Past Thoughs 21/01/08

Posted October 2 2008 10:57 AM        

S%*

When we meet we will kiss
Slow and sweet it will be
As we pull each other close together
To feel the warmth of our bodies

As our hands do touch each other
Caressing slowly from back to front
Moving downwards from head to bum
Feeling each others curves

As we continue to kiss
Our tongues do touch
My hands running down your back
Feeling your sweet arse

Your hands grabbing me tight
Pulling me close to you
So you can feel the bulge grow
Knowing what you are creating

My hands caressing your buttocks
Through your jeans
Feeling your tight curves
My fingers feeling your bare skin
As I feel your waist

I run my hand under your top
Running it up your back
Pulling you close to me
As I kiss you deep n passionate

Your hands now running around my waist
Feeling my growth as you tease me
You pull away n look into my eyes
As you say you want to feel my c^$~

I begin to kiss your neck slow n soft
Gently caressing my lips over it
From side to side I kiss n lick
Hearing your soft moans of delight

You take me by my hand
As we go upstairs
You lead me into your bedroom
Then push me on your bed

You then get on top and lie with me
Our bodies warm to the touch
My hand on your head as I kiss you slow
My other hand caressing your pert breasts

You undo my jeans
Your hand goes in
You feel my breath on your face
You hear me moan as you touch the tip of my c&#@

As your hand slides down it
Nice and slow
From tip to balls you do caress
Then squeeze nice n slow

As you do so I do lift your top
Revealing your sweet breasts
From under there bra they do peek
Inviting me to kiss

So as I undo your bra you do lift
To let me take your top off
And show your naked breasts

So I do kiss then begin to suck
Your sweet nipples
My tongue teasing them nice n slow
Then sucking deep n hard

Feeling your nipples grow on my tongue
As they become aroused
I hear you let out a little soft moan
As the pleasure you do feel

You grab me and pull me close
Your fingers holding me tight
Caressing me you do begin
To undress me
You lift up my top to show my chest
Your hands running through my hairs
You then tell me to lift up
Then you pull off my top

You have a look of delight in your eyes
As you stand next to me and touch
Nice n slow you kiss my chest
Moving teasingly downwards

As you get to my jeans
You do pull them down
My erection does show and stand
Ready for your pleasure

You take it in your hand
As you start to lick the tip
Easing it in your mouth
Nice n slow you do lick

Then I feel it slip in
So sweet n tight it does feel
I moan with passion
As you caress my balls

You push me back on to your bed
Then pull my jeans off
You sit below me and move upwards
Your soft hands touching my legs
Feeling my thighs

You run up to my groin
Then take my pulsating erection in your hands
You slowly start to massage
Deep long strokes
Down and up

You look at my face and see
The pleasure your giving me
As you then begin to suck
The very tip of my c%@^


Then ease it in bit by bit you feel it go
Nice n deep as you take it
I feel your mouth so warm n wet
Caressing every inch of my throbbing manhood

I lift up n pull you off
Pulling you up to me
I lie you down and undo your jeans
Taking them off with ease

As I see your thong I do think
F@*@ me!
But I pull it aside n see your desire
So pure and inviting

I kneel down before you
And begin to move in
Kissing your inner thighs
Slowly you feel my warm breathe

Gently pulsating over your showing p&%^@
Then the softest of touch
I hear you moan
As my tongue licks you so gently
From base your p#~^~ to your c~*~

I do feel your body quiver
As you feel the sensations of delight
I start to suck your c@#* nice and slow
My fingers rubbing your opening

Teasing you slowly I do ease open your p#^~#
Feeling your body as I pull you close
My tongue licking you
I take your arse n pull you close
As my tongue delves into your open p%&@#

You feel my tongue delve in
Slow it enters
Just softly teasing
Your hands grabbing the sheets
As you body convulses
You feel the warmth deep inside
You let out soft moans of pure delight
The passion I hear in your voice
As I then begin to lick deeper
As deep as I can I do feel
Nice slow then quick
I do hear you as
You moan

Then you grab my head
And do say
Oh im c^*~%$%

Then with pure passion I do start to lick
Harder n faster
Feeling your body jerk as you c~#
Your moans louder
You pushing yourself down on my face
Making me taste your juices
Gushing out of you

I then do begin to kiss your p&#^~
Moving upwards I do kiss
Your stomach
Then each breast nice an slow
Taking pleasure in feeling
your nipples on my tongue

Upwards I do move
your neck so softly I do touch
then kissing passionately your lips
your juices you do taste

your hands go touching
lower down they move
as you caress me
then you feel my throbbing erection
as you ease it over your p&$#^

the touch of my c#@& on your p~%^#
I see the look in your eyes
the sensation of ecstasy as you want to feel
me penetrate you

I rub my c@#^ over your p*&^%
Slowly easing it in
Nice n slow I begin to f@$% you
Just slowly pushing in
A bit at a time inch by inch

Your body being pleasured
Feeling the delight of my erection
As in it delves
Your body wrapping around mine

Caressing me
Touching me
Feeling me
Wanting me
Yearning me

As you feel my throbbing manhood enter you fully
In it slides so smooth and warm
the pressure of your tightness
contracts around my pulsating c#~^

As our bodies join
Our love is for eternity is created
As we make love
Our souls become one

My c~@~ deep in you as you ride me
Feeling you go up and down
In n out slow and fast
Feeling our bodies heat up

As we make love
And c^& together time after time
Enjoying each others passion
Pleasure and delight


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Past Thoughts 13/02/08

Posted October 2 2008 10:56 AM      Currently: My Heart  

My Heart

Do you know how I beat
Before it was just plodding along
Beat after beat for no other reason than to pump my blood,

But now since I have known you it never beats the same
Each beat is a dance in its self
I open my messenger to see yours there and it skips
It jumps for joy to know that you care
It then stops and wonders
At what you’ll have to say
But then when I read it and my heart flutters

But when I wait to speak to you its suffering in anguish
At the thought of not seeing you
So when I see you come online
My heart is in overdrive
It makes me nervous

Do I start or do I wait for you
My heart is heaving so that when I see you say hello
I fall truly in to your words as though they be your arms
And when you make me laugh I do beat so fast
You make me smile within my heart
You make me cry with joy
That opens my heart just for you

You captivate my rhythm and so when I talk to you
My pace is so fast that I wonder why you like me so
I get nervous and shy
Will you break my heart
Like so many have done to me

But you make me feel so alive
That you are too true for me
As my heart does pace its beats to you

So when I see you say you love me so
The purest of words do carry me to heaven
So when I see you there I know that you will be mine
And I will be yours


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Past Thoughts 11/02/08

Posted October 2 2008 10:55 AM      Currently: Loneliness  

I feel very lonely without you.

Before we spoke i liked ur picture
I saw in u what i hoped to be me
the kind and caring that i need
not just the sexual lust
but for you to want me for who i am

so it was we spoke
talking all night was so cool
but then u wanted me the next night
but we did not lust

we spoke of ourselves
just you and me
no lust just trust
as we chatted all night long

and so it has been every night
that u wait up for me to see the light
for it is so that we do know
that our friendship is just the start

as we chat we do so make
each other happy where no other has
for every night i do so dream of you
that you will be on and chat to me
for you to make me feel so good
that me and you are one and the same

when we chat we both so do
love the fact that we are so clear
with each others feelings
that we dont get hurt as so many have done to us

for as it was so simple
that you fell for me more
with your kindness you have done
my heart does begin to feel yours
as we blush to each other
me so shy and you so sweet

your words to me mean more than you will ever know
even though i tell you my feelings
i do feel for you just as bad as you for me
so when i say i love you so
it is so hard for me to say
as i have never truly felt this way

you are my love and will always be
so close to me yet so far you are
till the day we meet
for joy untold will i show for you
i do love you more than i can say

for i do to feel the same as you
to be loved like none other has done
for my heart does feel yours so
that when we chat i am just me

so shy and yet you know
what words to say to make my day
to make me feel the love i have for you
yet it be so deep in me
but some how you feel it in me so that it does shine forth

yet still we chat more and more
but what i yearn for most
is me and you in our arms we are so
the feeling of our love for both to have

the warmth that you have brought to me
i never knew i could feel so
yet i want you so in my arms
to love and hold

i do so think about your love for me
as day turns to night and back again
for each and every piece of time
i have true love for you

for you to be so sweet to me
for it is my heart that i feel
and yet it is so cold still
for i do so feel so lonely

as it is we are made for one another
yet we are so far apart
till the day we meet my heart will be so lonely
without you being there in person for me

yet i know when we meet we will be one
as you will make me whole again
and as our souls do join for ever
my loneliness will be gone
as we are forever one

me and you so do belong
but till that day
i will be so lost
as you have my love yet to be seen
to feel how lonely i am right now

but when you speak to me
so sweet you sound that i love you more
but still i feel the loss
that when you go i am alone

that my loneliness should one day be gone
by our marriage in pure love
so that i can feel no more
the pain and anguish that is so caused
by my purest of feelings

Loneliness.


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Past thoughts 13/02/08

Posted October 2 2008 10:51 AM        

my angel

I look at you and what do i see
i see my love staring back at me
in disbelief i do look again
and still i see your there for me

i see your body so sexy and sweet
i look past how hot you are
your gorgeous body so bad i want
for you are so heavenly for me

so your body is there for me
but is that all i need
for i do so see much more than that
as i look into your face

for even though i have no pictures
to me i see far beyond that
i see you for who you are
for your body can be mine
but what i desire is more than that

for i do see you for your soul
for the inner you i do care
to be with for all time
even time will not keep us apart

i feel so bad for the love you have
to share myself with what you can give
to feel your kindness that you have so
to be yours to hold for your love

in your arms i shall be
for you to share your soul with me
to feel your loving caring touch
making my soul so warm inside




to know that you do care for me
to be with as we do so talk of
that the feelings we have for each other
to be shared hopefully for all time

for i do long to see you bad
that when i do ill cry for joy
as i see ur beauty and more within
for you mean so much to me

for within you is part of me
that i hope you hold so dear within
for i hold you so deep to me
that my love shines forth

as i think of you
when i be so blue
for you brighten my day
as you make me so happy to be yours

Your smile I see
Brightens up my soul
For I do see so much
Beauty in thee
That I can never loose
For you are so dear to me

well my love i will leave you now
to ponder over your thoughts
for you to feel for me as i do for you
till we do speak again
I send you my love as your in my thoughts

Love


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The Present

Posted September 4 2008 01:14 PM   Mood: Mellow     

i was sat there
when i was given it
just looking at it

what could i say
but thank you
holding it in my hands
i knew it had been brought

i held it in my grasp
my hands feeling its softness
the touch of it so smooth
looking at it

i lost my thought
back to when i was a child
of the thing it reminded me of
my comfort back then

i was but six
i had kept it for years
had forgotten it
in the recess of my mind

to remember it from this present
the reasons why i liked it
why i kept it for so long

in my hands i held something different
yet my thoughts while looking at this
were of past memories
so old in time i had forgot

but still i felt this present
my hands running over its body
its fur so soft and gentle
the feeling i had from this

made me remember thoughts
made me smile
made me wonder why

i said thank you again
a few times as i smiled
as little else did i know what to do
for all i could think of
was past memories

this cuddly monkey
just a gift from them to me
but so much it made me feel

i now have it close
just to feel its softness
and to remind me of past times
when i remember these thoughts

a present it was
a thank you i gave
little does the person
who gave me it know
how much i have felt from it

i have wanted to write this
for days now
but not sure how to
have i lost my words
my thoughts
my feelings



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A clear mind

Posted August 30 2008 04:23 AM   Mood: Happy     

i was so hurting
but now im not
for i am but me

so plain to see
for all have seen
me come and go

some have said why
some have said who
some have said how

but all in all
i am just me
i get like this
now and then

life is what it is
so rough at times
harsh is the the reality
but so it does hurt

for inside us all
we are but fragile
for we all do want
the same thing in life

to find someone
to hold us
to make us smile
to help us in our times of need

to let us feel their glow
the warmth
their love
their hand in ours

so simple are
some actions
so big
are their reactions

for i do think
at times like this
and so i feel
and write

but now i have
just simplicity again
for in my mind
i am clear

no more hassle
no more hurt
no more feelings
no nothingness

so i do feel
better within
no anguish
no suffering

so for those that do
and those that dont
just read these words
and feel at ease

for peace is within
once more i am
for thoughts do go
from inside

so i am just at peace
so quiet a mind
no hassle i have
no pain within

just pure ectasy
at calmness within
for my mind is free
nothingness i accept

happy in mind
happy in thought
happy in deed
am i


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Happiness

Posted August 30 2008 04:14 AM   Mood: Calm     

what am i
a smile
a thought
a smell

just simplicity itself
nothingness
thoughtfullness
emptyness
what am i

i am what makes you smile
just a feeling
a thought
so deep and intense
or so basic and funny

to see someone smile
to see a couple holding hands
looking at others in love

feeling warm inside
your body so relaxed
your mind wanders
you smile

a simple thing is i
from nothing i come
to make you feel good
a simple thing am i

as you feel me
deep inside
a warm glow i am

just am i
nothing big
am nothing at all
just pure and simple

so how do you feel
for i am you
and you are me
simplicity am i

now pass this on
to those you know
let tehm feel me
for you have just met me

time again
i come and go
in many forms i am
but all in all i am from within

a simpleness to you
that makes you feel better
so now you know
how good you feel

just be yourself
smile
for others to see
how i am in you

take care
enjoy
smile
be happy


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Ramblings of a lonely man

Posted August 26 2008 03:00 PM   Mood: Crazy   Currently: INSANE  

for days i have had thoughts
could of done some more
but why

for im past caring
being told this and that
now for all to see
here is what i say

f@%@ it all
for why bother with it
as who really is there for you

the odd person you know
a stranger perhaps
family

but who really is there for you
a single person you be
alone in life
yearning to have companionship

but due to all the players you see
men on cam being jerkoffs
women pissing about with words
all in all just users

in one way or another
men using women
women using men
and so the never ending circle goes on

for men that want to settle
find a women whose all words
says it all so sweet and loving
but cant be bothered with it

so the man goes empty inside
and says why bother
as all he hears are empty words
from women old and new

as they have been played
so much by many
thats all they expect again

for women they find
a man they like
but expect same old s*&%
so words they say
to tease and play

the man they like
looks they say
body they enjoy
words are all the same

women do fall for the wrong man
and so they get hurt
but in doing so
they loose part of their trust
for men all prove nowt else
than just jerks

so why should women trust
but then again
if they trusted just one
let him in past it all

no playing of words
no mind games
no s@*%

just open up and show him
what hes worth
not in words
but in actions

not for s*~ as they think
as thats all their used to
for all men say n show
just boils down to they want
a quick fix here n there


so now you know why women
play games
for they be
playing it safe
with their hearts
so they dont get broke

by a man whose a prick

but not all men
are the same
but women dont care
for one is all the same

but are men really
vain n shallow
as women all say
so i do hear

should a women
ever trust a man
and break the chain
of cirlces of games

then perhaps she can do
is shout it out
that not all men
are the same

for a few
quiet
lonely
decent
men

are still about
so why find a jerk
when all in view
is someone real
for you to see

well now you read
but do you think
do you change
or stay the same

enjoy these words
but do you understand them
for what they mean
or just idle words
as ever read again

well one man will find out
to see if the chain
has been broken
and if so
he will be lucky
for he will have
mrs right

no not right now
but right forever
for not all women
see men the same

who can blame them
for men are jerks
everything about them
no matter who

so women i say
dont despair
for out there
is the one

stop looking so hard
i am told
but i say the same
for you to hear
dont read it
hear it

stop looking for mr right
as all you end up with is mr right now
thats not what your worth
for mr decent
is looking at you

just you dont notice
as all you see
is mr right nowsssss
well mr right sees you

so for now i do say this
take head of my ramblings
for you may not notice
him go by
but he notices you!


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Im no fun

Posted August 26 2008 02:39 PM   Mood: Rejected   Doing: NO FUN  

why im no fun
who knows
who cares
what is it all about

damn it i said
past caring
bollocks to it all
oh why bother

blahhhhhhh
thats my favourite
saying now

women
men
they all the same
players online

cant do this
cant do that
no fun at all
as they all the same

am i drunk
no but if your offering
no
oh well

a word on here
for you to read
why
just usual words

from a man so mad
past caring
but who cares
why bother

shovel it i say
for nowt new here
to see or say
for just ones thoughts

to be written down
as blahhhh
i do say

well not sure why
im doing this
but like i really care
bugger it i say

men
women
all the same
full of s*~@

no matter how you read it
just see the same
words of c*^@
meant like they are

said one to me
im no fun
just b~^$*&~$

well no fun am i
for b@^#^&~% im doing
blahhhh to it i say
who gives a f~%&!


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My Dad

Posted August 16 2008 12:21 PM   Mood: Happy     

A man i went to see
to me he is more than that
but also he is just that
for in my time i have but seen
him a few times these last few years

for i have gone to be with him
on his birthday
the first time in our lives
together on a birthday

for little do i know about this stranger
for a past he hardly says
a future he has with me now
but still i ask
what was he in his former life
when he was never with me

what did he do when growing up
where did he live
how did he work
what did he feel when he met his second wife

for even though my mum was bad
he does still asks about her
just out of thought i think
to know that she is ok

but little do i have with her
unlike this stranger to me
who being with him on his day
was so heart wrenching to me

for never knowing him as i grew up
but being there on his day
the first time i was with him on a birthday
seeing him smile at me so

hearing his laughter
seeing his silly faces
hearing him talk about here n there
asking me what i wanted to do

all i wanted to do was say
dad i love you and i just want to be with you
no matter what we do
i just want to know my father

for little did i say like that
just treated him as best as i could
for was his day
not mine
a visit for me to celebrate
time passing us by

that time i have missed
with my father
not knowing the man that he was
but just knowing the man that he is

for even though i know him now
there is alot he will never tell
both good and bad i do think
for his service was honourable
no matter what he did

my father
a soldier
a husband
a man

but most of all i see
is where i came from
my genes are him
my soul if from him

he made me happier that day
more than he will ever know
for he is my father
a dad i never knew till
a few years ago

but one i do know
is i am my father
for i have his heart
his kindness
his love
his humour even if mad at times

but most of all father
is i have you now
never to forget the time i have
being happy in heart and mind
with the man i call my dad


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A Cloud

Posted August 16 2008 11:49 AM   Mood: Peaceful     

i was travelling two days ago
by coach
i was sat on the left
by the window

i looked out in transit
just gazing at the fields
as life was going by and little did i see
the usual countryside
flashing by each time the hedge was low
to see the cows and horses
grazing happily

but on one occasion i looked out
and was looking at the sky
just letting my mind go
at how peaceful it all was

a clear blue sky
few clouds high up
the sun coming and going
hiding behind the odd one

but as i looked out
i noticed this one cloud
so low it was
that i felt i could reach out
and touch it

white n billowy
no exact shape to it
just a cloud it was

but seeing it so low
i was amazed
just wondering why it was so low
how it could be
what kind of cloud it was

taking me back to georaphy
listening to the teacher
talking about different types of clouds
what they were n how they were called so

but still i couldnt remember
what it was called
but the fact was it just amazed me
sitting there was i
staring at this cloud

as we drove on by
just wondering in awe
thinking
reaching out and touching it
so low it was

that i could put my arm
through the window
n grab this cloud
n just feel it within my grasp

all it was was a simple cloud
but why even now do i think about it so
was it that peaceful to me
to just admire a cloud
that was so low i could touch it

for it was no more than a few storeys high
if had been an office tower there
then you would of walked up
through it
and above it
but who would or really noticed it

i noticed it
i lost myself in it
my mind wondering
just thinking about a cloud
how simple it is
that it was just there
like all the others

but so low it was
that i could of touched it
well thats how it felt to me

but to me that was all i noticed
to someone else they may not of seen
for who knows
as that moment has gone now

no cloud will ever be the same
for now i have that thought
that little clip of time n space
deep in my mind i hold that feeling

of how a simple cloud
made me feel
smile
happy
lost in thought

do we really take
such a simple thing in life
so granted that we dont notice
the inner beauty of its existence

well now you know my thought
how a single cloud
has made me feel
two days ago on a trip i made





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Words

Posted August 13 2008 10:52 AM   Mood: Irritated     

what are peoples words
but scorn and lies
told to keep others happy
just for the sake of it

to say what they feel at the time
no matter drunk or sober
always an excuse after
that they werent meant like that

to be told one thing
then told another
that it wasnt meant
was just them letting off steam

so why say it like you do
how do you mean it
in what way was it said
the words that are used
are from the heart when
said like that

then remember what you said them
how they were meant to be taken
by whom you spoke to and why
was it just to let it all out
to those that would listen

words can be dangerous
how they are written
in what way you use them
how you have a comment said

never speak a word
unless you mean it
as then no one will feel
at loss when the real meaning is explained

so why do we all use words
that arent meant
for would it not be easier
to say what you mean all the time

but is that being too honest
and who truly is honest to themselves
for those that are
are hard to find
for they are the ones that take all to heart

but those that dont
well too many to count
for arent most like that
at the end of the day

so in your words do say what you mean
from your heart do feel
not just your mind think
for in them are plain truths
so easy to understand
but all depends on how you say them

to those that listen
then do take this warning
a words is never meant
unless heard in the voice of they that speak it
so never assume what it means
always check
for then will know what to say and how
to those that are just full of words!


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Seeing you

Posted August 12 2008 03:33 PM   Mood: Ditzy     

felt like eons ago
the last time i saw you
we spoke and left on bad terms
but was just simple misunderstanding

now seeing you again
how i once felt back then
everything you made me feel
touched by you
thinking about you
yearning to be with you

all these and more
have come back to me
but so not fair in life
for yet if things could be changed
im sure we would if we could

but as life would have it now
happiness and love is what you have
for in life those are most dear
are sometimes those we cannot have

for in those hearts that once we felt
lost are now our touch on them
but once again we have felt
some little sense of what once was

now is the time to be happy
for we have spoken once more
and friends we shall be
no matter where in life we shall go
what path we choose and who we loose

for in our ways will always be
memories of a smile
a word
a touch
a look

so i say now unto you
be happy in life
enjoy what it holds
never forget and always smile
for those that are not with you now
are in your heart forever more
as you are in theirs




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Cant be arsed no more

Posted August 12 2008 02:48 PM   Mood: Discontent     

oh why do they stop
looking for someone to have
a man or a woman
for dont you feel tired
of trying to find them

of getting false hopes
all talk and no action
finding them and liking them
to find out they are full of it

are they not what they appear
or are they just after it
looking for a quick fix
instead of looking for long term

but many have fallen
at such a trap
for so many are just in it
to have some fun and say some words

to find someone that they think
will be different
but they then say oh no
not in it for long term

i dont know what i want
so why play with peoples emotions
why make them feel
when really your unsure

be truthful be honest
tell them to their face
before you string them along
then you they will be better

for they will not look about
hoping to find but then give up
as fed up of s&#% being said
and feelings that are not real

for in those words alot maybe meant
but what is real to them
may be just words to you
to get what you want from them

but there are those out there
who see you for who you are
for in your heart you have won them
in your kindness they are lost
your caring words has attracted them

but due to you feeling why bother
they are stuck not knowing what to do
to be a friend to you
or tell you what they would like

so it would seem
that a friend you may want
but are you so sure
for they may be staring you in the face
saying how they feel

but due to how you feel
you arent taking notice
for words just means words
as youve heard them all before

but real life
romance
kindness
happiness
caring
Love

these are just what you want
but cant be arsed no more
as whats the point in looking
as men and women are all the same
just full of it so it would appear

but give that someone a chance
for they may make you happy
in your heart you may feel
that someone close inside
more than you will think right now

so i say to you
dont stop due to being fed up
cant be arsed no more may be how you feel
but just open your eyes to the least expected
and you never know you could be surprised

made to feel what you are seeking
without even looking they are there
just waiting for you to notice them
and say hey come on lets meet
then be happy and enjoy
for what life has instore for you
never give up so carry on and say yes
as you end up with a new friend or more

so get up and carry on
cheer up you men and women
for dont feel down
due to cant be arsed to look
but feel happy again for knowing
that someone likes you for you

you havent even noticed them staring back at you
for they may be there right now
just yearning to see your words come up
and one day hear your voice
see you and hold you
make you happy


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Analyze This!

Posted August 11 2008 03:49 PM   Mood: Indifferent     

As you see words but know they not real
but yet again you have been hurt
so you expect again even though you
dont think you do it is within you

so you have a wall up
around you and let no one really pass
as you do not expect someone
to like you for what is really you
just for s#~

but there are few out there
who are heart and soul and mind
and those are the ones that get hurt
by women who have been made to feel used
for it is those men that
are the true gentlemen in life

for they are the ones that are looked over
due to womens scorn of pain
they do not see a true man in front
for all they have seen is
a w#~&@# whose hurt and destroyed
what is inside

so a decent man walks by again
not being noticed in life
quiet and shy to those that do not know
but to those that do then he is of pure heart
for he will never fail as a friend
he will strive to make all happy

yet to those that really know
will always see him never happy
for even though he does appear so
its for those that he is happy
to see his friends happy in life

to feel their happiness makes him so
within him is undying love
to let others feel it is just the tip
but for one that has not shown
she will be the true one of love

for within her understanding of him lies
the opening of all his sorrows gone
for love to take him and fill him
for all to see his true happiness
finally with someone that loves him so

and so a friend has found out
who and what is meant by this
for in her words holds the truth
that someone there will be right

so now my peace has been said
but for whom do the words go out to
for is it not upto you
to decide if you are the one
that is meant or do you sound like
the one suffering

for there are so many out there
both hurt in ways untold
just looking for someone
to feel love and give love to
so i say to you now for in life you will find

that there is a person for you
just wait and see
for true happiness is from within
so you shall see















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Understand Me

Posted August 11 2008 02:55 PM   Mood: Complacent     

why is it you judge me
for what reason do you do so
why do you and how do you
for what reason do you decide about me
how do you know me

do you really know me
or do you just think you know me
for what you see and think you see
is that really me you see or is that what you think i am

for i tell you now you dont know me
you havent known me
for as long as we have spoken
little do you know about me
for my words are misunderstood
my thoughts become words
my feelings twsited by your thoughts

my heart stepped upon
my soul crushed so many times
my life so many twists and turns
for bad n good have no meaing to me

for all is seen within a blink of an eye
for what is time that we are here
who are you to tell me who i am
for who really are you
are you not as humbled as me

no it would appear not
for if you were then wouldnt you see
with your eyes truly open
to see what i see
then would you not understand me

who i am
what i am
how i am me
why i am me
most of all

how i am not understood




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Why oh Why?

Posted August 11 2008 12:24 PM   Mood: Contemplative     

are those that you like
that take your eye
whose words melt you
that make you so happy
let you feel loved
help you when your down
say anything just to see you smile

so far away
that it hurts
that you cant
just call up and visit
to hold and cuddle
to see smile
feel their heart beat
touch you hand in hand
kiss your lips and make your heart flutter

why do they have to be so far away
that you know that its all just words
that nothing will come from it
if it could you would be so happy
but as life treats you
a cruel joke it seems
that someone you like
even come to love
have feelings from your heart
is so far away

that to touch seems but a dream
to feel next to you is so sweet a thought
but in reality is doubtful to happen
for you know deep down they are just to far away

so why bother
making that extra bit of time
to go see them
or call them
and hear their voice
not just the words
or a message or text
but feel it and hear it
in their voice
the feelings they have for you

the way they make you feel
how they make you feel
why they make you feel it

now tell yourself this
if you are one that is just full of words
why oh why do you bother
when you know that the one
for whom you speak to
will be hurting knowing that its just words

make that effort
go see them
call them
hear them
if your serious from your heart
then you will make that extra effort
and in one way or another
more than mere words
will be with them
will show them n tell them in voice
how they mean to you
how they make you feel
just by talking to you

why so far away do you find mr or mrs right
not right now
but hopefully the one that makes you happy
for life

so i say this to you now
dont bother if all your gona say are words
only say it if you intend to call them
to hear them in voice
to feel what they do
but most of all
to feel the same as they do about you

who knows you may be surprised
with an offer to visit
and then who knows
if its real then they may be your future
you dont know till you try

so dont think your too far
think your close enough
feel it within you to make that effort
in one way or another to hear their voice
feel what they feel
let them know how you feel
for you never know

life has many ways
to be cruel to you
but few ways to shower you in the love you need
so never look and think
oh no your too far away
for they may even be your dreams come true
just will you make that step to take

touch the stars for you never know
that your dreams may come true to you
if only you stop saying
there too far away!


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Your Special

Posted August 5 2008 04:44 PM   Mood: Peaceful     

a night with you is a dream come true
to hold you in my arms
feel your sfot skin
caress your cheek
kiss your head
look into your eyes

for now i do chat
but feel from my heart
for a wonderful lady you are to me
looks are just looks
your heart is the most
your feelings do show

for lovely in every way
you are to me
have been for days
since we spoken
for i look into your face
and see such passion
you have a glow about you
that draws me in

deep into you i have become
i cant stop thinking
how wonderful you are
to think what it would be like

seeing you
feeling you
touching you
holding you
all close to my heart
so you know how
you have made me feel
for you

to the one person
that makes me smile
from my heart again

dreaming of being close to you
so can spend time with you
getting to know the real you
in every way emotional and pyhsical

most of all just looking
into your eyes
and loosing myself
in your soul


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LIFE

Posted August 4 2008 12:53 PM   Mood: Cold     

what are we really doing here
is it for our pleasure
passion or happiness
we are hre to live but why

what do we get out of it
hurt
anger
sadness
despair
evilness
hatred

love
care
kindness
compassion
beauty

why are we even alive
for what reason are we here
do oyu know
ask yourself that question
each morning when you get up
what do you feel

do you just take it for granted
that im alive
and so just carry on in life

or do you wish to never exist
then do not suffer in life
for what reason are we here
does anyone really know

how do you see yourself
what do you see yourself as
how do you live your life
are you really you

who knows
who cares
why bother
these are just some
of what is within
and is never answered

for are you scared to answer

do you know how to answer

why bother answering as who really cares


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Women

Posted August 4 2008 12:23 PM   Mood: Pessimistic     

what does one see in them
to read their words
to hear their voice
to see them

how does it make you feel
seeing them smile
hearing them laugh
feeling their sadness

touching their soft skin
feeling them close in your arms
holding them dear to you

when are they really just killing you inside
wrenching your feelings out
your heart so weakend by them easy to pluck out
to throw away and walk over

to say sweet words that entrap you
to see you smile so they can then hurt you more
to drive you insane with feelings
not knowing if they are felt back

why do we need women
is it the lust that we adore them
the pressue of not having a woman
drives a man insane to find the right one

but then who is really the right one
a man never knows as a women will never tell
and so the vicious circle starts again

when a relationship breaks down
and both go their seperate ways
but who wins
for do both really suffer

a man goes off and enjoys
a woman goes off and enjoys
but who is really happy in their heart

why do men need women



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