deepsoul

deepsoul

im just me living for who i am
20, Male from Prince AlbertSaskatchewan - Canada Canadian Chat
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A MORAL WORTH LEARNING

Posted Yesterday 04:33 PM   Mood: Calm   Currently:   

at certian times feel it seems like a long unremoveable strip of duct tape lays tightly across my lips traped with the shyness within i have so much to say but so much dosent get out i would like to speak my mind not just in words typed on a blog but with my own voice somthing iv always had problems with i can even rember a certain time in my life wen i was failry young in elementry there was this girl i liked since grade 2 but my shy ness always stoped me from asking her out or even getting to know her one day i decided i would write her a poem becuse well i could hardly speak too her so i spent countless hours on this poem that i deemed perfect then after that it was working up the courge to talk to her so i avrived at school scared as hell thinking of all the possibiltys that she could say no and i would be laughed at the kinda things that race threw your head repateing like a broken recored. i sat in class reading threw the poem making sure it was fool proof the recess bell rang i walked outside on a cold november day feeling my heart racing all around my chest never sitting still. and then thats wen i seen her standing with her freinds as most girls do the poem held tightly in my hand as i tried to walk towards her with confiedence but with each step my legs began to buckle and thats wen i seen the thing i would never forget my best freind huged and kissed her my heart sank and felt hollow. it wasent so much that i was mad at my freind as it was that i was mad at myself i never asked her out instead i was a cowared and was to scared that she would say no with out thinking there was the possibilty of a yes it was somthing i regreted terribly but the main moral of what im trying to get across is that dont be scared if theres somthing you wanna do or acchoplish just go for it dont wait for the possibilty and chance to pass you by and leve you thinking what could have been like what happend to me


PAIN

Posted October 5 2008 (8 days ago) 05:33 PM   Mood: Depressed   Currently:   

the word pain what dose it bring to your mind dose it make u think of a cut that stings and makes u bleed but eventually disaperes and only leves a tiny scar of your former pain a small reminder of the past mistakes or is it within u burning deep inside making u slowly die as the tear drops fall from your eye forgotten and misunderstood crys sometimes the pain makes u wanna die within and without the pain over comes the body and mind making u do things to escape it trying to hide from the reailty burrieed deep inside


HAVE U EVER ?

Posted September 18 2008 03:54 PM   Mood: Lonely   Currently:   

have u ever loved someone and they didnt love u back have u ever regreated the choice's u made have u ever just gave up and cried becuse u had nothing left but self doubt and sorrow
have u you ever wacthed your loved one slowly fade away and die and succum to disese and couldent help but feel helpless and scared have u ever looked your father in the eye and see nothing but hate for you in his heart have u ever been hated simply for being who you are have u ever been pushed to far have u ever just given up becuse there's nothing left for u to give HAVE YOU!!!!


im bored so listen too me talk about life

Posted August 13 2008 02:47 AM   Mood: Mellow   Currently:   

life what is it whats its purpose whats its point and does it even have one. Is life destiney randomness or fate or a comabtion of all thoses f#&%@$ up things. is life about beliveing in religion giving yourself up too a greater purpose praying for your problems just to go away blah i dont think so u cant pray for your problems to go away u have to make them go away no magical spirt or being is gonna do that for you. your on your own bud but hey im not telling

you what to belive in im just shareing my thoughts with you. So dont get all mad about it life's not really an anwswer if anything go find what u think what life is and if it makes u happy stick with it life can only truley be answerd after death. so enjoy it well u can or end it

your choice your life. these are some comparssions i thought of too match life umm enjoy i geuss life's like a hot bath it feels good wen u frist get it in then the longer u stay in the colder and wrinkler u will get. or lifes like a roller coaster full of twists and turns and u never know wen the ride will come to a crashing end. well thats all i got if you had time on your hands and chosse to read this umm hope u enjoyed it and take care have a good f&~$%@# life lol


it looks beutiful like life sometimes :)