bella

Window

The window is not usually this dark.
Yet i would rather have it here than no window at all.
It is such a delight when the sun comes up.
Then my window is not at all dark.
Little animals scurry about.
Just outside my window, i hear them, waking up.
Tired of the view from this direction.
Happily i go to another window.
Nice having a house, windows, look another one over there.
Walking to the bed, slowly, looking out with each step.
Soon my eyes will close, but my windows, open they are.
I used to close the curtains tight.
Never did i let in the light.
Then i took that chance and glimpsed what was out of sight.
I surely missed what i had not seen.
Now i actually invite the people in.

the little blank page wants me to say something
yet my mind wants nothing to do with it
sounds oooze gently inside the room i occupy
early morning rain lightly falling
i find myself all alone with a smile on face
thinking back to what i did the other night
wind stirs the curtains into life
waiting for the day to begin so i can find my place
it is the night that brings me to life
no need to think about what i must do
nothing to cause me worry or fear
i walk alone my, life is filled with no strife.

happy bunny day

Blessed Ostara to all.

Another End to Another Week

Songs I would put on a road trip mix CD

ok thats cured 4 me i gots a cd changer in the trunk so i can puts lots of cds in there hehehehehe good 2 go 4 10 hrs without hearing the same song twice.

Calling All U Angels

Remember the world is bigger than the both of us. Reach out a hand and greet someone 2day.

Pain

Pain is only valuable once u know you have learned from it

Do You

sometimes i don't want to think. my mind wanders. i not sure. even though my body is here. my thoughts are lost, something i do not fear. wonders aloud. no one is here. i can speak my mind. without reason or rhyme. drifting at will, nothing lost or gained. remiss, remorse startlingly clear. the doors slam shut. brought back from thought. amazing i thought at all. Do you?

Pantheism

All pantheism must ultimately be shipwrecked on the inescapable demands of ethics, and then on the evil and suffering of the world. if the world is a theophany, then everything done by man, and even by animal, is equally divine and excellent, nothing can be censurable and nothing more praiseworthy than anything else, hence there is no ethics.

walking

Often said or not. i go for a walk. spaces wide, streets narrow. i walk on the opposite side, going towards the traffic. because that is what i was told to do. but that is not why i do it. i likes to see their faces. some of them smile, some of them do not. could they be as happy as me? so i look longingly into those face. perhaps by now it has been thousands. i did not keep count. not many look my way. busy, bustling. along they go, heading south and heading north. i just keep walking along.

Significance

Reading the words of those unknown. Traverse to places yet unknown Feelings of elation and sorrow flowing across the pages. The wondrous rambling thoughts cast asunder. I escape to locations yet perceived. My mind soaring to new heights as i read those words. Words of titillation, words recounting displeasure. Written incautiously upon that day. Significance of those words written, i feel. Some things i relate with. The feelings of gratification, emotional disorder. Reading the words are what i desire, they arouse something new in me. The manner in which you open up is rare. With every utterance read, my mind rejoins my body. Back to the pages i am seated heretofore. Realization dawning. I am still here. In perfect love and perfect trust. Harming none, doing what i will. I follow my mind and my heart. Merry we meet and merry we part. Blessed be.

wired 4 life

if i was real i would know how u feel. my mind is blank. happy and content. don't need 2 feel. if i was real i would know what u want. my life is empty. mad and angry. don't u want me. if i was real i would know there is a point. my path is chosen. serene and complacent. don't need a point. if i was real i would know who i was. my purpose is known. content and anxious. i don't wonder alone.

Loving Embrace

Winds biting across my skin. Temperature as low as can be. My breath is visible even to me. The mornings air crisp and clean. Walking through the winters night. My path easily accepted. With each step i draw nearer to thee. Wishes and hope coming to surface with the light of the new day. The path has been long. Yet i carry on. My steps lit by the light of the Moons last glow. When i come upon a horse drawn carriage. I heard the jingle of tiny little bells on the backs of the horses. The sound of hooves beats drawing near. My eyes feast upon the faces of those within. Faces full of glee and merriment. Passing by they never even glance my way. My journeys end draws near for my path has cleared. I walk my final steps anticipating loves embrace. Warm loving arms to melt my winter chills. I will be with my love again. I will not spurn my loves requests. I will succumb to his loving embrace.

Serenity

Sitting on the hill i watched them. Once again i was invited in to play. So new were the feelings of belonging to me. Not long where they to be mine. Yet again was i ostracized. I wondered back along the forest edge. A tree within beckons me. Gazing upon the beauty and strength, i climbed into the heights. There i found such a delightful bliss. Perched upon the branches up above i no longer felt that tug. The delight of freedom once again found. No longer was i earthbound. Nestled among the autumn leaves i found serenity.

wanted 2 write a new ditty

i wanted 2 pen a new ditty, but couldn't thinks of something witty. so i set off down the road. came back because it was cold. followed my thoughts. realized i didn't want 2 go there. so here i sit, in the warmth of my house. wondering is everyone still there? i pushed the little button. it sprang 2 life. once again, i was filled with delight. much 2 my wonderment i happened to find, friends online. when all was done that i had begun. i found i had made some new friends. and the tried and true were still there. this my thought and i am glad u were in them. the day is past noon. so i thinks ill bundle up and venture out again. but i will miss u. i will be back soon. Live, luv and laugh.

Hello Luv

Hello luv, hopes everyone is having a joyous new years. see ya all next year. hehehehehe.

my mind

It is better for mind not to be embodied. The union must be for it undesirable.

This Be You

Knowing you don't know is wholeness. Thinking you know is a disease. Only by recognizing that you have an illness can you move to seek a cure. Live, luv and laugh.

Into the Dark

Moving in the dark alleys of life one's eyes become trained, and one starts seeing the light even in darkness. What beauty is there if you can see light while there is day! The beauty is there when there is the darkest night, and your eyes are so trained into darkness that you can see the day hidden there. When in the darkness you can see the morning, then there is beauty, then you have achieved. When in the lowest you can see the highest, when in hell you can create heaven, then, then you have. become the artist of life. - Osho

Let there be a beauty and strength, power and compassion, honor and humility, mirth and reverance within you. And you who seeks to know me, know the seeking and yearning will avail you not, unless you know the Mystery; for that which you seek, you find not within yourself, you will never find it without. Live, luv and laugh.

Live, luv and laugh

Don't get ahead of yourself. All worthwhile lessons take time to become integrated into your spirit. The mind is usually the last to know. That is because your subconscious is learning through dreams, visions and symbols. While your conscious mind is struggling with words. Continue to spend time alone to allow all your new feelings and thoughts to become clear. Take a walk and enjoy your life. Live, luv and laugh. truly yours, bella

Live, Luv and Laugh

Hello Luv. I really enjoy this place. Alot of nice ppl. Well I opened a new club 2 night. Like u all 2 come join me. Lets share each others passions. Like 2 know what ur most passionate bout. Im looking 4 ward 2 the words. Live, Luv and Laugh.

its a chilly morning. so i gots my clothes on. hehehe. had fun last night. luv and kiss. u all r a hoot. dont harsh the mellow.

harsh the mellow

Hey guys and dolls. Just a little note to say. Don't harsh the mellow. Or the creative juices won't flow. live, luv and laugh.

i love 2 dance. do u.