not as an athlete

Saturday, April 19, 2008 6:03:00 AM   Mood: Okay    Doing: emails   


after high school i was kinda chunky bc of my first broken heeart, but i deciced to stop stuffing myself with food, i was a 36c n a size 7 in jeans,,FAT A** N THIGHTS, at 165 lbs for a 5'6 hieght. but i thought there must be one thing that can belong to me . i deciced to become a professional runner, and i did. after a long year in trainning. my best fase was when i hit 112lbs and a 26a cup n a 28 inch waiste, and could run 12 miles under an hour and half, EXCELLENT SHAPE I WAS IN. even though i became sycho about eating healthy and obsess with protein shakes n red bulls. my point is that after i let go of my strictly dicipline almost about half a year ago, am doing fine. am not fat nor too skinny am normal. but i kinda still want to pusre my goal to participate in the iron man triathlon. which now i get to my point..i have been going back to my trainning but it seems so hard now, as if i have just started all over again.

what a day

Thursday, March 06, 2008 3:52:00 PM   Mood: Exhausted    Currently:   


today was the longest day ever inmy job. i felt tired n so sleepy. i wonder how i made it. haven't u ever had one of those days that just seem to never end.

i dont noe if believe in fate or coinsidence

Wednesday, March 05, 2008 2:28:00 PM   Mood: Drained      


i had a bad break up but i love still so much my ex that i called him back, i thought he wasnt going to pick but he did. when we saw each other again it wasnt the same.i didnt felt the same way i use to , there was no more love.