Guy_from_London

To Much Too Soon GREEN DAY

this song was originally a single released with the american idiot album... and was only avaliable for a short time on vynal... but was removed from the final score of the american idiot album by request of green day... kinda sad to... its a great song!

survey thingy

Lets start it off with, why are you single?
because thats the way life has gone

If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?
yes

What were you doing at 7:00 AM?
waking up

Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to?
yes

Some people were really destructive as a child, were you?
back in the day i was a good kid

Is it possible to be single and happy?
yup.. for most of the time

Are you a jealous person?
i can be

Have you ever been told that you were going to hell?
quite a few times

How do you feel about your hair right now?
want to grow it out a bit then bleach it again

Would you like to put last night on repeat, and live it forever?
NEVER

What was the most memorable thing that happened last summer?
found wireclub haha

Do you think that you will be married within ten years?
possible

Do you fall for people easily?
some ppl yes

Last person you laid in bed with?
my ex

Have you cried this week at all?
wanted to but couldn't

Are you afraid of falling in love?
yes and no.. i'm scared of it but look forward to it at the same time

Does anyone take you for granted?
i think so

Are you drunk?
no

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
my uncle

Do you sleep with or without clothes on
half half

Who do you feel most comfortable talking about everything to?
they know who they are

Do you remember song names or song lyrics better?
lyrics

Does anyone disgust you?
not quite disgust

When was the last time you completely broke down?
almost a month ago... good god that was a bad evening

Who can make or break your day?
the most random of things that i can't predict

Where did you get the underwear you are wearing from?
wal mart

Was yesterday better than today?
no

What will you be doing in three hours?
eating lunch and thinking about going to work

Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
there was...

Do you hate being alone?
not really... its how i've been for awhile

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
no

Are you jealous of someone right now?
no... just pissed at myself

What's something you really want right now, be honest?
her

Are you easy to get along with?
yes

Where is the biggest scar on your body?
got one on my chin

If you were given the chance to go to Paris, would you go?
yup

Anything upsetting you?
yes

Who is your best friend(s)?
my brother

Have you held hands with anyone in the past week?
no

If you woke up in one of the Saw movies, do you think you could survive?
yup

Will this weekend be a good one?
heres hoping

If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you?
yes yes yes.... f^~*y~' say what you mean for goddamn once!

Do you have a friend that is a complete and total flirt around everyone?
not that i can think of

Are you scared of sharks?
no they're cool

Do you believe if you want something bad enough you'll get it?
not if you don't go for it

Who do you like?
someone

Have you ever been around someone who was high?
yup

Do you have a best friend?
yes sorta

Will tomorrow be a good day?
hopefully

Has anyone said they loved you last week?
yes

Are you listening to music?
yes

Think you will be in a relationship three months from now?
its possible

When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
ages ago

Would you ever get a tattoo?
already got one

Can you say you're okay right now?
not compleately

Who was the last person you took a photo with?
my bro and his gf

How did you get your last bruise?
no idea

Are you okay with the life you live?
working on fixing it up

Are you wearing socks right now?
yes

Do you like hugs?
Yes

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
she did

What's a word that starts with the third letter of your first name?
Valid

UPDATE

alright so for those of you who like to follow my pathetic excuse for a life heres where i am at... i have just finished my move to Arizona... and i will be settling in my apartment tomorrow! haha... yup thats pretty much it! cheers!

Fake people or just fake games

it seems that alot of people now are going on about fakes... and shit like that... and lots of people have been blogging about it to... i fear that now includes myself... but i mean can we look in the mirror before we start calling other people fake... have you ever
fabracated something slightly to make yourself cooller
over dramatized on something so people will think your extra serious about it
said "i understand its ok" even if you don't and you know its not
have you ever said "what a fz^#^w' jerk!" even though you've done the same thing in the past...
i could ask so many more senarios but i think you get my drift... if you've done any of this your being fake as well... being fake doesn't just mean using someone else pictures... being fake is being anything more or less then who you are... if your a fat person... your fat you don't need to think you have to hid it with stolen pictures of models... if your skinny as a stick no reason to get pictures of someone better looking and say its you... there is no reason to hide who you are (but i wouldn't go giving out personal visa info and shit like that)
but before i end the blog here let me say... just because you have a real picture of yourself and you only do have one account... you can still be fake... i could blog and say i just managed to make it onto the local beer drinking team... even tho i haven't... i could say i'm a f#@z%y' black belt at karate or some other martial art.... and you still wouldn't know i'm not... even if you have your own picture you can still be fake... if you ever say anything just to get attention then your a f%@$~*' fake... theres no reason to think that just because someone has a real picture of themselves they are being 110% true to who they are...
can we take a f~w%x~' look in mirror before we accuse others of being fake! i mean for gotd sake...
if busting "fake" people is how you pass the time then i think you seriously need to get a life...

stolen from cindy

Let's test your memory, what color were you wearing during your last kiss? skinny jeans, skater shoes, hoddie, midsize trench coat, fingerless gloves (i was on my way out)


Are you legal to drink ? i am in canada where i live... moving to the states tho an i'll have to wait like 11 months


Do you straighten your hair ? nope


Who was your last kiss ? my ex


When was your last kiss? late nov of 2008


What's the closest black thing to you ? my shirt


Are you close with your mother ? sometimes


Have you ever kissed anyone who's name starts with J, D, K or T ? no


Do you miss your past ? not really


Ever been kissed by someone who was a really really bad kisser ? theres only been one person that i've kissed and it was pretty good...


Do you think you've ruined your chances with someone ? only after they came back after ruining their chances with me


What do you think of girls sixteen and younger going on birth control ? Very smart girls


Last time you smiled because you got a text ? meh.... not sure


Who did you talk to on the phone last, why ? my brother... planning what's going on for saturday


who's in your profile picture with you ? me


Do you like to make the first move ? i dunno


Besides this, what are you doing right now ? thinking about moving.... and green day! lol


The boy you truly care about needs you at 3 AM, would you go ? the boy? i'll take it as bestfriend yes i would


What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had ? milk or water


Do you think your a good friend ? yes i do


Who was the last person you got into a big argument with ? not sure


Where did you sleep last night ? in my hammock


Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of something ? anything secondhand serenade or HIM


You caught your best friend smoking weed in the school bathroom, how do you react ?
laugh

Do you have any dirty pictures on your cellphone ? nope


Where is your biological mother right now ? downstairs


Name something you hate ? backstabbers and haters


Has anyone said you have changed lately ? yeah


Do you find it in your heart to forgive ? not often


What would you do if the friend you talk to most stopped talking to you? i'd be like wtf?


Does the number 23 have any significance to you ? nawh


Last time you felt physical pain ? not sure.... i have a high pain tolorance


Do you miss anyone from your past ? sorta... not really


Do you hate anyone ? dislike yeah... hate... not sure if i'd go that far


Anything you would change about your life right now ? school loans would be gone


When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends ? few minutes ago... talked to my bro on the phone


Current mood ? annoyed at myself


To get with someone of the opposite s*&, have you ever faked being drunk ? haha nope


Did the last person who hurt you apologize ? no


Is the last person you hugged older than you ? yes


Do you think you have made anyone happy recently ? dunno


Who was the last person you talked to last night on m** before you went to bed ? Tea proly


Do you think it's wrong to have sy$ before marriage ? not if both are cool about it


Do you think you will ever be married ? dunno about marry.... but living with someone yeah


Do you want to see somebody? yes


What were you doing at 8 this morning ? drinking a beer.... i worked nightshift so i was having a cold drink before bed


Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you ? yes


Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end ? yes


Are you easy to get along with ? i think so


Is there anyone you would do anything for ? Of course


Is there a friend you can't stand ? well he's not really a friend... more like a friend of a friend... and no i can't stand him


Do you get shy around the guy you like ? no... but i do around girls i like


Your phone rings, what do you say ? hello


Do you believe you can change someone ? no... its all up to them


What was your last thought before you went to bed last night ? i don't want to work when i wake up


Last night you felt ? worse then normal


Like anyone right now ? maybe


What were you doing at 4 AM ? at work


I have lost my respect for ? me


Do you like your handwriting ? not usually


Are you the one of those kids that cut their hair by themselves when they were younger ? what do you mean when they were younger... i cut it myself last week!


Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to ? tea.... lynia.... paul... my bro


Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on their bed ? did more then kiss


Have you kissed the same person more than 20 times in 2009 ? haven't kissed at all in 09


Has anyone upset you in the last week ? yes


Do you miss anyone ? this is a repeat question! wtf?


Do you think two people can last forever ? if they're committed


Would you ever dye your hair blonde ? yes i have done it before


Is there one person you look at and automatically smile ? YES


When was the last time you were unhappy with your life ? couple days ago


Do you want your life to stay the way it is right now forever ? hell no!


Are you cheating on someone right now ? nope


Anyone of the opposite s~& been on your mind lately ? yes


Are you nice to everyone ? no


Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friends ? when i was little


Could you ever be friends with someone who hurt you badly ? i tried... and no


Do you believe exes can be friends ? no...


Is there anyone who's over protective of you ? me


Would you rather have your parents catch you having s&z or smoking weed ? weed i think


Who in your phone has a heart after their name ? just got rid of my cell phone

my marrage age is 30!!! uggh.... kinda hoping possibly maybe a bit sooner

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[ ] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own more than one credit card
[x] You know how to change the oil in a car
[x] You’ve done your own laundry
[x] You vote in every election (prime minister/ president)
[x] You can cook for yourself
[ ] You think politics are exciting

TOTAL SO FAR: 5

[x] You show up for school/college/work every day early
[ ] You always carry a pen in your bag/purse/pocket
[ ] You’ve never gotten a detention
[x] You have forgotten your own birthday at least once
[x] You like to take walks by yourself/or with 1 other person
[x] You’ve watched talk shows
[x] You know what ‘credibility’ means without looking it up
[x] You drink coffee at least once a week (or tea)

TOTAL SO FAR: 11

[x] You know how to do the dishes
[x] You can count to 10 in another language
[x] When you say you’re going to do something you do it…
[x] Your parent(s) trust you
[x] You can mow the lawn
[x] You can make adults laugh without being stupid
[ ] You remember to water the plants
[ ] You study when you HAVE to
[x] You pay attention at school/college/work.
[ ] You remember to feed your pets..

TOTAL SO FAR: 18

[x] You can spell ‘experience’ without looking it up
[ ] You work out on a regular basis
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[x] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[ ] The first thing you do when you wake up is get caffeine
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don’t need
[x] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[x] You can type quickly

TOTAL SO FAR: 23

[x] You have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour
[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[x] You have realized that no adult will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[x] Most of your friends are older than you & are married.
[x] You can say no to staying out all night
[x] You use the internet every day
[x] Your wardrobe hasn’t changed in a while
[x] You can read a book and actually finish it

TOTAL ADDED UP: 30

The total is the age you will marry
Add up all the x’s and title subject with the sum as “My marriage age is… "

firsts

1. Who was your FIRST prom date?
didn't go to prom... homeschooled

2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
no

3. What was your FIRST alcoholic drink?
beer.... blue

4. What was your FIRST job?
rock picking in farmers fields for pennies a day

5. What was your FIRST car?
98 plymoth neon.... had it for a couple months then the head gaskit went out and i got myself a 1990 mazda protege

6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
Caz

7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
whichever co worker was gunna come a relieve me from my shift

9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?
California

10. Who was your FIRST best friend and do you still talk?
never had a bestfriend per-say.....

11. Where was your FIRST sleep over?
my cousin's house

12. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today?
my co worker

13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
i was at my sisters wedding....

14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
got off work

15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
haven't yet... but come the 22nd i'm gunna see GREEN DAY!!!

16. FIRST broken bone?
None

17. FIRST piercing
none but i want one

18. FIRST foreign country you've gone to?
none

20. When was your FIRST detention?
see question 1

22. Who was your FIRST roommate?
Shawn

23. If you had one wish, what would it be?
to not always come in second to everything

24. What is something you would learn if you had the chance?
i'd like to improve on guitar durms and singing0

25. Did you marry the FIRST person to ask for your hand in marriage/ you asked to marry?
haven't been asked or asked

26. What was the first sport you were involved in?
i was never in a organized league... but i played sports with my brothers

27. What were the first lessons you ever took?
driving

28. What is the first thing you do when you get home?
finished the song that was playing in the car.... in my head...

29. Who do you think will be the next person to post this?
someone who has to much time to burn

36% emo, 9% man w%@*&, 15% jock, 18% nerd.....

EMO
[x] you own at least 5 black shirts
[X] you like skinny jeans
[x] you're listening to music right now
[x] you have painted your fingernails black before
[x] You have more than 300 songs on your ipod/mp3/itunes
[x] Like the color black
[X] hate most girly girls
[x] have dyed ur hair dark
[x] sometimes like to be alone
[ ] hate popular music
[ ] keep hair in front of your face
[x] have given people evil stares
[ ] Hate your parents
[ ] Life sucks for you
[x] have been called emo
[ ] Dislike the colors pink, teal and baby blue
[ ] Complain a lot
[x] own a studded belt
Total: 12 36%

PART TWO:

Sw^z/MAN W*%*x:
[ ] own more than 10 minishorts
[ ] have kissed more than 2 people in one night
[ ] have been called a s^w@
[x] like to drink
[ ] ever wear low cut shirts
[x] have been called a tease
[ ] Flirt with every girl or guy!
[x] love the opposite s*z
[ ] Go to parties/sleepovers at least once a week
[ ] own 5 tube tops
[ ] Sit on the opposites lap
[ ] you kiss because you think its fun
Total: 3 9%

PART THREE:

JOCK:
[ ] Own at least 5 jerseys
[ ] Have 10 or more trophies
[ ] Wear hair in ponytail like everyday
[x] Love sports
[ ] Own 5 or more sweatpants
[x] Dont wear makeup
[ ] Have / had played lacrosse
[x] Play more than 2 sports
[x] Can play a sport if you've never played it before
[ ] You play/ played Basketball on a team
[ ] You play/ played baseball-softball on a team
[ ] You play/ played soccer on a team
[ ] You run/ran track
[ ] You play/ played football on a team
[ ] Been called a jock
[x] Have set a record
[ ] Are friends with your coach
[ ] Love watching sports
[x] can do 15 pushups without getting tired
Total: 5 15%

PART FOUR:

NERD:
[ ] wear your pants at your waist
[ ] have/had braces
[ ] in advanced classes
[ ] On Math team
[ ] Have all A's
[x] Like spending time with your parents
[x] have been called a nerd
[x] are *annoyed* or bullied
[x] LOVE to learn
[x] Like your teachers
[ ] Watch history channel
[ ] never go anywhere on the weekends
[x] Have been called weird
[ ] scared to talk to the opposite s#y
[ ] Dont have pics of yourself on myspace
[ ] read a book a month
[ ] You read on your last spring break
[ ] Have your own website
[ ] wear pocket protectors
Total: 6 18%

Multiply each number by 3 then repost as "_% emo, _ %s^*%/man w@&#z, _% jock, _%nerd.

i cost 3100.00 a night!

Natural Hair Color:
[ ] Brown - $100
[ ] Blonde - $50
[ ] Black - $15
[ ] Bald - $5
[x] Other-$75

Total: $75.00

Eye Color:
[ ] Brown - $50
[ ] Green - $75
[x] Blue $150
[ ] Hazel $100
[ ] Other - $15

Total so far: $225.00

Height:
[ ] Over 7′ - $200
[ ] 6′8″ to 7′ - $175
[x] 6′0″ to 6′7″ - $150
[ ] 5′5″ to 5′11″ - $75
[ ] 5′4″ to 5′10″ - $85
[ ] Under 5′4 - $95

Total so far: $375.00

Age:
[ ] 50 to 56 - $175
[ ] 46 to 50 - $150
[ ] 41 to 45 - $125
[ ] 31 to 40 - $100
[ ] 26 to 30 - $75
[ ] 21 to 25 - $50
[x] 19 to 20 - $25
[ ] 0 to 18 - $100

Total so far: $400.00

Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $750
[ ] First Born - $320
[ ] Only Child - $250
[ ] second born - $150
[x] Middle child - $100
[ ] Last Born - $100
[ ] third born - $550
[ ] fourth born - $300
[ ] fifth born - $400
[ ] sixth born -$215

Total so far: $500.00

Drink?
[ ] I did like once - $400
[ ] Only Holidays - $250
[ ] Sometimes - $215
[ ] YES - $200
[X] only weekends - $300
[ ] Every other day - $50
[ ] Once a day - $15
[ ] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$ [[back to $ZERO]]
[ ] No - $600

Total so far: $800.00

Vision?
[ ] perfect vision $400
[ ] need or have glasses/ contacts but dont wear them $200
[ ] No correction $100
[x] Glasses $50
[ ] contacts $25
[ ] Surgical correction -$100

Total so far: $850.00

Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $300
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $250
[ ] 11 to 12 - $400
[X] 7 to 10 - $500
[ ] Under 7- $450

Total so far: $1350.00

Favorite Colors (two):
[x] Green-$750
[ ] Red - $600
[x] Black - $100
[ ] Yellow -$475
[ ] Brown - $300
[ ] Purple - $225
[ ] White - $400
[ ] Aqua - $350
[ ] Orange - $300
[ ] Blue - $300
[ ] Pink - $100
[ ] Other - $500

Total: $2100.00

Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes $0
[x] Nope-add $1000
[ ] some- $750

Final Total: $3100.00

REPOST WITH TITLE:
“I cost $ — a night”

street life

i may not come from the streets
but i know not to get involved in others beefs
i can stand my ground and hold myself up on my feet
m~w@~^x#z&*x don't diss me cause you know i'll kill you
i'll f^&^zw' shoot you py#@# you'll f&z~y#' get capped
cause i won't deal with none of your crap
and don't try to diss my crew
i just didn't think you knew
but its not a smart thing to do
cause we're like family them and i
if i saw someone being hussled
f*&% them their hussler's gunna die
i don't carry no belt buckle
don't carry no glook
but i got more then any you my&x*#w^&*@wz got
i got my crew and they got my back
so just so you know one wrong word
there will be a knife in your back
and you ain't gunna live to tell your crew
cause they ain't watching over you


i'm not gangster or anything... but i do firmly believe in respect and if someone is a friend... they're more then a family... this goes out to all my homies out there on wireclub... you know who you are....

Update...

well i find recently that this is the only way to keep people on the same page... since i don't spend as much time chatting anymore...

i'm still working nightshifts... but will be handing in my notice of leave TODAY!!! because... i'm moving in just a few weeks.... Aug 17th i'm heading to the states... Arizona.... the paperwork on the apartment is still going through but this is f&*@*z' awesome that its working out!

can't wait to take and post pics!!!! anyhoo... everything else in my life is the same right now... just thought i'd share about my soon approching move!

cheers!
-ME

i screwed up 30% of my teenage life

[ ] Kissed someone before dating
[ ] Gotten a phone taken away at school
[x] Gotten caught chewing gum
[ ] Gotten caught cheating on a test
Total so far:1

[ ] Arrived late to class more than 5 times
[ ] Didn't do homework over 5 times
[ ] Turned at least 2 projects in late
[ ] Missed school just because you felt like it
[ ] Laughed so loud you out kicked out of class
Total so far: 1

[ ] Got your mom, dad, etc to get you out of school
[x] Text people during class
[x] Passed notes
[ ] Threw stuff across the room
[x] Laughed at the teacher
Total so far: 4

[ ] Took pictures during school hours when you weren't required to do so for a class
[ ] Called someone during class
[ ] Listened to iPod, CD, etc during class
Total so far: 4

[ ] Threw something at the teacher
[ ] Went outside the classroom without permission
[x] Broke the dress code
[ ] Failed a class
[x] Ate food during class without permission
Total so far: 6

[ ] Gotten a call from school for something bad
[ ] Been called the worst student [ αs α joke ]
[ ] Punished on a school trip because you behaved badly
[x] Didn't take your stuff to school
[x] Given a teacher the finger when they weren't looking
Total so far: 8

[ ] Faked your parents signature
[x] Slept in class
[x] Cursed at your teacher behind their back
[ ] Copied homework
[ ] got in touble with principle
[ ] Thrown food in the lunch room
Total so far: 10

Multiply by 3*
Post as "i screwed up __% of my teenage life

heading to hell

is it just me or do i rhyme my raps like eminem?



when i rhyme its sad and faulty
always going on about someone untrustworthy
but people love it
they read it
absorbe it
i wouldn't even write if it wasn't for shit
i wouldn't even care if she didn't exsist
the scar she left just fuels my fire
to keep making ryhmes to and destory my desire
many people don't understand
when your heart is held then destroyed by a hand
people just don't seem to care
when all i look for is just to find somewhere
to hide and wait
to cut my skin
to refuse the light that love let in
i simply hated being the one that was used
if i could relive it this isn't what i'd choose
i wouldn't have even given you love
i would've seen what you were above
i wouldn't have been blinded by your kiss
and your heart i surely won't miss
i said it before and i'll say it again
goodbye and f#w& you my once dearest friend
i hope one day you can feel my pain
and know what its like to be hurt again
i swear to god i can live without you
i can live without your lies that i fell to
i can live without your touch and your heart as well
for we both know it just brought me to hell

goodbye

your tears used to hit me
and slowly roll off
then your tears hit me
and i began to rust
now your tears hit me
and are just absorbed in what i was
as are lost
please stop telling me i'm your only one
we both know its not true
if we were destined
then i'd be falling for you
you broke me once
never again
i'm numb to you and all you stand for
my only fear is the life you raise
will he know how to love live and respect
with a regard to others
or will he become like you
take a heart and break it
find emotions then shake it
find someone honest and destroy them
i hope one day you stop playing the victim in life
i hope one day you find what your really looking for
i used to love now i only hope for you
i do not love you like i did
i will not hold you when times are hard
i refuse to be your fallback with life
and sure as hell you won't be mine
you say i broke your heart
but i wonder if you even have one
you say no one will love me like like you
if thats true i'm glad
then theres hope they won't walk out to
i'll wait forever if i must
i waited 19 years till i found you
i'll wait another lifetime for someone who is true
so goodbye and farewell
i won't be here anymore
i can't be your friend because it'll make us fail
i've moved on
i suggest you do the same
the pain of the past hurts
but only if you live there
move on and the pain leaves
stop crying cause we know the tears are fake
stop missing me because we know you'll never change
goodbye

f*y%x^ in the head

what the f%@z is wrong with me.... i want to f^#@z^' punch the wall... break down and cry.... i want to drive fast and sing with my music... i don't want to feel... and i want to be able to feel again.... i want someone to hug me and tell me it'll all be ok... and i want to give the finger to everyone around and say anything they've heard about love is bullshit... i don't know what i want.... i just f@wyw#$ want out of this rat race... i want to be someplace where i know i belong... but such a place doesn't exsist

waiting

sitting here forever
my cig burns down just like my lifeline
i swear i watched this sunset before
feels so alone without you here
i miss the touch of you i never felt
i miss your voice i've never heard
someone told me i'll meet you one day
but why does the wait seem so long
why can't i know you and kiss you now
the air has gone as cold as my heart
i know this when i felt it at the start
i hope you can thaw it for me
bring me back to life
its terrible lonesome without you
the music isn't as full
the scents of the night are not as kind
i take another drag and contemplate
is it really worth the wait
how do i know you exsist
i fear i've made you in my mind to keep me alive
i want to know when you'll fall from heaven
so i'll know when and where to catch you

update

hey all.... sry i haven't been as chatty or online as much as i used to be. since moving home i don't spend as much time on the computer anymore... i've been working fulltime (nights) and so on days off i'm either out of the house enjoying the daytime weather or sleeping.
within the past little while things have been changing here... i've got plans in motion to move to Arizona!!!!!!
i got stood up by my ex for a reconnecting date (and for some reason she isn't even talking anymore) go figure... but meh... fz$@ it ... time to move on...
i saw the 2nd transformers and it sucked balls... there were 3 redeeming values to it.... meg fox's right boob, meg fox's left boob, and explosions will solve all your problems.
my smoking habit has refused to leave... i've been off and on cigs but i'm calling the end of july for a final quit date... i really need to stop !!!!!!!
i plan on getting my hair re-bleached.... should i get it cut shorter again?
i bought the new eminem relapse and its is great f%z& what the haters say... billy talent's new cd is also really good...
well sorry for the late update... but at lest you know i'm still alive... not sure if this is a good thing tho... hahaha jk...

if ur bored... do this!

BASIC INF0RMATI0N...
Name:
Age:
Hair:
Eyes:
Piercings/tattoos:
Drink/smoke:

WHAT D0 Y0U THINK 0F MY...
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Humor:
Manners:
Friends:
Decisions:

W0ULD Y0U...
Go out with me:
Give me your number:
Kiss me:
Let me kiss you:
Watch a movie with me:
Drive me somewhere private:
Take a shower with me:
Be my bf/gf:
Take me home to meet your family:
Let me sleep in your bed if I didn't have one:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Hold my hand:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Ditch me:
Use me:

D0 Y0U...
Think I'm cute:
Want to kiss me:

AM I...
Smart:
Hot:
Funny:
Cool:
Interesting to talk to:

HAVE Y0U EVER...
Thought about me:
Thought there might be an "US":
Found yourself wanting to kiss me:
Wished I were there:
Wanted to ask me out:


WHAT W0ULD Y0U D0 IF...
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I touched your ass:
I was hospitalized:
I got in a fight and you were there:
I got dumped:
I pissed you off:

WILL Y0U...
Re-post this so I can fill it out for you?

FEELING OLD

I'M FEELING F~zx~w' OLD... MY B'DAY TODAY... SO MY QUESTION IS... IS IT LEGAL FOR A 20 YEAR OLD TO STILL WEAR SKINNY JEANS AND DYE HIS HAIR? OR DO I NEED TO CONFORM MORE TO SOCIETY ON THIS ONE?

my mindset

not only does he almost look like what i could when i'm older... but i think the same way...

broken strings...

loves passion

how perfect you are right
the wonderful sounds you make
i love the way you feel
so smooth and perfect
gentle and right
i'll turn you on without a second thought
i'll put you to the floor
we'll do it fast and slow
we'll do such things for adreniline flow
you never fail to please me
you are my first love
you are my first car!


bahahahaha sucka's...

yet another untitled...

yes it doesn't ryme half the time.... get over it

its the middle of the night... and these are just thoughts going through my head

now i could bust a ryme and preach some truth
but something about that would just fall through
you see i gave a shit about some f@yxy~' thing
only to find it didn't matter
now i could tell you whats the m%~y@#*z%@$%' issue is
but i think i'll sit back and just be like them other kids
and post a random blog
talkin' about my days so long
and how everybody seems to hate
but i think i'd just hesitate
you see people think that i'm a jerk or maybe something even worse
but i just want to take a moment to tell you theres lots people don't know of me
lotta peeps don't know my past
most of them never will
so why should i complain about my life if i ain't gunna talk about my past
why should i bother you with all my issues if all i get a 'get well soon'
you see many think that i act like this just to get attention
but that ain't the case, see its a matter of perspective, i swear people piss me just to get reaction
i don't care bout much half the time
and probably never will
you see a girl took my heart
and i was foohlish like cheap art
to think that maybe it would fix
and it would one could just mingle and mix
but i'm a different person now
i find it hard to feel
i care about best friends, but not what you had for a f#^x#w' meal
life is short i live it for others
my life is f^@$&^ so i try to help others
my life one day might fix up, till then i do my thing
proudly raise my middle finger
and tell you where to shove it
now you may call me a hater after readin' this
thinkin' that i'm just trying to make up a diss
but you don't know it
you can't hold it
so try to understand it
i love my friends more then anything
but i'll be damned the day i watch'em get hurt
i can't feel pain much anymore
so i'll do what i can to take it for them
maybe by doing this i can one day be on the mend
my heart is scattered
the pieces lost
i'm alive because i choose to be
not because my heart is keeping me
i could end it now
a simple slit would do the trick
virtically on my wrist
i'll even write her name
so people know why i'm dead
but thats the easy way
and i need this done my way
i'll fw^~y#' punch this m^#*$@w~zw&w out
i'll f%w%^%' work and make this better
i just need you to keep fxz^@^' breathing
don't give up on yourself
cause i'm not giving up on you neither
the bruses may grow
the strikes gain strengh
but nothing will be as strong as my commitment to you
don't give up on me now
cause i'm not giving up on you

untitled

yo i try to kick it, try to slit it, try to kill it, nothin' works
i thought i'd pass it, dump it, quit it, end it
my back is breakin' my knees are shakin'
all you haters can fy@$wz be breakin'
fw^% you all who spew and spit and read the sad poems for a fun bit
f@$* you all who think your great and act like your mind's the sharpest wit
razor blades speak, the poison has peaked
do or die suicide, like a breath of evil air, take it in a forever your bare
the damages of pain and hate
of love and joy
its like a cronic deaese, the suicide thoughts, to suicide marks
the end could happen if we let it
be there, be fair, people hurt
if you can't help, then move f#y@^& i'm there
i'm no great man, i have issues to, but at lest i'm better then you
at lest i care about their pain and sorrow
and not just read their poems expecting more tomorrow

temptation and pain

temptation and pain
truth must regain
i stand for myself for no one else
i drive for survival but sometimes need help
the temptation is great
the pleasure of pain
the peace of a scream
the joy of my demise
i watch and wait, hoping to die
blow by blow you comdem me
strike by strike you set me free
my freedom comes with running blood
my freedom comes with cold of death
my last breath is almost here i can feel it
you've beaten me to many times
i can no longer keep track
i want to end it all, and not come back
so i pray and i cry
just wishing i'd die
and screaming for death so the pain is gone
please god help, end it all, the pain the hurt
i can not walk
my voice isn't heard
just finish me now
before i murdered
i black out
i see someone else
i wake up
i live another day
why won't you just take me away
everyday is a struggle
everyday i want to die
everyday i cry, hoping to die
i need death soon
i cannot take this pain
need a reason to live
need something to drive for
need a reason for my life
need a hand to help me up
just hold out longer
help is on the way
a true friend, soon on the way
someone to share this pain
that is to much for one
someone to help you walk
when you can't stand up
someone to talk to when life is the shit
someone to hold you when you just can't live
someone to tell you its going to be ok
someone who will be there, every step of the way




to the person this is written to: hang in there... someone is on their way