Stay away from the guy across the road

You wont believe what i got myself in early last year, i had just broken up with my boyfriend and started crushing on the guy next across the road. he was my dads mate and i was truely falling for him. i stole his number from my dads phone and told him it was me and asked him if he could send me some jokes if he had any. so he did and after a while i asked if i could come over for a cupper and a chat. he said yes and woundered why i was so interested in him. to tell you the truth i dont even know even to this day. anyways we had a cupper and started talking about whatever and then out of know where i told him i had the meanest crush on him. he was fully blowen away. he was because i was 19 and he aws 31 at the time. a few weeks later my wish came true and now he was my man and the 1st night i stay it was a night i will never forget. a month had past and i wasd haven problems at home so i moved away to my mothers house in wellington. that lasted 3weeks and i was invited to live at my boyfriends house. on my way there i meet up with my x and he asked if we could talk so i went back to his house and next thing youy know i stayd a  whole week and cheated on the one who i actuli liked. i went to his house and told him what i had done and he forgave me and we had make up s**.  i moved back in to my dads and found out i was pregentO.M.F.G, i wasnt sure on who the daddy was until i found out my dates. i hesitated to tell my boyfriend as he had already told me he didnt want any children. i told him a few weeks later and he said it ant mine and i want a DNA test done which was fair enough.so a few months had past and my friend and i had parted as he thought it would be for the best but it wasnt. i had my beautiful baby boy and at 3 months old i built up the courage to put a letter in the letterbox across the road. it didnt take long before everything was ok with as until i found out he had been lieing and playing mind games with me and once again my heart was broken. i never named the guy across the road the father and im glad i didnt, he was sexiest a user womenizer and user. i should had never gone back those many times and even when i had my son. he woul;dnt stayd up to his responsibilities so why should i give him the satisfaction of wanting him. i still love him and he knows it but im getting over him at 1 day at a time not for me but for my son