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I still cant let go

Posted September 15 2008 06:27 AM Mood: Melancholy

there are certain things that you don't want to lose such as ur favorite toy since u we're a child that is so important to you. I'm not saying that they'll vanish forever but you'll just keep them in a safer place where they can't be broken specially the fragile ones.Keeping them far away from you is a hard thing but you have to do it because you have to grow up but the question is after keeping them from a long time will it feel the same if u touch them or play with them again? Take a good glance at your past where these things are with you in ur troubled times or your most cherished ones. I hope the world would listen if i scream saying that i want to be different but still waiting for the right time. I think i have to dig my stuffs and find the most important thing in my whole life my little heart that i buried deep in my treasure chest because i might use it now or in the future

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OMG!!!!!!! this is so not happening

Posted September 11 2008 03:49 AM Mood: Shocked

is it really just a coincidence that i almost have the same dream at the same time?
it really creeped me out when i found out that this guy almost had the same dream at the same time!! i dont know if this is a sign or what
but this is so not funny
i think that there's really something about this guy

ok this is what happened in my creepy dream

i was surfing then this wave knocked me out the i started to drown
suddenly a guy just came out of nowhere and saved me then he disappeared.
I fell asleep because my board hit my head and its kinda bleeding
the next time i opened my eyes i was in other place already i was in this awesome garden with butterflies all over me then a car pulled over and asked me to go with him the driver has no face i was pretty scared he brought me back to the ocean and asked me if im willing to be saved
i didnt answer then he pushed me in the heart of the ocean then i started to drown again
the guy who saved me before is not yet in sight and boom!! i woke up lol

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why are ppl like this?

Posted September 10 2008 05:20 AM Mood: Annoyed

what the heck i was at starbucks yesterday then there was this guys with his other a-hole friend
and i think they're high school or something. The first guys came to my table acting cool and asked for my number then sarcasm just came out of my mouth because im kinda moody that day so i said stuffs that i think that embarrassed him so he flipped me off then he said to his friend that i might be a just a jock's skank. I was shocked so i pour my frappuccino on him then i called him a-hole then i rushed out...

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im so lost and confuse

Posted September 10 2008 05:09 AM Mood: Depressed Listening to: all good things come to an end

i dont know what to do im so messed u right now
things are so complicated. I feel so lost i dont know im kinda crazy and wild but right now
im really serious like a lawyer i hate being this crappy serious nat
i want to be back to the carefree me
damn it
even though im so afraid to lose a lot of things
no one can even notice that im a coward ugh...
wtf is love anyway
im a player i know that but now im about to lose
no, actually i think i already lost my little game
im just so afraid to be hurt so playing is the only way
to keep my heart from being torn apart
sh*t i wish i could turn back time and undo the things that i did
this is crazy but im not saying that im regretting anything

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booze

Posted September 8 2008 03:12 AM Mood: Confused

i wish that i could just runaway and forget everything
but i simply cant because no matter what i do i just cant let this one go
this guy who i met really made me do the things i never did before
yeah he's just from the internet but for me he's more on reality
he keeps me awake whether im drunk or not
i feel guilty when i ditch him :p
but he still's accept my apology
he even makes fun of my picture where my tongue sticks out
but i just feel glad because he noticed me
i do like him a lot but things are just so complicated
there are times that i want to runaway with him but that's impossible
i really want him to know me better
yeah he knows my face and the things i like
but he havent seen me in person or hold my hand in public even though
i want these things to happen i just cant force something that
wasnt meant to be

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mixed emotions really stupid!!

Posted September 6 2008 09:44 AM Mood: Crushed

i wish i can predict the unpredictable
because this is the only way that i can save myself
from being hurt,but who can predict anything about falling in love?
the answer is no one
i waited for too long but im still willing to wait a thousand century more
why can't i predict the time that someone special will stop me from waiting?
Im getting tired of wishing on every star,every night but im not giving up
i know that someone will break my silence and bring me back to life
i dont need him to be perfect i just need his love perfectly
the only thing that i can predict is that i'll stutter in front of him
but i know he'll melt all my fears
he'll make me forget those memories about being crushed and broken
he'll mend all my scars from the cheating and being someone that i used to be
i never been inlove
i dont even know what that word means
the love that i thought was love is just a coping mechanism
thats what i found out
i really want to know what this word really means and how it feels
i know someday someone will show me how to love and how to be loved
in an unpredictable way

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Natalie's D-Dancing

Posted March 23 2008 06:31 PM Mood: Bouncy Listening to: shut up and drive

party=
*dirty dancing
*music
*drinking
*fights
*shouting
*meeting new ppl
*just ppl!!!

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Natalie strikes back!!!

Posted March 19 2008 10:09 AM Mood: Okay Listening to: stronger by kanye west

Well just got home and guess what time is it? it's 4 in the morning!! never tired of partying so i always ended up drunk!! well last night i got into a some kind of a bx^@~ riot so i got these scratches and stuff.
well thank me we won!!!

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