deepsoul

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a dam stupid illiousion!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok where do i even begin oh yea thats right i really hate liars with a passion ugg!! how could someone play sutch meaniless mind games on you for no benifit no gain simpley becuse they can its sick!! and stupid and the worst part is they really dont care how u feel or what u say. becuse all along they were this illison of what u wanted too see but u finnaly uncover the beutiful pedals and see the true uglyness hidden deep within. sutch a helpless shityy feeling..... that i always seem to find time and time again f*%&!!

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BECOME A DEEPSOUL!!!!!!!!

its simple its about exspressing your body and mind looking deeper into things then with your eyes. Alot of things are shrouding your vision its about looking past obstacles that close pepoles minds too the bigger picture whitch is <acceptence love understanding > 1. if you do not understand somthing you should not judge it 2. your actions and feelings make a chain reaction of all the things around you> when one domenio falls they all fall a chain reaction happens why? well it only takes one person 2 get all the rest 2 fowllow

whats my purpose? the more i search the more im lost

why do i mindlessy wonder threw my life searching for somthing i dont even know what im looking for.. just hopeing i find what im suppose to do. so things can finnaly start to make sence and this distorion of a dream can finnaly vanish and ill wake up too who i am. and everthing will be ok again and il finnaly be able to smile and mean it finnaly be able to laugh ill be able to see the good side of things rather then dwelling on the dark shadow that hover's over me like a dark cloud always raining down on me strikeing me with the occasinal lighting of pain and anger of the thunder. Im tired of it all but only in the darkness u can see the light and hopefully walk towards it before its too late..........

my hands

my hands are my talent they write swift words that grasp your thoughts my hands are strong and filled with power the pen's ink hits the paper and my gift has found me i am a writer....

making sence of ones thoughts ........

you ever lose yourself in thought. ever wonder about all the differnt things that happned in life day dream and dwell and simpley think about all the other differnt possibiltys on how your life how it could have been differnt and think if it could have been inproved. Made better or perhaps worse have you ever thought about where your lifes going what road you will go on and if its a long wonderful one or simple dead end where you get lost and never find your way back. have you thought about what it would have been like to take that chance and ended up paying for it. Or not taking that chance at all. And wondering what could have been the outcome of it all. In this life full of mindless choices and regrets on the past and thoughts dweeling alwasy upon ones future. Will our thoughts and questions ever truely be sastifyed ? Proably not .........

READ IF U CHOSSE

seraching for love seraching for a reason a reason to be a reason to help us see who we are always serching never finding but always looking we see the birds flying in the sky but we are chained down to this place chained down too this reality where dreams and fairy tales are nothing but silly thoughts but in the end thats all we got his our thoughts idea's and with them you could fly past the boundiers of reailty and go place's that most have not gone fly to that place called happyness... and threw all the years of serching and never finding there u will see it and the adventure will end as a ner adenvture will begain and time will repeat its self all over again

word's have become cheep

words have lost there meaning there purpose words are cheep when you dont know what they mean when words are said without giving thought in your head when words like i love you become far to oftenly used they lose there meaning words are cheep u can say alot of things but words mean nothing without action words are cheep. Trust has been almsot lost becuse words have been used to often to lie causeing rain drop tears heart's that are slowly torn apart for a cheep word that had no meaning but was led to belive it did mean nothing means nothing and nothing means everything words are cheep words have died pepole have lied pepole have cried words are cheep.........

I WAKE UP

i wake up my eyes are blurry glanceing at the clock the alarm gose off the buzzing rings loudly in my head i groan in discomfort i barely crawl out of bed and stager too my feet my mucsels ake and are tence and weak i look down at my chest cuts and bruise's are spread threw out my entire body. what the hell i think to myself what happned to me i walk slowly to the mirro in my wash room the door creaks as i gentally open it i walk too the mirro what happned to my face. My face is swalloen i gracefully run my fingers down my cheeks the slighest touch sends a sensation of pain. The phone rings i walk over and pick it up i speak the words hello there's no relpy an awkerd silence of breathing from the other end of the phone line is all i hear and finnaly the mystery person speaks he says the word run in a cold deep voice the phone hangs up. i drop the phone it tangels from the cord. Then i hear fists banging at the front door they begain to get louder and harder the wooden door begins to splinter. What the hell do u want from me i grab a knife from the kitchen thats wen i remeber the words of the man on the phone run. But by then its too late 6 men dressed in black suits and masks consealing there identy storm in my house.


somthing i wrote randomly hope u liked it

A MORAL WORTH LEARNING

at certian times feel it seems like a long unremoveable strip of duct tape lays tightly across my lips traped with the shyness within i have so much to say but so much dosent get out i would like to speak my mind not just in words typed on a blog but with my own voice somthing iv always had problems with i can even rember a certain time in my life wen i was failry young in elementry there was this girl i liked since grade 2 but my shy ness always stoped me from asking her out or even getting to know her one day i decided i would write her a poem becuse well i could hardly speak too her so i spent countless hours on this poem that i deemed perfect then after that it was working up the courge to talk to her so i avrived at school scared as hell thinking of all the possibiltys that she could say no and i would be laughed at the kinda things that race threw your head repateing like a broken recored. i sat in class reading threw the poem making sure it was fool proof the recess bell rang i walked outside on a cold november day feeling my heart racing all around my chest never sitting still. and then thats wen i seen her standing with her freinds as most girls do the poem held tightly in my hand as i tried to walk towards her with confiedence but with each step my legs began to buckle and thats wen i seen the thing i would never forget my best freind huged and kissed her my heart sank and felt hollow. it wasent so much that i was mad at my freind as it was that i was mad at myself i never asked her out instead i was a cowared and was to scared that she would say no with out thinking there was the possibilty of a yes it was somthing i regreted terribly but the main moral of what im trying to get across is that dont be scared if theres somthing you wanna do or acchoplish just go for it dont wait for the possibilty and chance to pass you by and leve you thinking what could have been like what happend to me

PAIN

the word pain what dose it bring to your mind dose it make u think of a cut that stings and makes u bleed but eventually disaperes and only leves a tiny scar of your former pain a small reminder of the past mistakes or is it within u burning deep inside making u slowly die as the tear drops fall from your eye forgotten and misunderstood crys sometimes the pain makes u wanna die within and without the pain over comes the body and mind making u do things to escape it trying to hide from the reailty burrieed deep inside

HAVE U EVER ?

have u ever loved someone and they didnt love u back have u ever regreated the choice's u made have u ever just gave up and cried becuse u had nothing left but self doubt and sorrow
have u you ever wacthed your loved one slowly fade away and die and succum to disese and couldent help but feel helpless and scared have u ever looked your father in the eye and see nothing but hate for you in his heart have u ever been hated simply for being who you are have u ever been pushed to far have u ever just given up becuse there's nothing left for u to give HAVE YOU!!!!

im bored so listen too me talk about life

life what is it whats its purpose whats its point and does it even have one. Is life destiney randomness or fate or a comabtion of all thoses fw*~zy up things. is life about beliveing in religion giving yourself up too a greater purpose praying for your problems just to go away blah i dont think so u cant pray for your problems to go away u have to make them go away no magical spirt or being is gonna do that for you. your on your own bud but hey im not telling

you what to belive in im just shareing my thoughts with you. So dont get all mad about it life's not really an anwswer if anything go find what u think what life is and if it makes u happy stick with it life can only truley be answerd after death. so enjoy it well u can or end it

your choice your life. these are some comparssions i thought of too match life umm enjoy i geuss life's like a hot bath it feels good wen u frist get it in then the longer u stay in the colder and wrinkler u will get. or lifes like a roller coaster full of twists and turns and u never know wen the ride will come to a crashing end. well thats all i got if you had time on your hands and chosse to read this umm hope u enjoyed it and take care have a good f~z#xy~ life lol